+me

name.James.Ming Fei
gender.GaL
age.21
dob.26 jUl Leo-ian
school.NYP.Food.SciEnce
am.nature-lover
family.jaMes.fAmiLy & gIaM
buddies.many

lurves.
.james.famili
.sky
.clouds
.mountains
.waterfalls
.close.frens
.kbox
.all.sports

what i want.
.simple.life
.confidence
.trust
.dream.job
.nth else

what i don't want.
.false.frens
.ficker.minds
.lies
.tk.things.for.granted.ppl

Monday, March 30, 2009

Niagra waterfall..it's a block waterfall standing at 176ft..


The tallest waterfall, located in Venezuela, Angel Fall, standing at 3212 ft..



2nd tallest waterfall, Tugela Waterfall, located in South Africa, standing @ 3110 ft

Really want to visit these places..though the only waterfall tht i truely love n miss till now is still Berkelah..kk, gtg..back to slides..



The bigger stones give it character. The rock is what makes this waterfall.
~ Paul Collins

| a simple day. 3/30/2009 02:26:00 AM
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Sunday, March 29, 2009

Haiz..where have all the guys gone? Sounds desperate rite? Haiz..Cos every1 formed team alr..we too late to grab ppl..nw only me, wn n yuye..and worse is there muz at least be a guy in 1 team..worst is the closing date is TODAY...worstest, all guys in adc have being taken up.. asked a few non-adcians also nt available if nt say too hardcore..haiz..but muz tell the truth also..Last hope is Sam..but he haven come back fr KL...haiz..SAM!!! Whr r u???? Haha..nvm lah..think maybe will hafta forgo this race alr..but like a pity..cos nvr gone diving b4..they mention tht it is underwater hockey..n only the open category gt..want to try it out..nvm..nt until last moment still gt hope i think..kk, gg out nw..ppl who see my PM pls msg me if u r available for the race..race details on http://www.smuadrace.com/...

| a simple day. 3/29/2009 12:42:00 PM
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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Concentrating on my power point slides now..haiz..if cannt finish then hw? Dunno also..cannt.. muz finish..die alr..die alr..but nw my mind all occupied w/ smu race, passion run, 1/2 army marathon, rp race..also dunno want to participate anot..actually is i really want to participate all 1..cos i scared no time alr..as in i dunno when will i stop all these activities or when i cannt run alr..or when i go out work then nvr train alr go hw? So i really want to participate all i can now..but a lot of ppl say i crazi 1..join so much..like nt tired lidat..nt until some1 said "muz rest also mah" n my secret pal also say "u nt machine lea..u human lea" then i really start to think alr..do i really want to join so much? Cos tht time i also ask ppl isit ok to join an adv race on sat then nxt day go another adv race..some told me "if u physically nt tired then go ahead.."some say " crazi ar..want to die isit?" My secret pal told me it's not abt whether u physically can anot..is whether u can "digest" wad u have juz gone thru n apply it straight away the nxt day anot..wad he meant by "digest" is for example in the adv race wad have u learnt, wad mistake have u made, hw to rectify this mistake in the nxt race..If mistakes are not rectified, lessons are nt learnt n applied..wad for u juz plunge rite into another race? U wun benefit fr it neither will u improve..i guess he's rite..no lah, nt guess..is really correct..haiz..but hw long is long enuff? 1 mth? 3 mths? A yr? I also dunno..nt tht i'm stubborn..ok abit..as for those runs..i juz dun wanna lose touch of running 10km..i scared once i stop, i will deprove..n when u know u will be participating in a run u will find motivation to train for it..it's part of my motivation tht i have a run to look 4ward to..juz like every sem i have an expedition to look 4ward to..if i dun join runs alr..i also dunno wad will happen...haiz..another thing i like abt gg for runs is tht after the runs we will normally go out tgt..it's different fr eating dinners aft trainings..i also dunno y..maybe becos gt yanchang n some of the seniors tht we wun see them so often alr? Maybe is the aft race feeling tht u have ppl to share the completion of a race wif..to talk abt the route..to have a place where we have memories? Haiz..the bdae analysis is damn rite..i'm too emotional alr..can't mk this stupid trait go away..i CMI-ing alr..Nvm..SMu race..haven confirm my team yet..still asking helmi n eddry..really want to join cos this race seems different..gt underwater hockey n skating which other races dun have..haiz..juz hafta wait n see hw..

