Saturday, September 26, 2009
Juz updated blog abt trip to TW n sea exp. These 2 trips had been an eye-opener for me n left deep memories.
"Getting lost is sometimes a good thing. It allows you to expect the unexpected n discover things tht u nvr thot u would have stumbled upon."
Leaving for Stong in 2 days time.
The feeling is different. How different i dunno myself.. Juz.. different.
Stong, it's the 1st mountain tht i will be re-visiting. Dunno hw much has it change.. anticipation? Or fear? Or the feeling of 不舍?
I seem to be having the life of my time.. but deep inside.. sometimes i ask myself is this wad i wanted? Trying to convince myself this is.. telling ppl hw happy, how looking 4ward i am.. but honestly, hw well do i even know of myself?
Went down to adv park on thu.. there's so little things tht i can do.. as i've lost practice of everything.. my passion is still there.. i can feel the voice in me calling me to learn, to start over again.. but i left the park eventually.
U can feel so alone even with so many ppl ard u at times.
For tht few hrs, the confidence tht i've regained over the past mth vanished. N juz the thot of tht mks me feel small.
2 words flashed in my mind, rang in my ears. "Smile always"
Went for dinner at S-11 wif alot of ppl after training. Eyes landed on the tv monitor tht used to play tht music video. But the video was not being played anymore.
"U can feel so alone even with so many ppl ard u at times."
Yesterday's dinner was so short. But enjoyable n warm.
Will be 2 wks b4 we will be having tht dinner again.
Byez..
谁 -
蜜雪薇琪遇见谁 渴望有谁依偎
错过谁过了就无法挽回
爱过谁 为他放弃一切
就算世界毁灭也无所谓
你是谁 让我爱的那么深
我是谁 让你感觉太疲倦
那个谁带走了我的谁
恨为自己少了你疼
我不会有眼泪
我想我该学习如何忘记你的脸
擦干眼泪飞向窗外那片蓝的天
或许会飞的有点累
一个人旅途有点远
孤单的我不想再为谁而停歇
我想努力学习忘记伤害我的人
却又不停想起和他经历的画面
难过有那么一点点
回忆又那么的明显
鼓起勇气对他说再见
不再见面 不用抱歉
我会勇敢的去飞
我想我该学习如何忘记你的脸
擦干眼泪飞向窗外那片蓝的天
或许会飞的有点累
一个人的旅途太遥远
孤单的我不想再为谁而停歇
我想努力学习忘记伤害我的人
明天的路还有许多美丽等我发现
我会继续努力的飞
我会找到我要的世界
那一天就会是晴天
我会带着笑容去面对
| a simple day. 9/26/2009 05:49:00 PM
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Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Juz arrived back home from TW, yet i'm ready for another "adventure" - sea epedition with WVPR.. well, it's nth very big.. it's juz a journey from pasir ris to east coast then back again.. but the journey is very very long.. 57km initially.. it lengthens to 67.2km becos of a small storm mid way to east coast branch.. i was alone in this expedition initially.. cos there's no1 i know.. felt reali alone initially..
We (me n my partner) started out okok.. but seeing the distance btw us n the more experienced paddlers was quite demoralising.. luckily there's Pei En, Zhi Hao n another guy i 4gt his name le.. we stayed quite close tgt as our speed was abt the same.. maybe becos we are the same age so we gt along quite well.. had things to talk abt.. they motivated me qutie alot too.. the ice broke quite fast.. My instructor also encouraged me on the way.. Thanx to these ppl..
This trip was quite "exciting".. when we were near the changi naval base.. 1stly, we accidentally crossed their boundaries i guess n there's a voice coming out from a loud speaker saying, "Stop, stop, or i will shoot.." This sentence repeated itself twice or thrice i think. At 1st i was stunned by tht command. But after awhile came another voice, a more human voice, "testing, testing.." ok
-_-" so they are testing their system.. There's this guy (also 4gt wad's his name le) still asked us, is he testing the system or testing the guns.. wth.. haha..
Nxt up.. a storm.. we expected it as our kayaks "met up" with a police coast guard boat n the police officer in it warned us abt the choppy waters ahead.. actualli the waters we are in are alr quite choppy, causing difficulties for us to move 4ward.. we are like stuck at the same place for an hour.. no matter hw hard we paddled, the infrastructure on my left tht i use as a landmark dun seem to be moving.. it's realli demoralising.. like u juz want to give up.. a sentence came across my head, "What if the motivator loses his motivation himself?" I'm nt scared. Juz tired. In fact i'm satisfied tht i'm able to experience how isit like to kayak in choppy waters or even a storm. For the 1st time in my life i felt a bit "wavy" abit giddy, i guess tht's hw it feels like to be sea-sick.. though mine is nt tht serious.. We beached up eventually, near changi coastal beach n waited for 10mins for the storm to subside.. also for every1 to tk a break. Set off again for east coast n tht's the end of a day.
Had our dinner at parkway. It's nice to be eating wif them. Hearing their past experiences abt the places they have went to.. their encounters etc. But somehow, my "famili" is missed. It's like.. a wk.. n 1 of them for 2 wks i haven been seeing them le. Maybe can say it's a habit, but it's a gd habit tht i've grown too used to n like.. in a nutshell, can't wait to be back wif them.
Went to ntuc to shop for our nxt day lunch.
The next day was not as bad.. we managed to reach Pasir ris earlier with the good weather bestowed on us. Though it's still very tiring.. But i'm able to kp myself motivated beta after a gd nite's slp tht i needed. "Jiayou jiayou." It's a word tht we continuously used in our daily lives yet it can be so powerful thinking tht there's some ppl u nid to work hard for.. tht u cannt give up upon.. some ppl tht will be jiayou-ing for u on shore too.. my motivation, a bottle of orange meiji yoghurt drink.. haha..
We finalli reached pasir ris ard 4pm. Wash up n bathe.. n for the 1st time i hear some1 say tht he's proud of me =) I know i haven accomplished much. I've almost given up along the way. I have even told this person i dun dare to tell others tht i'm his student.. haha.. maybe i'm losing confidence.. but at the end of the trip he still gave me a five n told me he's proud of me. Tht's my star 2 instructor, Charles. =) Hey, tht sentence was reali impt.. cos i was reali depleted in confidence n he regained my confidence in kayaking again.. though my nxt "date" with kayaks most probably wun be happening till 1 or 2 mths later.. juz hope tht i dun disappoint him. =)
Went for a movie + dinner wif my famili after the expedition. The Proposal. It's a damn funny movie. Cannt say it's the best movie i've watched. But it tells sth, we onli realise tht we can't bear to leave ppl when they are leaving. In the movie, it's nt too late for Andrew to tell Margaret his true feelings.. Does tht happen in real life too? Or sometimes it's reali too late.. Juz a passing feel for this show..
