Friday, January 29, 2010
- 走火入魔 - 丁当/阿信
对不起 刚才我 是不是听错
还是我 想太多 想到了昏头
天气 不错 开了窗 吹走脸红
进一步 退一步 都害怕打破
更不想 在原地 永远做朋友
给你 线索 也给我 勇敢藉口
下定决心 沉默
就让沉默 为我们追究
你和我 这一刻
无声的耳语交流
却突然震耳欲聋
一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
忘了我从什麼时候
忘了你为什麼能够让我
一步一步 走火入魔 和我
一直猜 一直想 一直的揣摩
一直到 你变成 甜蜜的心痛
如果 可以 把如果 变成结果
下定决心 执著
就让执著 为我们突破
我和你 的小说 这时候
出现烟火 让心间充满感动
一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
忘了我从什麼时候
忘了你为什麼能够让我
一步一步 走火入魔
一字一句一瞬间 走了火
一天一点一转眼 入了魔
如果你有相同感受
感受到有种突然的冲动
放肆一次 走火入魔
和我
Labels: Feeling this way..
| a simple day. 1/29/2010 01:31:00 AM
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
How does it feel running under the nite sky full of stars? Great.
Free mind of thots for tht 1 hr of run to lower seletar and back.
We ran very fast tht day. 4mins faster than the usual time we took.
I like the feel of the wind in my face.
I like the feel of speed. The feel of my heart racing.
It's one of those times tht u can relax after a whole day of sch.
Juz starring at the reservoir, put my mind at blank. I felt peace.
I love the peace in my heart.
=)
Now I'm scared.
Scared tht I wun be able to run for long. Scared tht I will lose this momentum.
Will there still be moments like these if I can't run for sometime?
为什么我会患得患失？
Mf, pls be 乖. Listen to what your body is trying to tell you.
Labels: Orion, pls stay by me.
| a simple day. 1/28/2010 08:57:00 AM
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Monday, January 25, 2010
You.Went back sch to swim b4 last supper on sat.
Swam again on Sun during ls123 course.
So weird. I'm beginning to love water more n more.
I'm beginning to gain confidence in it.
Perhaps it's becos my left lower calve is feeling more pain each time i run. Consequtively for 3 wks and counting. But I'm not feeling this pain in water.
I still love running. Guess that's a fact tht will nvr change. It's juz time for other activities to tk over me for a while till my legs have fully recover. I will still run though. Nt tht long distances. Mt. Nanhu is waiting for me. As well as berkelah. =) Legs, I need you.
So weird.
I felt pure happiness again yesterday.
Maybe becos i dun feel the pressure that i felt in club activities..
I laughed becos i'm happy.. i smiled becos it's from my heart.
I like this feeling.
And I hope time would stop there and then.
Today..Went for a run to lower seletar again.
I heard a song from noh's comp that I found it very very nice.. I'm still listening to it now..
That's when I love you - Aslyn When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To hear u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when you're mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u can't quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forget that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway
So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what
Becos when you love some1, you don't only love the perfect 80% of her but also the 20% imperfection of hers. 你曾经问我 "留下来不开心，为什么还留下来？"
我答了一句，“舍不得lo.."
你说，“是真的舍不得吗？”
“那你认为呢？”
"For me to know and you to find out."
我想.. 我应该知道答案了。
Labels: Because of you
| a simple day. 1/25/2010 11:47:00 PM
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Sunday, January 24, 2010
Last supper
Yesterday was our club's annual "last supper". A time given for the next comm to be revealed.
Dunno y i felt a strong feeling pulling my heart down.. when M said, "I wish "they" were here.. I really wish my c*** members were here.." I guess.. i understand hw he felt.. for tht moment.. i felt what his heart was saying..
It's really hard. To be walking alone without being supported by any1..
Really hope tht the upcoming "uno cards" will work better..
Without different color cards, it's difficult to win a game. Even if you possess all power cards, without normal cards, it's impossible for a game to end.
Changes
Nt thinking tht much le.. for the past few days my mind's solely on work & projects.. I've nt been me for the past few days.. but i enjoy it.
People are ever-changing. Even i've changed since 1/2 yr ago.
Labels: So many feelings that words can't describe.
| a simple day. 1/24/2010 10:02:00 AM
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Saturday, January 23, 2010
오늘 헤어졌어요
After covering my face with a white muffler,
I waited for you as i blinked my red-shot eyes.
Those words that I wanted to say
But not quite sure what they are
An awkward nod with a tightening throat
As we take a step back,
The empty space between us is filled with tears.
I angrily exclaimed, "Go!"
And it seems like that I've fled far far away.
Broke up today, we've broken up.
If you think you can understand my heart,
Then please, cry with me.
I suppose I can't be the 1, I suppose it's a no.
How longer do i have to cry before you love me sufficiently?
Your heartbeats and you echo in my eardrums
The lips locked away, gets clearer.
Since when and where did we drift apart?