Spidy in anticipation.

| a simple day. 3/28/2009 05:30:00 PM
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Friday, March 27, 2009

Haven been updating for a wk alr..alot of small small things tht have made me laughed/smiled this wk..came juz the rite time cos i think i really needed a gd laugh..haha..ok..tht's nt a sincere laugh..

Starting fr sun..sun went out for a late celebration with aeng n nurul for aeng's 21st..we went mad jack then kbox..1st time gg to kbox with nurul so there's a few english songs sang which me n aeng seldom dedicate..there's this eng song tht's quite cute n romantic, by taylor swift - Love Story..it's not the tune tht touches me but the lyrics..a very fairy tale song yet the dream of every gal i guess..then Aeng picked a few of JJ's latest songs which i've nvr heard b4..have lost touch of his songs ever since his 3rd album i think..except for Xiao Jiu Wo..there's 2 songs which i've come to be addicted to..1 is a fast n catchy 1 - Bu Chao Bu Yong Hua Qian (nurul even like this song) n the other 1 - Wo Hai Xiang Ta (I still miss her) This song had become 1 of my fav lately..1stly, becos of its lyrics..depicts a very sad love story if u really put ur heart into listening it..2ndly, is becos of the story behind the MV..Aeng told me tht it's a true life incident tht happened to 1 of JJ's fan..The guy likes this gal in his sch but the gal didn't bother abt him at 1st..when they found tht both of them share the same interest (listening to songs on the balcony) the gal finally gave the guy a chance n ask him if he want to take a walk at the balcony again..juz a while after they parted, the guy got rammed by a van while he was riding happily on his bike..n so their love ended like tht...this MV brought tears to me even after watching it for umpteen times..nt to say i'm very emo or wad..but if u see the MV urself u will feel tht it's a pity too..n this could happen to any1 even to urself *touchwood* anytime, anyday, any moment..

Tue, was late for Char's training i think..my officially 1st training wif her..did wts w/ a lot of machines at BW..then ran for 20mins only on the treadmill cos it was quite late alr..after bathe then we (2 James, Char n me) walked to amk s11 to eat..Char protected me fr a cockroach at the carpark there..then i see hw ez it was to juz step it dead though i still dun have the guts to do it myself..thanx lotz..i think only Char wun scare me wif cockroaches like the rest..haiz..nvm..i promise i protect u fr those meow meow nxt time we see 1 k..but cannt kill them lah..can't bear to..but i lure them away ok? =) Given cold jokes along the way tht i dun really understand..

Wed, really super paiseh..sori for buying late ur bubble teas...i noe i always late..will try to be earlier everytime..even if by 1 min also count rite? Paiseh lah..thot u all full shift mah..brought my shoes to train also but then u all leaving at 5.30pm alr..then nvm lo..went to eat at s11 wif CP n secret pal..then went to amk hub ntuc to do fd survey for Berkelah..damn fun sia..see which 1 can brg which 1 cannt..n compare the prices..i think we becoming aunties alr..haha..

Thu, went training after FYP @ BW..did x2 the wts then ran at speed 8.8 -9.8 towards the end for 40 mins..burnt 450kcal..lost 0.4kg..then went dinner wif Char, James Tan n the "helmet bag" guy (still dunno his name lah) the 2 of them kp scaring me wif "cockraoches" tht doesn't even exist can..stop it sia can..*shake head*

Fri, which is today, went to run 3 rounds ard sch then actually is go BW for char's training but gt delayed by them talking abt the orieentation of innotrek n orientation camp so went late..char alr slping alr..paiseh..i thot we starting training tgt so waited for them also..nvm..nxt time i dun wait alr can? Dun angry lah..