Day ended at selegie soy beancurd after dinner at fd court. =)
| a simple day. 9/23/2009 12:53:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
"Backpacking makes you realise how simple your life can be, how there is really no need for all the materialistic things that we feel are a necessity. All you need is a backpack!" - Alexandra J. Papas - That's a summarize of my feeling in taiwan. A backpack is all we needed to explore the country.
Feel so free without having to care abt anything. Like i'm finalli free n away from the city i've grown tired in.
The moment the plane took off, there's just 1 sentence in my mind : I'm finally gg off. Finally away.
The buildings shrunk smaller n smaller, like we are walking on maps, flying over oceans. Soon, we were among the clouds. After 4.5 hrs of flight, we reached Taipei Tao Yuan International Airport. It was alr 7.20pm when we manage to find a bus (Guo Guang 号) that will bring us to taipei 车站 from which we nid to tk mrt to Xi Men 车站 whr we will nid to navigate our way to our home for 4 nites.. At the mrt station, we gt our 1st intro to taipei culture: They line up while gg into the mrt. Tht's a thing tht we will nvr see in Singapore. They even have 2 separate lines, yellow 1 to tell ppl nt to go too near to the railway n a white 1 for ppl to line up at. We used coins to buy tokens to board the mrt there. To go in we have to tap the token, juz like tapping an ezlink card. It's very unique.. ok.. maybe to us.. we are like 2 "sotongs" in the city. Typical tourists. Everything seems special to us whereas it's juz so common to the residence there. Once we get out of Xi Men Station, we navigated our way to Taipei Backpackers Hostel. It was quite difficult initially as there was a lot of small alleys with lots of different chinese names. We have to look for landmarks etc. Finally found Kunming Street. Then walked down the street to find #113. By the time we reached, unpack n get ready to set off for a get-to-know-the-streets aka supper trip, it was already 9 plus.. the owner of the hostel was quite friendly n helpful. Gave us their namecard which there's a map at the back. Alot of places tht tourists would be interested in are also marked on the map so it's quite useful to us, esp to help us find our way back the next few nites. =)
Walking along the streets of Taipei at nite is totally different from tht of S'pore. Mainly becos their nite life is very active 1s. We met an uncle at his store "阿财烤肉". Bought roasted mushroom, beef and beancurd from him. Chatted with him for a while, asking what time does the shops around here close n he said,"这边附近的店都关得比较早，差不多一，两点。我的比较迟一点，四点才关。。" So their early is 2am.. haha.. tht nite we also went to their 24hrs convenience stores like 7-11, Family Store, Hi-Life, to buy our bathing kit. Stop at a few n shop ard inside as the things they sell in their convenience stores are also quite different from ours. Went to KFC becos we haven had our dinner yet since the plane landed except for a bottle of apple milk. I love their apple milk! It's freaking nice =) Even their fast food is different from ours.. We shared cheese balls, 黑糖mochi egg tart n a chicken leg.. the best part is their egg tart.. gt 3 layers inside, mochi (white), caramel (black) and egg custard (yellow). When u bite all these 3 tgt, they juz matches so well.. haha.. i saw this egg tarts on SCV's taiwan commercial 2 yrs ago n i still rmb them till nw.. the cheese balls are also nth like S'pore's 1s.. really melts when u tk the 1st bite.. k, enough of this advertisements.. oh, n the most amazing part of their KFC is that... they sell PORK BURGER.. PORK.. haha.. die le, KFC there nt halal 1.. haha..
Our main aim tht nite was to go to 中正纪念堂 aka Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall. We saw a tall lited building n i assumed that that is it cos it looks like the pic on the bk i borrowed from sch lib.. so we headed towards it. On the way, pass by their mac also.. another culture of taipei: They seems to like Doraemon alot alot.. everywhr we go we can see pdts of Doraemon, figures of Doraemon.. At the entrance of their mac we can alr see some.. haha.. of course tht attrated wn as it's her "mascot" =p (no offence?) We took some pics with them n went in to see if there's anything special sold there. We saw a bbq chicken burger tht S'pore dun sell so we ordered it. They even serve us ice lemon tea cos there's a waiting time of abt 6mins for the preparation of food. Tht is what we dun see in S'pore too.. In the end we gt mc spicy instead cos there's no more bbq chicken burger.. n also b4 tht wn said (jokingly) she wanted to try if the mcspicy here will be more spicy than S'pore's 1. Her "wish" came true.. haha.. anyway, the mc spicy there nt as nice as S'pore's.. can give it a miss nxt time =)
We continued our "trip" to the memorial hall.. there's this poster tht caught my eyes - Deaflympics. It's a major sports event where sportsmen who have impaired hearing from all over the world come tgt n compete.. sth like olympics but it's done by the ppl who have hearing disability. Didn't know there's such an event so it attracted me.. Quite curious abt hw isit like n hw isit different from the real Olympics.. We passed by a few buildings like the MOE, NTUH etc.. took pics everywhr.. cos everything looked so unique to us.. even the telephone booths, dustbins, mail boxes looked unique to us.. n their police post are found almost everywhr.. policemen also can be seen patrolling the streets of Taipei.. we gt checked once cos it's also quite weird tht 2 gals are walking on the streets of Taipei at such late hours.. we came across a building, supposedly to be their President House (PH) , like our Istana lidat.. n we stopped to look at the map a while.. when we continued walking, a very friendly policeman from the PH asked us whr are we heading to. We just told him we want to go to the Memorial Hall, asking him for directions n if it's open 24hrs.. he's realli damn friendly.. nt onli telling us the directions but also chatted with us a while.. sths he said tht we found it quite hilarious, "你们对我们台北的治安还蛮有信心的.." haha.. guess it's nt becos of our confidence of their security but becos we have each other as accompany tht made it nt so scary to walk on the streets in the middle of the nite.. at least tht's the case for me =)
We walked on quite awhile b4 we finalli reach the memorial hall. But it's dark inside. Without lights. We approached the security guard there n he told us tht ya, the memorial hall is open 24hrs but the exhibition hall is closed so we can't enter the hall but can walk ard the garden.. when we thot tht there will be lightings there at nite.. but it's ok.. we made our way back to the hostel n by the time we reach is alr 4am in the morning.. bathe le slp for 3 hrs n we began our nxt day to Wulai waterfalls..