When you've loved me till yesterday
I was happy, I was so happy that it pained more.
I hate myself for getting tricked by love
I should have stayed and told you i was hurt.
Our memories of love, that should be holding you back.
You live tomorrow and i today.
No one, nothing can make me smile.
A very touching Korean song.. personally like this song alot cos it's 1 of sentimental songs that i've heard in korean.. the storyline of the MV captures me too.. can catch its MV on youtube.. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uJEg736X2gg
| a simple day. 1/23/2010 02:38:00 AM
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Friday, January 22, 2010
You know what...
Sometimes it's only when u look back at the little things u've said & done.. the very little things u've argued about.. u find urself very childish.
Very.
Do you?
| a simple day. 1/22/2010 03:20:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Weekend Getaway.The past wkend had been a relaxing 1.. the 1 i've always dreamt of... lying there, thinking of nth, slacking once in a while.. went changi beach to slack with 1/2 of j. famili and qy.. hammocking and chatting.. all the way till the next morning..
Went for slow & relaxing runs on both sat & sun evenings to lower seletar.. had some chats.. i know this may be my last relax wkend this sem.. the rest should all be packed by studying and sch stuff as well as ls123..
It's nice. To find a day out to juz do nth and have absolutely nth on ur mind. It helps to start everything afresh. I know i'm ready to sprint all the way after this break. As well as what i can do for the future.
Instead of fearing what has yet to come, might as well do the best i can.
Mf. Jiayou.
Don't be taunted by what others say. They may be rite. Ultimately, i should know myself better than any1 else.
So weird.
Time had brought me to realization. Maybe it's you who changed me. You who taught me the word "confidence". Do you know i'm talking about YOU & nt HIM?
Lol..
也许有些话放在心里不用说，也会感觉得到..
Labels: Jiayou
| a simple day. 1/19/2010 09:24:00 AM
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
The truth
People always says the truth hurts. But today, i'm contented to know the truth and i'm not hurt.
At least i've cleared some doubts n misunderstandings about you.
At least i know that you are still the person i've 1st come to know.
It's weird. I didn't shed a single tear for what you've told me like i used to. Thanx. Sincerely. For removing all the feelings i had w/o hurting me.
Perhaps a bit of guilt.. for the hostility these past few months. And the wrong assumption / accusation that I've made.
Sorry. From the bottom of my heart. Honestly.
Maybe I don't really know u well after all.
Clarify, seek & ask for truth.
Becos misunderstanding had cost 1/2 yr of friendship that had been gone to waste.
Assumption. It's indeed the worst word out of dictionary.
My future seems bleak now... It's like a piece of white paper with 1/2 drawn picture that I've just realised that what i want to draw is another piece of artwork.. but the paper will not be white for me again.
If i were to go back to the past to change 1 thing, what would i have changed? I didn't answer this qn from the bottom of my heart today.
I may not know what will be in store for me in the future.. but i jolly well know that i'm gg to try everything that can brg me to tht future i want for myself.
"Promises are meant to be kept."
Labels: Do i really know what to do this time?
| a simple day. 1/17/2010 02:28:00 AM
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Friday, January 15, 2010
Changes
To me. To u. To him. To her. To us.
These past few days had been terrible... =(
| a simple day. 1/15/2010 01:18:00 AM
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Thursday, January 7, 2010
I was so stupid...To think that i was able to live with it.
To think that i didn't care a single bit.
To just realize that i haven put down anything, not even a single bit since last yr's dinner.
To let the feeling of segregation come back again.
To lie through my teeth n say tht 2010 will be a happier 1.
To hide all disappointment behind laughters and jokes.
Maybe it had nvr left b4..
Maybe 1 mistake will take forever to be erased, just like wad u said.
I dun wanna noe anything.. i juz want to feel belonged.
Sometimes it's juz out of your control, the way u feel.
Now i understand y each and every1 of us dun have the rite to say that others are petty. Becos a small thing that may not matter to u may matter a lot to another person. Vice versa.
I was so stupid.. to think tht maybe for a moment u actually cared.
If its taking all ur strength...
If its killing your heart...
If its making you bear too much pain...
Its making you ignore everything else...
Make sure its worth it...
Otherwise...
Let it go.
Should i?
Labels: Stupidity
| a simple day. 1/07/2010 01:03:00 AM
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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
For once I really feel..Tht i've lost the only person who understands hw i felt.Tht i've lost the only person whom i can talk to and understands my situation.Like being a bad girl & walk away without caring anymore..Like abandoning people.Like shouting out loud.Totally used. * So who are ur true frens girl? *Labels: So many feelings that words can't describe.
| a simple day. 1/06/2010 05:56:00 PM
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DreamI dreamt of laying on the rocks last nite.. looking at a sky full of stars with fireflies..
Snapped back to reality very soon. But in actual fact, i overslept n missed the 1st lesson of the day. Guess I must have slept on the "rock" for quite some time.
I still miss trekking. A lot.