Not happy..not becos of anything but maybe juz becos there's nth really worth to be happy abt i guess..alot alot of things tht i want to say but scared to say cos may offend ppl..but nw i think i dun want to care anymore..y should i care abt hw others few when they juz seem to be oblivious to wad i feel..i noe it's nt all abt me only..i've tried to care when u all dun but i'm tired of kp on being the 1 who is trying n yet..maybe i should juz voice out wad i feel..isn't it true tht most of the things we learnt are taught by mushrm? Y u all say,"Pk says this this this...." then no1 laugh but when i'm trying to share when u all need help n haven even began my sentence u guys start laughing n laughing again..so should i juz kp everything tht i've learnt to myself? Should i juz kp quiet? Then when prob comes u all say i know nvr share/nvr tell earlier..i'm very tired..cos i can hardly get my msg across..a bit of joke here n there is ok..but too much of it is like..=.= there's time to be serious too isn't it? Tht's y i said i dun care wad u all are gonna say in the future i will juz ignore..cos..i thot if i ignore all these will stop..but it nvr did..If i juz tell u all some facts will u all believe? If i said it w/o saying "Pk said.." will u all believe? It's becoming a taboo for me to mention his name n sometimes i wonder y? If it's nt wad he've said i will not quote his name..but all these things are wad he've taught US, not only me but US, during expeditions n ATC tht maybe some of u have 4gotten or wasn't there to listen..so am i wrg to say his name? Alot of times i've being mis-trust..alot of time wad i've said is true yet no1 listens..until it is proven to be so then i'm heard..n the blame is still on me saying y i nvr say earlier..hello..wad is this? Maybe i've brought all these to myself..maybe it's the image tht i give ppl tht i'm blur..but still all ppl deserve a chance isn't it? A leader shouldn't juz noe hw to pick strong ppl but also noe hw to give ppl chance n turn the weaker 1s into stronger ppl isn't it? I juz found 1 on thu..hearing wad she said really impress me..though i may have disappoint her at some point of times..

Haiz..i really dunno wad to say alr..juz continue wif wad u all want to say/do..

Tired spidy =(

BTW, this is the song JJ sang tht left a great impression in my heart..below is the link of the MV..maybe u all can go see n feel wad's it's like..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S21kTQHIbFc&feature=related

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白
办不到的承诺 就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心 早已掏空
真心话 言不由衷
请告诉她 我不爱她
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
狠了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默 代替所有回答

| a simple day. 3/27/2009 11:39:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A song by Luo Zhi Xiang..wonder if the writer is feeling this way tht's y he wrote this song..

(搞笑)

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑 嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹 好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘多买了一套 我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
还在搞笑 害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就习惯有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道你好不好
我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
我在搞笑 却在最后眼泪拼命飆
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳 对谁炫耀
还在搞笑 是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌 却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到你好不好

| a simple day. 3/25/2009 10:36:00 AM
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Monday, March 23, 2009

Dunno y..but i kp feeling very very lethargic ever since sat..gt very tired very ezily n kp wanting to slp..i noe, yup, i've past history of falling aslp..but i nvr felt so tired b4 when i'm actively doing things..dunno y things ard me seems to move in slow-mo..so am i..sori if i've being stoning or dazing..dunno wad's happening to me too..guess my energy will return in a few days time..hope so..