We had 豆浆油条, 烧饼 for breakfast tht morning.. Y did i mention this specially.. becos their 豆浆 is simply awesome.. nth like S'pore's 1.. the taste is sth u wun find in S'pore.. it's the best drink i like there.. maybe is also becos i like soya milk in the 1st place.. the 2nd best is their papaya milk.. though i onli tried abit of wn's.. the shop we bought the milk is a 木瓜牛奶专卖店 (specialty shop) but becos i'm interested in the flavors tht S'pore dun have, "桂圆牛奶" (dried longan milkshake), so bought tht instead.. it's super nice =) Reali reali like it alot.. k.. enuff of the episode wif milk..
After bf, we headed for Wulai, taking train to Xin Dian Station.. supposed to tk bus into vincity of Wulai but becos a cab driver approached us n he's offer is quite gd also so we shared his cab wif an old lady into Wulai. When we reach there, we were unsure of whr to go cos the map doesn't seem to show any walkable way into Wulai mountain n it's waterfall.. another taxi uncle approached us, asking whr we want to go, introducing us to Nei Dong, a new commercialized area there in which there's waterfalls n a forest trail.. there's also a cable car ride available up the mountain.. but we had no time for tht as it's quite late le.. So taxi in n planned to walk out as the uncle showed us the way le.. he said nid to walk 20km for 2hrs.. but we're ok wif tht.. haha.. n he made a comment, "你们新加坡人是很爱走路吗？" Haha.. nt all lah uncle.. maybe some from adventure clubs n trekkers.. the nxt comment he made was, "oh, 你们是从新加坡来的。。我以为你们是非隶宾（philipin) 人。。” Most probably due to our dark skin colors.. we had a gd laugh n chat on the way into Nei Dong.. finalli we reach n started our trail into NeiDong..
The sound of waterfall was welcoming.. so nice to hear the gushing waters again.. the last time was at mt stong last yr i guess.. NeiDong is a quite commercialized place.. with proper paths for pedestrains.. bridges.. etc.. 1 of the bridges tht i like alot alot.. is becos of its name - 乐水桥 。I guess it's becos the water underneath will brg happiness? haha.. no idea.. but tht's my wild interpretation.. we couldn't collect the water fr the waterfalls like we used to do in expeditions as all are surrounded by gates n wooden barriers.. but the sceneries are rewarding enuff =) There's 3 levels of waterfalls there.. along the way there are "teaching boards" (like those in macritchie) telling u what creatures can u find there etc.. after reaching the 3rd waterfall, we decided to try the forest trail.. however we onli manage to climb 1/2 way up as it was getting late n we were unsure whether the gates into the park will be close anot.. so we headed down.. when we were reaching the opening, it began to drizzle n eventualli rained.. luckily we turned back.. if nt we'll be caught in the dark n rain up in the mountain.. as we approach the gates, another thot came into our minds, are we gg to walk for 2hrs in the rain? Actualli we dun mind juz tht it would be beta to kp ourselves dry n healthy for the next 3 days.. n lady luck seems to be smiling at us.. an uncle was juz abt to enter his car n a thot flashed across our minds, can we hitch a ride? Juz ask onli.. so we approached the uncle n w/o hesitating he nodded his head.. tht's the 3rd person tht left an impression of TW-ians in my mind.. they are juz so frenly, so simple, w/o any agenda in their minds.. very willing to help others.. he even offered us a towel to dry ourselves cos it will be quite cold when he on the air-condition in his car.. took us all the way to 乌来小街, showed us whr to tk the bus back to taipei b4 dropping us.. THANX UNCLE NO.3 =) Though i know u wun see.. but still thanx =)
We took a walk down the street of Wu Lai, buying their 温泉蛋 n 铁蛋.. eating 山猪香肠 n seaweed mochi on stick.. super nice can.. went into an aborigin shop whr they sell handicrafts made by the Taiya tribes.. n becos we were in our trekking attire which gave them an impression tht we are sportswomen, 1 of the shop owner asked me, "Are u from Deaflympics?" I answered her no. The funny part came when her partner told her, "If she's from Deaflympics she wun be able to hear what u asked..." haha.. yeah.. they are very nice ppl.. kp asking what sports we do etc.. i bought a bracelet n a gift there cos the sand in bottle reminds me of her =)
Gave up the 温泉 there to go 师大夜市.. ate our dinner there.. saw trouble almost happening in front of our eyes as a western guy is harassing a TW gal on her scooter.. the gal looks cool but angry.. almost wanting to start the engine of her scooter in front of the western guy.. luckily ppl ard her stopped her..
We had our 1st proper meal on our 3rd day there.. beef noodle n mixed fruit milk ice (杂果牛奶冰）.. guess wad's my fav food there.. FRUITS =) Nt becos i'm health conscious but becos their fruits are realli super sweet.. different fr the 1s we buy in S'pore too.. esp their peach, mango n strawberries.. Went to shop ard Xi Men Street for clothes, shoes n stuff.. decided to wear sth different there.. clothes and accessories tht we seldom wear in S'pore.. the streets are very bz in the afternoon.. n abit dangerous too.. cos scooters n ppl share the same road.. of cos we eat as we walked.. the 3rd day was ice cream day.. had a very special ice cream from COLDSTONE. Cotton candy flavored n Tie Guan Yin flavor.. then we had the tall tall yoghurt ice cream.. gt 30cm tall.. had a hard time eating it.. tht's y called it "很难吃又好吃的雪糕" =D =D =D Went to their adventure store too.. the stuff there were amazing.. saw a shirt tht is quite useful for trekking cos it's long sleeves can be detached to become a short sleeve shirt. Also gt a foldable cup, plates, spoons n forks. They can be flatten like cardboard when nt use n folded into utensils when needed. The onli thing is it's plastic material so dun think can hold food tht is very hot. N it's quite ex also. But can't find the sleeveless hooded waterproof shirt. Disappointed.