Labels: Back to the place i want to be
| a simple day. 1/06/2010 01:03:00 PM
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Saturday, January 2, 2010
Crazy beginning..
My 1st day of this yr.. reach home 10plus am.. slack on bed for 3hrs.. out for movie again..
Sotong me started the yr sotongly..
Anyway, the nite turned out to be beta than wad i thot..
Crazy but great, i watched 2 movies in a row at 2 different places..
Avatar -3d (With yy)
Dunnid me to say, alot of ppl have being giving great comments on this big production.. in my mind i was alr prepared for a great show but didn't know tht it will turn out even more than this.. mind-blowing.. breath-taking.. touched by the movie itself.. the love of the natives for their land.. how they tried to protect it n yet it was eventually still ruined by the humans.. lost of lives.. taste of betrayed love.. betrayal of own race.. can't believe tht tears actually rolled down when their country was blown.. becos for tht 1hr past, i juz felt tht i'm part of "The People" alr..
There's 1 phrase tht Netiyir told Jake the 1st time they met.. "Your heart is strong, very strong... but you are stupid! Juz like a child.." Somehw.. i feel.. it's like me.. lol.. part of it.. love every single part of the movie.. the weird thing is.. my favourite part was not the climax but the simplest part where Netiyir taught Jake hw to be 1 of them.. running from trees to trees.. dropping on leaves.. hunting for animals n praying (I assume) for the animal after killing them..talk in their native language.. n 1 thing i like abt them.. they slp in hammocks too! =) Wow.. tht's the kinda life i want.. hated the human race (during the movie) becos the natives didn't even want anything fr them in the 1st place, didn't even thot of hurting them.. they juz want a peaceful life in tht land of theirs.. but juz becos of human greed, human destroy their homeland.. "Jiayou" was the only word i can say under my breath for the blue natives..
I see you.
好久都没感受到如此震撼的感动。
Fruit tart date..
After the movie went to meet yc n wn at the fruit tart shop tht we have "dated" to eat tgt.. =) We've missed it 3 times! 3 times we were in tht area but couldn't eat it becos we were too late! Amazing thing is , we didn't plan to go out tgt yesterday.. i happened to be watching avatar at marina n suddenly thot of the fruit tart date.. but eating w/o yc n wn like lacking of sth lidat.. becos it's our unfulfiled date.. n we finally fulfilled it yesterday! =) Guess it was fate.. nt only did it brg us tgt to celebrate new yr.. it also brought us tgt 1.75 yrs ago at berkelah =)
豆浆油条
Yc, jeremy n yy left after dessert.. wn n me went to buy tix for movie part 2 - Vampire's assistant. chatted over rochor tauhuey, youtiao.. felt so relax.. life's a slow-mo for tht few hrs..
Movie part II - Vampire's Assistant
Vampire's assistant was nt bad.. but maybe becos the impact of Avatar was still in my mind.. vampire's assistant didn't really fascinated me tht much.. But i enjoyed the circus part whr alot of freaks performed their "specialty and the part whr 1 of the main character blow the flute n the spidy danced to his music.. so cute..
Initial plans of continuing to "Treasure Hunter" was dashed becos i felt aslp for tht 10 or 15mins during Vampire.. nt really prepared to watch another 1.5 hr of movie.. but my 1st day of the yr was well spent.. with ppl who noes me.. by the heart =)
Hope it's juz a passing cloud in my life.
Labels: New beginning.
| a simple day. 1/02/2010 11:45:00 AM
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Friday, January 1, 2010
1st post of the year..
Blessed.. to have a fren whom can share our feelings.. who can laugh tgt.. to spend my last day of 2009.
My last..
Meal: Wantan mee
Person i'm with: Gal
Place: Changi Beach
Activity: Blow bubbles n transparent balloons
My 1st..
Meal : Curry chicken, sotong balls n green tea
Person i'm with : Gal
Place: Gal's house toilet
Activity: Bathing (lol..)
My past years new year have all been in town with adcians n frens.. enjoyed them as well.. somehw this yr i want to have a more peaceful start.. maybe having a peaceful start will mean a peaceful year ahead? Tht''s 1 of my wishes on my wishlist..
Yeah.. 01012010 doesn't seem to be any special day.. it's juz another day.. but becos i've spent my 1st day with u, this made today special =) Thanx Gal =)
New year resolutions.. failed to accomplish my past yrs' so might as well dun make any.. still.. there's 1 thing i want to do..
Complete at least 10 marathons in my life and try 1 ironman.. will be satisfied.. it's rather a hope than a resolution i guess.. sth for me to look 4ward to n kp on training.. nt derived overnite or on impulse.. due to a marathoner's blog.. he inspired me i guess.. =)
Another wish, hope tht i will be a happier gal than the 1 i used to be.
From this moment, everything stops. Moving on with my next chapter of life.
Labels: The end.
| a simple day. 1/01/2010 01:26:00 PM
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