Was juz given happiness yet immediately it's taken away..Happy becos can go somewhr i want to go..i dun care wad my role is..as long as i can be there..but immediately..gt scolded..gt lectured..then nice to me again..i very scared of u u noe? Y r u always telling me to do impossible things n picking bones in eggs? I alr tried my best to accomodate..yet..nth i do seems to mk u happy n stop all ur drilling..i dun hate u..i dunno hw to hate a person..i'm juz very scared of u..i'm very tired..very very tired..u noe everytime u appear hw scared i am..dunno wad i did wrg again..wad i do to mk u unhappy again..enuff of those threats..enuff of showing hw much u care for me aft reprimanding me 1 big round..enuff of being a hypocrite.. enuff of everything..i juz want to get away fr here..i'm tired of being ard humans..when can i escape fr here? =(

| a simple day. 3/23/2009 09:51:00 PM
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Sunday, March 22, 2009

Slept till 12 plus then wake up..haha..yesterday reach home bathe alr then see see facebk see until zzZ..think tired alr..but was quite happy =) Cos juz finished an adv race w/ mushrm =) n Fufi (qy n fufu)!!!

Starting fr the start of the day..early in the morning when i was juz abt to bathe a cockroach was stationed rite at the entrance of the kitchen..wah lau eh..stop it sia..cannt find somewhr to freeze ar..i stood there for abt 15 mins to observe it..to see if it was dead then it suddenly move a feeler..then i gt a bit scared..but seeing tht it didn't move much i manage to juz quickly cross pass it..n when i bathe come out alr it changed position alr..i scared until dunno like wad sia..but becos time is running out n i was suppose to meet mushrm at the bustop at 6am so aft standing there for another 10mins i manage to tell myself juz walk over 1, nvm 1..luckily the cockroach nvr move..if it move..i tell u..ok..tht's nt the point..wah..can't believe i've written a whole paragraph abt cockroach again..kk, back to the race..when we reached there, fufu n qy alr at the canteen there waiting for us...fufu ferry qy on his motor there so they reached earlier..we went to register n collect our race pk which include the sleeveless dri-fit n our race bib which is 01 again =p) n bag tags..the black plastic bag to contain our belongings was damn small lo..could only fit in 1 bag..so we had to tie 4 of our bags tgt w/ cable ties..fufu stop it sia..brought his ocean pack to run in adv race..haha..1st in history man..xD Then went to their track to do our pacing..when the time was abt 7.30am i started to get butterflies in my stomach alr..haiz..everytime lidat 1..though ya..i've gone thru safra's adv race but still..i scared cannt finish hw? If i too slow hw? If cannt catch up hw? Alot alot of things lah..anyway, the race soon started n the 1st thing is running alr..n my bag..*shake head*..kp shifting n shifting while i was running..n i hafta support it w/ my right hand..almost cramp sia..haha..but nvm..we gt "pit stop" at traffic lights..1st time i see traffic lights so happi 1..haha..actually mushrm ran quite fast 1..but becos gt old injury so he also slowed down so quite comfortable w/ his pace..we ran fr vjc to bedok interchange, our 1st station..which is to calc the sum of bus no. in the interchange..at 1st we still quite proud tht no1 thot of looking at the board to calc fr there..but aft 2 tries both our answers are wrg..then 1 grp by 1 grp left alr..left fufu n qy n us..we were scartching heads alr so we walked 1 round to find tht actually there's a 854 inside but becos it's not under SBS so not on the board..haha..stop it sia..so aft adding all no. we get 3342..then we ran to our nxt station: bedok swimming complex (which qy n me discover tht we had the same swimming coach! Haha..)

We were suppose to swim to the midway of the pool n dive to the bottom to get 1 ping pong ball each..n i was thinking,"Shuts, we dun have goggles hw to see?" But luckily qy gt n she went in to open the box n all the ping pong balls floated up so i juz grabbed 2..haha..thanx qy!!! =p The 2 ping pong balls were suppose to be exchanged for 2 eggs..i took the 2 eggs n stupidly thot i can squeeze them into my small lock lock box..so in they went as well as CRACK...-_-" Haiz..*shake head 2* nvm..we proceeded on towards bedok reservoir..on the way we went pass blk 218 there the carpark dun have rd marshall n a gal almost gt rammed by a van..luckily the van stopped in time..so nth happened..