Went to Shilin nite mkt in the nite.. ate quite alot of special thingy there.. luckily we shared everything if nt dun think we can try tht much variety of fd.. their super big chicken cutlet, oyster mee sua, smelly toufu, coffin bread etc..For once we reached home early.. ard 1am =)
Nxt day, however, we woke up late.. so missed the trip to Yang Ming Shan.. decided to go Dan Shui instead to see it's fisherman's wharf.. it's reali extremely beautiful there.. y i kp mentioning abt Danshui is becos i reali reali reali like tht place alot alot.. it's very calm, peaceful.. words are nt enuff to describe the feeling tht it left in my heart. It's like, for once, my heart is reali at peace. We were juz in time to catch the sunset at the Wharf n the sky was amazing. A surge of sadness overwhelm me as i was looking at the waters of Dan Shui under the disappearing sun. No reason y. It juz came but it left. As sudden as it came.
The lights of valentine's bridge lited up as nite falls. We were bz tking photo shots of ourselves at the end of the Wharf.. went down to see their shops n found a shop tht reminds me of Rainie Yang's “不良校花”- a funfair shop where u will be given rings to throw n loop on the accessories u want.. it's so damn cute.. after a while we bought the ferry tix to 淡水小镇 then to 八里码头. Our initial aim is to head for the beach which looks very far from the place we alighted.. but anyway, juz walk onli.. haha.. we went pass a bicycle shop n decided to rent a bike to the beach.. nvr will i dream tht i will have a chance to cycle in a foreign country.. it may seem normal to u guys but to me.. it's reali a special treat.. even though it's on their park connector onli n we didn't went very far.. still the ride was cooling.. saw green fireflies along the dark passage.. sat on the swings of their playground.. it's juz like the revive of our childhood.. the nite view there is beautiful as well.. if onli time could stop there n then.. i dun mind juz living there 4eva..
Took the last bus home n manage to catch the last train back to Xi Men Ding..
The nxt day, which is also our last day, we packed our bags before checking out of the hostel. The owner was very kind to allow us to deposit our bagpacks in their storerm knowing tht our flight is late in the evening. So we can still shop ard taipei county w/o the load =) Headed for taipei 101.. tk their shuttle bus from Taipei City Hall station. Initially we decided to climb all the way up to 101 lvl thinking tht no tourist would have thot of this idea b4.. however, we reached a blockage at lvl 5.. found out tht there's an entrance fee to the top tower.. cannt climb the tower after all.. We are onli allow to the 88th, 89th n 91st flr.. there were some art exhibitions as well as some info on the tower itself in the observatory rm.. from there, we can see Xue Shan Tunnel aka 雪山隧道，四兽山 (becos the mountain range forms the shapes of tiger, snake n 2 other animals i 4gtten le..) ，观音山 n other mountain ranges.. looking down, the buildings, car, tracks looked so much like legos.. ppl look like ants running on their stadium tracks.. also saw Taipei 小巨蛋 in which a lot of major concerts are held.. the most amazing thing i saw is 2 workers are hangg outside the 89th flr 101 cleaning windows! Was thinking if i were in their positions.. hmm.. wun even open my eyes..
After tht went straight to airport.. on the way there a news on tv caught my eyes.. n it's the 2nd time tht i felt abit sad there.. touched to be exact..1 of a coupled dogs gt hit by a car n died yet her companion still stayed by her side, nt willing to move even when ppl tried to drag him away.. he juz kp licking his companion.. trying to wake her up, nt believing tht she's dead i guess.. the scene is very heart-breaking.. it mks me ponder abt a fact: sometimes human can't even be compared to dogs who are so loyal.. so loyal to their partners.. even dogs have such deep feelings for each other.. they are reali wonderful animals..
Gdbye TW..
"Goodbye doesn't means the end. It just means tht i'm going to miss u till the nxt time we meet again."
Tht means I'm gonna go back there (^^)Y
| a simple day. 9/22/2009 02:21:00 AM
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Monday, September 21, 2009
A song that i've heard twice in a day at taiwan.. Once at the ice shop we went to eat mango ice, once at a boutique shop we walked passed.. Couldn't figure out who the singers were initially.. dun even have the title to this song but type 1 of the lyrics into my hp so came back to singapore to find it.. This song captured me by it's lyrics, then it's tune.. a song by wilbert pan n alissa gao yi ai.. enjoy =)
出乎意料 作詞：詞: 徐世珍 作曲：曲: terrytyelee
愛有輸有赢 拍拍肩為你打打氣 好像就是從那天起 常常會和你不期而遇 和你的交集 是朋友的朋友而已 開始想打给你 這心情有一種愛的嫌疑 有的人為了一棵樹 放棄那片森林 這麼傻的事情卻讓人很開心 就好像是我终於遇見了你 baby baby 愛出乎意料 你的微笑又像是玩笑 我突然睡不著 從前已不重要 未來我會不會被你擁抱 baby baby 愛出乎意料 你的眼神讓我偷偷的心跳 一顆心那麼真 月光也那麼美 而我在合你身邊那麼剛好 享受曖昧的美好很想为你加油打气，很想帮你背那个包袱，又觉得没资格。
总而言之，记得要忘记。忘记那些不好的回忆。
"与其对自己犯过的错后悔，伤心，倒不如想办法让自己进步。” －纪存熙
“不是对不起陈欣宜。是加油陈欣宜。” －纪存熙
你也一样。加油。
| a simple day. 9/21/2009 11:49:00 PM
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"You know u love some1 when u start to miss them, miss their presence, miss their smiles, miss their jokes, basically, juz missing everything abt them."
Tht's what was felt. For the past 1 or 2 wks.
So nice to be gg out tgt again yesterday =) Though parts of the puzzle are missing. Like the mata boi, hero n taufu.
Movie's great. Dinner as well. Tireness fades. Becos it's all with u guys =)
Updating soon on taiwan trip.. maybe tonite if i have nt slp =)
| a simple day. 9/21/2009 12:20:00 PM
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Saturday, September 19, 2009
I'm back =) But gg for sea exp soon..
Fell in love wif Taiwan. Cos it's beautiful with simple, sweet n nice ppl.. =) Shall go back there soon..