We reached bedok reservoir n did our kayaking there..1st time i gt to paddle in open deck "kayak"..it's the same type we used for our synergy II but i didn't get to try tht out..ok lah..nth special abt this station..juz kayak lo..haha..

After the kayaking we continued to walk almost 1 big round ard bedok reservoir then mushrm saw sth tht really motivated us to run a bit towards it..-BIKES!!! XD Our forte sia.. =p We were like wondering where's our bike? along the way.couldn't wait to get on 1..haha..off we headed to the tampines bike trail..inside the path was quite rocky..n a lot of humps..mushrm gt passed them quite easily but i was a bit struggling with the rocks..but at least gt a bit faster then the rest lah..so we were the last to enter the bike trail but the 1st to come out!!! =) K lah..i abit proud abt this.. =p But i juz can't help feeling sooooo happi abt it n secretly a little bit proud of it though there's still alot of rm for improvement for my cycling skills =p kk, stop it sia me.. =x

After the bike trail we went to cp 5 which was a cork up too..the rd marshall who was suppose to direct us into the park, for some reason wasn't there..tht's y fufu n qy went pass the cp w/o knowing -_-" n becos mushrm saw the red tee ppl so we didn't miss it n the rest of the teams behind us followed our bikes as well..this cp..dunno is luck or coincidence..we are suppose to find a quote behind a rock amg many rocks n repeat it to the station master..n the quote happened to be the quote tht i saw when i was on a bus..tht's y i can rmb..nt becos my memory gd..haha.. =p

After tht was paddle boarding..tht station ar..haiz..dun say alr..wait until after 9 wks..9 wks i surely can paddle board better..aft char's prog..

We followed the pcn to a playgrd where we were given sudoku to do..tht puzzle at least gt 4 stars lo..cos we spent 23 mins on it..aft finishg, we did sth impossible..sth nobody would have done in an adv race..sth we nvr thot we would have done..haha..nvm..secret ok..anyway, we stayed on for another 15mins..then we proceeded to the orienteering part..

The orienteering cp was at ecp..their distance wasn't accurate..we used the method taught in atc but ended up getting the wrg ans..aft tht mushrm thot of another way to measure the distance..n we gt it rite in the end..

Aft tht cp, we walked 2.4km back to vjc..finally opening my bottle of sour worms n mango to eat..haha..there can stroll alr..reaching soon..we reached the last cp abt the same time as fufu n qy..-rock climb n abseil..there's 5 qn pin to the rockwall w/ the answers to it pin on the abseil tower..so 1 muz rock climb n copy the qn the other abseil to get the answers..so gals abseil n guys climb (for our grps..the other grps i dunno..) There's a bottleneck there so we were given stop time..also our rest n relax time..haha..the red bull ppl stop it sia..1st time i encounter ppl 1/2 way adv race gt promoter come n promote red bull 1.. =p we sat there chat a bit, tk photos..go toilet..haha..damn shiok sia.. =p k lah..can rest nt bad lah..finally is our turn alr..mushrm rock climb then when i abseil down i juz shouted the ans down then he copy..then ta-da..we finished the race..nt forgetting to mention the "beaten" eggs in my lock lock box..damn disgusting can..haha..

Enjoyed the whole race though there's a few cork ups along the way..cos..yup..it's w/ mushrm..nt wad u all think lah..but it's impt tht race parters encourage n look out for 1 another in a race n nt say things like "y u so slow 1.." or leave u behind to run alone..n it's very very hard to find some1 who can accommodate ur pace, to joke ard w/, to have chemistry w/..dun feel pressurized..everytime we go race like go excursion lidat..haha..i dunno whether this feeling is mutual anot but tht's wad i feel..though i everytime suan u abt ur age along the way..or suan u abt other things..but u know i'm juz joking rite? U'r the best race partner i'll ever have (if i ever have another 1..) Sometimes maybe we mk ur age joke abit too often alr..maybe u gt abit tired of it le..promise nt to mk fun of it so often le ok..u r nt old lah..juz mature only.. n actually i quite enjoy ur "theories" =) Gt a bit quiet or maybe emo along the way..nt becos i nt ok or nt happy..but becos the race seems to come to an end too fast..haha..stupid me rite? Ending should be happy rite..but then..juz can't help feeling abit sad..like dunno will there be a nxt anot or when will we have training again.. haha..nvm lah..i dunno wad i toking also..lidat i very happy alr =)

Last checkpoint! Porridge steamboat!! Fufu had to leave for his dad's motor workshop so we 3 went w/o him..took a bus to amk central..nvr know there's such a place there..i quite like eating steamboat cos very very warm..nvm..i think u all dun understand wad i mean also lah..next time we all go tgt eat then u guys will understand =)

Another race completed w/ mushrm on 21st March 2009: DARE II, OX01

Happi spidy =)

| a simple day. 3/22/2009 08:49:00 AM
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Saturday, March 21, 2009

I'm so so so like talking rubbish now..can some1 juz stop me..haiz..too excited for 2mr's race..can't slp though i told every1 to slp early..haha..crapping..i think fufu, qy, yuye n i think nw taufu cannt stand me alr..die alr...hw hw hw? I scared..haha..abit lah..see..i told u alr..i talking rubbish..kk, nvm..i talk abt today..

Today quite interesting n boring at the same time..reached sch earlier..a bit..re-read TSK's lecture notes again on thermal processing..dun think everything gt into my head but i think gt 20% very gd alr..cos whole of my brain occupied by 2mr's adv race..thinking of wad to brg..like very little to brg then worry 4gt to brg sth lidat..this time nt like safra adventura tht time..dunnid to carry heavy heavy "metals"..cos provided..dunnid harness also..provided..dunnid compass also..provided..everything provided..haha..then thinking abt hw are we gonna paddleboard..seen videos on it but is ppl standing on board then gt paddle to paddle 1..heard the ppl say iss we lie on the board then paddle..hw sia? Haiz..thinking too much..then thot i better start wk..lunch time came but none of us free to go down eat..so in the end we made a homely cup noodles n sat in the prep rm to eat..used to dun eat cup noodles 1 cos think they are very oily, unhealthy, mk my hair drop only..but once in a while..it's actually quite nice..haha..gt spicy mushrm flavour, kimchi flavour n bean paste flavour..nice sia..n i still add chilli pepper flakes inside my alr-spicy noodles..haha..mk myself cry onli..but i really like to eat spicy..juz tht i tend to tear aft having them..dunno y always torture myself..think fr today onwards the FYP peeps will see me cry very often..haha..but nt sad cry..is happi cry..=p Aft lunch, abt 2 plus, we went to the micro lab to do peptone water..i also need to do..but at a lata stage..yx they all need to do dunno hw many hundreds of peptone water!!!! N b4 tht needa wash dunno hw many beakers full of culture tubes..then Bertrand came in w/ an "evil smile" asking,"Yuxuan, Ming Fei, lata u all free anot?" Haha..chey..ask us too help him wash onli..*jj* but ok lah..still had fun =) I had to learn hw to dispense the peptone water using the very convenient apparatus also cos eventually i have to do micro testing of shelf life of my pasta sauce also..had fun transferring songs fr bertrand's hp too..juz realise he gt quite a lot of nice eng songs, 1 of which i gt addicted to..Janice's Never Let You Go..wasted sia..he dun even noe his own songs..we washed the culture tubes 1st..i dunno y everytime i on the tap always splash everywhr 1..1st is bertrand kana shock when he walked past..then is yx kana water when he helping to empty the culture tubes..paiseh..nt on purpose 1..tht's y i always say i'm nt a person for micro lab..too dangerous alr..wif me ard u wun noe when the lab's gonna explode man..haha..ok *jj* the dispensing was fun initially but boring aft a while cos kp repeating n repeating the same action..haiz..speaking abt this i gt a bit irritated by some1..i noe i very blur can..but i still know the difference between 9ml n 18ml lo..n i noe the seriousness of dispensing the wrg amt of peptone water into the culture tubes lo..need to say until lidat ar? If u dun trust me then y ask me to help in the 1st place..tht's nt even my job..stop it sia..treat u as fren then help 1 lo.. u still pick bones in eggs somemore..enuff ok..i nt ur maid lo..piang eh..kk, juz to vent out my frustration..i think i will 4gt this incident aft 2mr..