Pics up in another few days time =) Stay tuned (' ^)
| a simple day. 9/19/2009 05:14:00 AM
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
Last post before leaaving..The title sounds wrong..haha.. but yup, this should be my last post before i leave for taiwan =) Well.. who knows wad may happen *touchwood* maybe it's after watching Final Destination i have this feeling tht any1 could leave this world any moment.. haha..
Regrets.. perhaps i have none but juz 2.. 1, for nt having enuff courage to say wad i wanted to say, express wad i wanted to express.. always holding back my feelings n nt let them be known.. always in denial.. dunno for wad.. 2, for nt fulfilling my duty n mking others worry.. Maybe i have yet to prove tht i'm an adult yet.. ok, stop it wif this stupid "last post".. we will be back on fri nite =) Safe n sound =)
Haven being gg to fb recently.. Maybe have lost interest in it? Found the yoghurt drink i've been looking at all 7-11s.. some sold out le.. some dun have the orange flavor i want.. but tht day when i went cycling wif gal i found the meiji orange yoghurt drink again! =D At the 7-11 there.. Yessa.. ok..it's juz a yoghurt drink.. y am i even so hapi abt it.. dotz.. nvm.. Being blurrer recently.. dunno isit i've become more stupid or wad.. kp gg wrg places, late for meetings.. very very bz.. mking so many ppl angry wif me. JMF, can u stop being so blur.. haiz.. sori for being so 心不在焉 recently.. anyway, think most of the issues have resolved.. most, not all but most.. guess i'll be back to my old self when i'm back nxt mon =)
Last but not least, thanx to the ppl who have shown their concern to me for the past few days, months even the past yr. Esp to N. Though i know u don't read blogs or maybe dun understand wad i write cos u dun even use comp. N i have not really show appreciation to wad u've done for me all these while. Thanx to my "famili". Yesterday have being a great day at sentosa, burying me up n eating char's "beoing 747" sandwich..haha.. i still can't find the words u all written behind the rocks for late-comers.. can juz tell me anot? K lah, guess i know le.. muz be sth abt aeroplane again rite.. Anyway, to those schooling / attachment 1s, jiayou, maybe will feel like giving up sometimes but "U'll find tht u can actualli go a long way after u think u can't." To those working/army/spf/scdf etc. work hard but dun 4gt to tk care of health also. Human body gt limits also..machine also will break down 1 rite, nt to say human.. *touchwood* To those gg on trips as well.. enjoy n come back refresh =) ok, guess tht's all for now.. gonna wash up n get ready for G-Force lata.. then to TJ's bbq =) Cya when i'm back again (' ^)
PS: Dun 4gt to start forming teams for CANTeen-2-CANTeeN run.. 10 ppl /team, at least 4 gals in a team.. It's a new event idea organise by ADC. Gonna be fun (^^) Staff are welcome also =) For more info visit:
http://can2teen.blogspot.comBelow is a song i heard 2 wks ago.. it's actualli a very old song by pin guan.. juz like the feelings the singer is trying to brg out..
比想像更想你作词:林夕 作曲:品冠
下了飞机 不久又要登机
同一样的行李 呼吸不一样的空气
有时候 只知道你现在 在哪里 却忘记 我自己的目的地 谢天谢地 屏幕很有心思
缩小天地距离
随著指间抚摸千里
提醒我 远近的城市连在一起
就像你 好快就和我在一起
我发现 比想像更想你 比爱你更爱你 多得这些分离 流离是为了梦想
梦想最想到的终站 原来是你
为了建立我们的天地
我游走天和地 我看清烟和云 却只能看到你 你在享受著阳光
我的阴天也就晴朗
多麼神奇 多爱你才有这默契
飞来飞去 程序都已熟悉
一提取了行李 与你又接近一毫哩
我开始 喜欢看板庸俗的字体
也觉得 海关比海洋美丽
我爱呼吸 机舱里的空气
因为再飞一程 就会闻到你的气息
因为你 美丑已没定义 只要与你有关 一切都已经没关系 天涯海角 大不过我俩小天地
| a simple day. 9/13/2009 05:59:00 AM
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Friday, September 11, 2009
Another event proudly brought to u by ADC...
..canteen to canteen run 2009..(c2c)..
DAY: wednesday
DATE: 16th december 2009
TIME: 3.45pm
VENUE: north - mac
CATEGORY: staff team / student team
－team of 10 people (at least 4 females)
Teams will be running for AN HOUR..1 person will be running at a time. So run until u tired or u want to swop, can swop wif ur frens in de 'changing area'..
come as a united team, wear de same attire or top or shorts, etc..
get ur frens to come support u, cheer u on, be ur first aiders..
best, its FREE, dun even hv to pay anythin..so y wait??
| a simple day. 9/11/2009 03:18:00 AM
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These few days were reali freaking bz.. bzbzbz.. though mostly is bz “playing” =p
Wn finally came back from her 21days camp =D Went out for dinner at Swenson. Talk n eat n slack. Satisfying. It’s been a long time since we have the time to do this =)
Tue had ice cream making workshop. I tink the ice cream machine is damn cool. Juz a few stirs (if it’s chilled enuff..) will turn the cream n milk into solid ice cream. Though it’s “lousy” as well cos cannt throw chunks of fruits into it as it may get stuck.. dunno.. maybe I am not familiar with it enuff.. maybe must “pei yang mo qi” with it 1st. After tht, tt taught me how to cook pasta sauce.
“Must sauté the onions 1st before the garlic cos onions bigger in size, cook slower. Garlic will chao ta if sauté 1st.”
“If using dried herbs, must put them in earlier. Cos they nid time to hydrate. If using fresh herbs then add in after the sauce boils..”
“Sweating onions and garlic means to bring their smell out.”
Ok, above are some tips he give.
Sometimes when we have too much prejudice on ppl we tend to oversee their gd points . Even if it’s there.
After tht went nite cycling wif gal. Suppose to be afternoon de lah. But becos learning hw to cook the pasta sauce n mk the pasta dough so delay the time. In the end we decided to overnite at the old place whr I always go. It’s been long since I went there alone. Fell aslp while listening to a story under the nite sky.