The day ended quite fast today..maybe due to the work load..but i had fun doing all those "work" in the micro lab..cos gt accompany mah =) It will be boring w/o these ppl..haha..went to ntuc for "pre-race" shopping..=p no lah..nt so exaggerated lah..cos haven mk my trail mix for the race..i tell u..the race has been on my mind since a wk or 2 ago..everyday sia..haha..tht's y until nw still cannt slp..will have probs waking up 2mr..haiz..5am, but i think i will snooze until 5.30am then wake up..think i better go slp nw..updating 2mr abt the race..if i haven fall aslp by tht time =p

Happi spidy =)

| a simple day. 3/21/2009 01:44:00 AM
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Thursday, March 19, 2009

19th Mar, stupid me..awaken by YJ's call yet i still ask her wad time isit..it's alr 10 plus..shuts..die..4th day late for FYP..6 days then IAP gone..until nw..i still dunno whether i really want to go IAP anot..if go, gt money also nt bad..cos i need money badly to go mt hopping this yr w/ yc n to go on expeditions..if dun go then can aft 5pm straight away go adc..i also happy..in a mess..brain in a stupid mess..nt only this..alot alot of other things too..

Anyway..back to this afternoon..we cooked our lunch ourselves = maggie mee + crab sticks..i really super long nvr cook maggie mee alr..tht's y cook it too long n our noodles turned soggy..Yx taught us hw to "cook" nice maggie mee which is to dun cook it..haha..n it turns out to be nicccccceeeeeeeeeeeeeee =) very springy..u're rite man..haha..though some1 say nt healthy to eat like tht cos the carbon thingy nvr boil off.. we are not suppose to cook our own lunch in the fd lab lah..but since no1 there then..hehex..think will hafta stop alr aft sch reopens..to those who are not suppose to be reading my blog..pls stop reading..if u r gonna punish us or penalize us becos of wad i wrote here then it's not fair to us..cos a blog is meant to allow ppl to vent their frustrations n say wad we want to say..even if u see can juz treat it as u have nvr seen it? Cos i find it very hard to not pen these fun moments down..hehex =) We even have "posts" now..BL is the president of FYP pinic club, Yx is the chairman n me, most impt 1, the treasurer..haha..Yj still haven gt post..wait till we find her specialty.. =p

AFter lunch, almost straight away we went for a talk in a small rm..it's realy a small rm for so many of us to squeeze in..n initially a lot of lecturers were sitting rite behind me..stop it sia..pressurizing u noe..scared lata i fall aslp then hw? N i was so like msgg down the table, pretending to be listening to the speaker attentively...haha..luckily nvr kana caught..n luckily the speaker quite funny also..tht joker..shouldn't have worn such striking colour today..haiz..straight away pointed out by him..stop it sia..still use my singlet's colour to compare with the egg yolks in japan..piang eh..haha..on the account tht u quite funny let u go okay.. =p

1st time in my FYP tht i'm counting down mins to 5pm cos everyday is like so fun tht i dun feel like gg home..but juz today, i'm so like counting down the mins.. yessa..glad tht i found back my tongue n we can joke ard again =p So so so miss talking to u..haha..kk, sounds a bit stupid but ya..yoz..happy..juz happy lo..though it's only a short trip to n back..bought the starz tht i kp saying n saying i want to buy since last wk..drank the nicest soya milk in the world =)

Last yet the most dejecting thing is..Isit becos u think i am blur, i am stupid, i dunno anything so u dun reply me? Cannt at least say cannt can anot..let me wait n wait n wait until nw still haven return my msg..but still..i guess u still dun trust my skills isit..i may be a bit 4gtful at times but i'm serious when comes to serious stuff..can u juz give me a chance to proof tht?