Wed is superwoman’s pasta making day.. Almost late. But juz in time. Suddenly nid to teach verbally gt a shock. I gt stage fright 1. Was almost dying inside. But in the end it turn out nt bad. Wif some aid of superwoman. Lucky nvr throw her face. Juz tht I spoke too soft. Kp looking at 1 gal in front of me. Like I’m talking to her only. Jessie cooked cabonara pasta n fried 10 eggs as lunch for us =) High carb, high fat, high cholesterol low fibre lunch =p Food Science also has it’s unhealthy side.. =p Lol =D
After tht suppose to mit uncle jj and jc at chomp chomp. But i took the rest on the wrong bus n lost our way.. Thot I saw Srg Garden Way on the board before. N I rmb srg garden gt a bus 70 plus 1. Under 73, wrote “Aft Srg Gdn Way” so thot it’s the bus tht goes in. Thot gt straight bus fr yck then dunnid to go amk to tk. But in the end, the bus tht is in srg gdn is 76. Nt 73. No use explaining nw I guess. But reali not on purpose. Juz realize, I haven been back for a long long time. Reali a long time. No longer familiar with the streets I used to walk. No longer familiar with the place I used to go.
Thu, well, went for dental app.. happi, cos the dental say my teeth are almost done. Maybe juz a bit more.. could it be nxt month? Okok, I shall put my rubber bands on more diligently.
Went to movie wif LL and MELODY in the evening. Caught a movie tht I’ve been yearning to watch. “Final Destination 4-3D”. Have heard abt the storyline of the past episodes fr wn. Sounds interesting. Thot I could take the gross-ness. Have been wanting to see them myself. Didn’t know tht out of the 3, it seems like I’m the 1 who freak out the most. I couldn’t hear if other ppl screamed anot. Cos I myself kp “Oh my god..” “Oh freak..” “Shuts..” as incidents after incidents happened 1 after another. Perhaps the only funny part is when the mum ask her kids to put on tampons in their ears as ear plugs when watching the F1 race. And the part whr the security guard kp wanting to commit suicide but couldn’t. Hang himself but was too heavy n fell. Cos it wasn’t his turn yet. Certain parts were quite gross esp when the wheels and nails came flying towards us. They are so close tht I juz can’t help feeling it will pierce thru us anytime. Though I know these are all unreal. My heart still skipped everytime they came flying. The scariest scene is nt the disgusting, blood filled 1s. Is the 1 whr Janet n Laura went to watch a 3D movie and Nic foresee tht as the explosion happens in the movie, the explosion will be "brought to life" as behind the screen there's a fire gg on. This made me think, we are watching 3d movie as well. There is gg to be another explosion soon. So.. will the explosion come to life to US?!! Ok..i'm still alive and kicking nw so.. proves to be my imagination running wild.
Most of these incidents happened to ppl who don’t believe or who have bad intentions.. Like the 1st person died becos he wanted to harm the security guard. The mum died having a nail pinned on her eye when she told her children “I have my eyes on you.” Hunt died because he didn’t believe wad Nic said and went close to water. (He wasn’t a great guy anyway)
Come to think of it, all these “accidents” may happened to any1 at any point of time in real life. *touchwood* Juz that in the movie, they happened in a series, 1 after another. Juz tht being able to predict the horrible deaths made ppl reali freak out. 1 thing lead to another. 1 careless mistake led to another. Hence, the death of so many ppl. It juz made it clearer to me tht lives are so fragile.
I'm nt gg to watch another final destination. At least nt on 3d. Maybe nt in movie theatres as well. Maybe in front of comp screen i guess. We had fun spending money scaring ourselves though =)
我比想像更想你。
| a simple day. 9/11/2009 02:27:00 AM
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Sunday, September 6, 2009
Tired. Burnt. But happy =)
Yesterday n today was a great experience for me.
Starting from the sea exp tht me & elynn & a surprise participant. Haha. Yeah.. asked ard whether want to go anot then told me see 1st. Suddenly appear in front of us when Charles was alr briefing us. "We have a new participant joining us n he is.." I turned ard n saw a familiar face but becos quite sometime nvr see him le so for a moment my brain was still processing who is he.. haha.. "..Silas." Omg.. me n elynn were like "Huh? U gt come ar?" Haha..freaking funny.. well..tht's nt the end to the surprise, more was to come n they were not pleasant =(
Did enjoyed the 1st 2 hrs of the paddle. We paddled round ubin (..again) The speed was quite fast as the others were quite strong kayakers or maybe experienced.. elynn n me had a hard time catching up in our single slalom. I know shouldn't compare with our sea exp.. but still.. couldn't help feeling the difference. We were all scattered apart in the sea and it's like we couldn't even see each other.. nt only elynn n me.. the rest in the middle were scattered as well n 1 of them made a comment tht i couldn't help but laugh.. Charles asked if this pace is ok. A guy replied,"It's ok..just that i hope to see more ppl.." Haha.. he actualli meant tht we could be kayaking closer.. There's pros n cons.. Our sea exp we had fun becos we made it a point to stay close in a small pack.. moreover we are familiar wif each other n know tht it's ok to play ard.. esp the internal jokes tht we know amg ourselves. But being in public sea exp it's totally different. There's a few youngsters of our age but there are quite a number of adults too. Being too kiddish may not be a very good option as others may not feel comfortable with it. But it's good too as normally we were playing ard too much and don't have the time to appreciate our surroundings. This trip gave me a lot of quiet time while kayaking and test my endurance level for kayaking.. thot tht time we went for round ubin quite relax.. but i 4gt tht... we did it in 2 days! 3hrs 1st day and 3 hrs the next day..somemore gt rest in between 1.. this time we cannt rest.. cos we are the slower ones.. once we manage to catch up when they stop, they blow whistle and go off le -_-" haiz.. but still.. i realise sth.. u have to find motivation for urself to kp gg on.. cannt always depend on others.. juz kp saying "Jiayou..jiayou..JIAYOU!!!" haha.. then i started singing to myself again.. luckily we were far apart.. if nt they sure think this gal crazi 1.. haha..
Lunch time came n this is the 2nd "surprise" i gt. Ppl bring laksa, nasi lemak, pkt rice for lunch on kayaks! Normalli for us we will brg sandwiches for convenience but it's really an eye-opener to see ppl can actualli brg LAKSA to kayaks.. omg... though it's really nt advisable lah.. moreover it's made of coconut milk..under the hot sun since morning.. worst is the onli toilet available is..ahem.. the sea.. oh no.. haha.. charles brought dumpling (Zhong Zi), silas ate 4.. i repeat, FOUR bananas for lunch.. another crazi guy.. elynn brought beehoon. Me, for convenient sake, put my mix trail in bottle n clip it wif my bottle of water.. no trash also.. but didn't reali ate much.. cos didn't reali feel like it.. juz like we are amazed by the fd they brg, they are amazed by the way i put my mix trail in the bottle. haha.. learn fr each other.. =) After lunch then came the nightmare.. no..should be morning-mare.. dunno y my energy's draining faster than usual.. lower arms start to ache to very pain to numb.. soon my hands are like motor lidat.. juz kp moving n moving.. lower back begin to ache as well cos using the back strength to control the direction of the kayak.. wa.. the others seem reali far this time.. esp when we are alr 1km away from pasir ris beach..but no matter hw hard i paddle i'm like nt moving? Cos the red house appears to be the same size..nt "growing" any bigger..no indications of me moving.. n i kp talking to my kayak, "Pls pls pls..move a bit more.. i promise i sayang u lata k?" Haha.. got use ok.. soon i finali reach..juz when i was abt to heave a sigh of relieve...."Ok, now we are gg to do capsize drill. I'm gg to teach u all H-rescue.." the rest i didn't reali hear..oh no.. haha.. basically H-rescue is juz T-rescue wif 1 more kayak on the other side forming a H with the other kayak and the capsized kayak. U will have extra help as 2 ppl will be emptying the water from the kayak. However, guess we had no strength le.. cannt even pull the kayak onto my kayak.. cannt even pull myself back into my kayak.. damn paiseh.. cos still nid another person whom i dunno to pull me back into my seat.. but anyway.. yup..tht's the end of the trip.. nxt time round we are gg in doubles n we will be separated.. elynn so lucky.. gt paired up wif silas.. at least it's some1 she knows can.. me? I'm wif another guy but i 4gt his name le.. also 4gt hw he look like le.. nvm.. guess i have to self-high abit during the nxt exp..
After tht went to meet secret pal n taufu at cv.. soon uncle jj n jc n bong arrived.. This is our 1st fishing trip.. =) Nvr, nvr nvr fish b4 so totalli clueless abt wad to do. Thanx to uncle jj n his dad for providing the equipments.. Credits to char, taufu n hero for the food n snacks.. yesterday nite was the 1st time i learnt how to cast a fishing line out.. tried a few times.. thanx to secret pal for patiently teaching me.. the 1st few times i let go of the line too late, it landed too near to the bank.. the next few times i let go too early, it landed behind me.. finalli i'm able to cast it out on the 5th try.. but didn't catch anything either except a bunch of seaweed... uncle jj caught a big catfish n 2 tiny 1s.. damn cute.. i mean the fishes.. took some pics of them though the 2 little 1s look dead, they r nt.. fell aslp after talking awhile.. reali tired out after a whole day.. but happi..
Shot 1..
Shot 2..
Woke up ard 5 plus.. james famili went home but i hafta stay cos of yellow ribbon run.. luckily the start point was also at changi village.. felt a bit lethargic.. but still hafta press on.. after all i've paid for it n this run is quite meaningful.. i felt.. went to sit by the beach awhile.. till 7am then went to deposit my bag and get change.. met 1 of the rp peep..4gt wad's her name again but she's quite nice.. we started to chat for a while but i have to leave cos scared may lose the enthu again if i start late.. this run is very unique.. ran past places i've nvr been b4 and they are places tht we dun usually get to see like tanah merah women's prison, changi chapel n museum, changi baptist church etc.. along the way we can also see banners with quotes written on them. 1 of which tht leaves the biggest impression in my mind is "Remove the label of prejudice." n "Unlock the second prison." The 2nd prison refers to the labels ppl put on these ex-convicts. It doesn't allow them to have a second chance to live in this society esp when it comes to work. It wouldn't mean anything even if they are release from the prison if the whole world is juz like a prison to them as well after mking 1 mistake.
Cool zone tht will spray mist on runners as they run past.. cool rite?
Some buildings we ran past..
Tanah Merah Women's Rehab Prison..
This race is very organised.. our bags are all transferred fr the start point to the end point via lorry.. when i reach the finishing pt, met up wif rp peeps again.. this time jess n huixian were there too.. jess went for hair for hope.. admire her courage cos i wouldn't dare/bear to shave my hair away.. we went to the carnival tgt after the run.. went for throwing darts, "gun" shooting, netball shooting, archery etc.. n the last is the most "funny" 1.. we joined the little kids to play the blown up balloon slides =) At 1st we were both damn paiseh.. cos we were the onli "adult-like-kids" there.. but becos we gt each other so become nt so paiseh le.. it was fun.. to find back my childhood =) After all the fun, we went to have a look at their exhibition.. there were art pieces done by ex-convicts tht expresses their feelings of remorse, regret as well as helplessness when facing the ppl in the outside world. There's also a "model" of a jail set-up for us to see n feel wad isit like to be in jail. We were shown wad are the limited things tht convicts are allow to brg in.. 5 of them will share a "room" with the toilet in it. There's also a video showing wad these ex-convicts were doing while they are in jail n how the police officers are trained to deter the breaking of jails by convicts of the pass. Actualli other than being in jail the whole day, these ex-convicts also pick up skills while serving their sentence that allow them to work after they are release. All runners were also given food n beverage vouchers tht can be exchange for fruits n muffins tht are manufactured by ex-convicts who are now NORMAL ppl like us. Reali felt tht they put in a lot of effort in mking this carnival-like run a success.. this is the best run i've ever been to.
This is 1 of the art pcs done by 1 of the ex-convict. It's call "Embracing the Inspiration". It represents the pain and struggle of him when facing the disturbing visions of the future, the contradictions he experienced, the hunger for betterment and the intolerance of evil.
Jail from outside..
Things tht convicts are allowed to brg into prison..
After the run, went home to rest for a few hours. Then went to the airport to send dragonfly off for her attachment to philadelphia (dunno hw to spell) 2mr turtle shell also gg into army le. So many ppl suddenly leaving my life. Suddenly nt used to all these partings.
Felt like pouring out everything. Felt like.. but i have no right/reason to i guess.
有些事，或许已经太迟了。The right thing at the wrong time? Or isit wrong from the start?
| a simple day. 9/06/2009 04:13:00 PM
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Saturday, September 5, 2009
Yoz...to all. =) I've changed my blogskin..cos it's a simpler 1 n nt tht "flowery".. like it the moment i see it juz tht it's a bit hard to see the navigations.. well..if u can read this means u r nt too bad at finding it =p
Had a "crazi" nite laughing with gal =) Gals'nite, gals' talk, gals RULEZ (^^)Y! We shall have "laughing sessions" lidat more often k? =)
No wonder..i felt much much much beta 2day after thinking thru things for like the past 2 days.. today, i've returned to my usual self. 2mr shall be a beta day. Gonna rock n' roll in kayaks =) Gonna see elynn.. like finally.. nvr seen her since.. i also dunno when le.. Then gg out wif my "famili".. looking 4ward to the trip =)
"I love you." These 3 words should be precious 1s. Should be the words that come out from ur heart when u realli meant it. Dun understand y ppl can juz say it to any1.. to think they once said that "When i'm in a relationship i'm truly devoted." So what is the definition of "devoted"? Devote ur heart to a few gals at the same time? If these 3 words can be easily said, how much do they actually worth when it comes out from their lips? I wonder. I did not ask abt. The truth juz surfaces. Used to seeing the masks of ppl unravel that sometimes i wonder which is their real faces? Tht's y all i ever want now is a simple world. simple frens. i dun even care if ppl call me simple minded. becos i'm me lidat. becos i'm happy lidat.
I have not change. It's the things tht ppl do tht changes my impression of them n hence, my attitude. There's a reason as to y i've put fickle-minded, take things for granted ppl under my list of "dun want". Becos i was once lidat. took my frens n famili for granted. Fickled minded as to choosing whether to mit my "famili" anot for other "reasons". I hated myself but couldn't change. Juz continuing to hate myself. Continue apologizing but nt doing anything to rectify the situation. But after watching [命中注定], there's this phrase tht kept me gg, "与其一直道歉说对不起，倒不如想办法让自己进步。" I want to say less "sorry"s. "不是对不起，而是加油MF。。” I felt the feeling of being taken for granted. N i dun want my close 1s to feel tht way.
Sometimes we juz nid to fall badly b4 we learn. The harder we fall, the stronger we will stand.
Sometimes.. to suceed w/o failing isn't a gd thing.
Sometimes kp judging others in a bad way u dun have time to appreciate their good points.
Sometimes.. it's not a barrel put by the ppl ard u. It's the barrel u put ard urself preventing others from coming close to u.
Sometimes when u think tht ppl are cruel or ignoring u or nt inviting u, did u think b4 hand tht u had once hurt them too? Tht u once ignore them too? N the many times tht u've rejected their invitations last minute or even without a msg saying tht if u nvr reply means u are nt turning up? But did these ppl give up on u? Did these ppl thot of hurting u? No. They dun. Till they get tired of waiting n waiting n waiting n waiting...
I'm a human too. I have emotions too. There's a certain limit that i can tolerate. I was angry. Angry tht y isit everytime our conversation will drift to other ppl, and it's always criticism tht comes out. Don't others have their gd points too? Y is everi1 inferior as compared to u? Angry abt other things tht i dun want to mention anymore.. I was angry but not anymore because I've long given up. I've other beta things to do than to kp angry-ing.
Maybe u'll get angry after seeing this (it's quite obvious) Maybe u'll dislike wad i've written. Maybe u will think tht i have no rite to "lecture" u. Maybe u will even think i'm still as childish. But if u reali think thru' , rather than kp on thinking / feeling others treating u as the devil, y nt try to change ur attitude towards others?
话说出去了，我绝不收回也不后悔。只想让你知道 。
| a simple day. 9/05/2009 02:32:00 AM
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Thursday, September 3, 2009
Sori, shouldn't have vent my frustrations on u guys. It's my fault. Juz suddenly have a feeling all of u will suddenly disappear from my life. I don't want. Though ppl say frens come & go.
糟了，伤心好像越来越藏不住了。
我喜欢听歌，也爱唱歌。因为好像只有透过歌词才敢毫无保留的把真心话说 出来。
在yy 的blog看到几句话觉得很有道理：
如果你不爱一个人,请放手,好让别人有机会爱她.
当一个男人为一个女人哭了,那说明他真的爱了.
当一个女人为一个男人哭了,那说明她真的放弃了.
但我觉得，
当一个女人第一次为了一个男人哭了，那说明她真的爱了。
当她告诉自己这是最后一次为他哭泣，那说明她真的放弃了。
| a simple day. 9/03/2009 02:13:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Too excited for all the events to happen.. counting down..
6 days to yellow ribbon
13 days to TW
18 days to sea expedition
28 days to Mt Stong.. can life get more exciting than this?
And these are only the major 1s.. cycling, swimming, jogging, singing, reading, helping out.. Finally i'm doing these at the rite time.. dun wanna waste my last hols in poly..gonna mk the best out of it..
Should i have known tht these will be awaiting i wouldn't have been so sad abt nt being able to join the previous expeditions.. Should have trusted in Him more.
Today.. still alot of things on mind n to be solved.. sometimes avoiding isn't really the solution.. though facing probs isn't my forte either.. guess i'm in no position to give advices ba.. i'm always the one being advised. A few wks ago, i saw this story online, n it somehw answered a qn post to me by a fren : Can we choose to be happy?
Tht time my answer was : Depends. On the situation.
I was wrong. It can be choosen. The story goes:
There was once 2 men who were seriously ill in a nursing home. 1 of them could at least sit up for 1 hr everyday while the other could only be left lying on the bed. Everyday, for tht 1 hr, the man who could sit up would look out his window and describe the sceneries outside to the man lying on the bed. As days passes by, the man lying on the bed grew more and more jealous. Till hatred starts to grow within his heart. He kept wondering,"I should be the one by the window." and he let this thot control his life.
Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence--deathly silence. The man was dead.
The man who could only lie in bed requested to be shifted to the bed by the window and his wish was granted. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.
The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.
The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.
Hope the story didn't bored the targeted audience (u noe who u r rite..) =) N..hope it helps.
Ppl, exams are almost over =D Hang in there =)
2mr will be a very bz day. Cross fingers tht it will be a happy 1 too.
| a simple day. 9/01/2009 01:28:00 AM
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