Berkelah..it has been a yr since i last went n my 1st expedition n...i miss it..this is the only thing, only place i wanted so much..tht i muz go..i dun care if any1 will say,"Muz u get everything u want?" becos tht place means alot to me..n i haven reach it's peak yet..n...alot alot of things...yes, i muz go no matter wad..can some1 take me there? I belong there..i dun belong here..No starz are more beautiful than the starz there in my eyes..no words can describe my feeling towards it..nothing can tk its place in my heart..

Dejected spidy =(

| a simple day. 3/19/2009 08:53:00 PM
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After tht went to "fetch" the obt ppl back..actually i abit..dunno wad to say..actually is i gt a lot to say..but i dunno hw to say or somehw every words juz went back into me..lost my tongue so in the end i didn't speak a word..juz felt relieved tht every1 came back safe..using qy's phrase,"Thank God!" Haha..ya..really muz thank god tht they came back safe n sound though here pain there pain..N..THANK YOU CARLOS!!!!! I like the buff alot alot...!!! Really alot!!! I say say only but didn't know u really gt it for me..paiseh..haven give u ur shirt..also paiseh cos like nvr thank u properly...nxt time treat u mac ice cream k? Still can join us for training even aft OBT de rite? =p Aft bidding farewell to the rest, we (min, qy, wn, al, jon, eugene n me..not all went cos parents were there to fetch them home) went to eat popeye as promised..talked n talked n talked abt their adventure there..heard tht it was a near death experience..but still..i'm yearning to go..i dun care hw tough it's gonna be..i will still go..taiwan, gunung tahan, mt k (again, to look for my wilfred n to stay up there for at least 40mins to really take in the scenery n talk to the wind, trees, rocks everything up there) no matter wad..i will go.. =)

Aft dinner, me n wn waited for mr wilfred n yc's flight..it was written there 10.45pm but we waited till 11.20pm when almost every1 was out still cannt see them..then when i finally decided to call yc..she picked up n said tht mr wilfred still inside buying things..chey..if only i had waited a bit longer..spoilt our surprise..we heard stories fr yc on the way back on 27..very interesting n funny..but think she quite lonely also..shop alone, climb down alone..nvm, nxt time we go tgt..celebrate our bdae on top of mt..set! Haha..n THANX YANCHANG!!!! For ur coffee jelly..haven try it out yet..(it's a jelly powder mix) gonna try it 2mr..hope it goes well..=p

Well, tht's my day yesterday..a bit sad tht didn't get to speak to him cos his dad was there to fetch him alr..he left in a rush..so hate myself for holding back my tongue..dunno y also..juz cannt open my mouth to talk..nvm..there will still be time de rite? Think so..Hope so..

Stupid Spidy.

| a simple day. 3/19/2009 01:36:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Yesterday mood suddenly took a down turn..y i shall nt say..but juz felt lousy..very lousy n stupid..tht's y kp starring into space..pardon me for being a wood a day..actually reach home n told myself no matter wad muz go run but then juz felt lethargic so actually gave up the idea of stepping out of the hse alr..thanx to wn n her bunch of frens..(now my bunch of frens too =) ) suddenly call me out n i juz wanna see some1 tht is closer to me than my everyday frens..like very long nvr meet up w/ wn alr also though it's like a wk or so only..so i thot i might as well bring along my race bag to try running w/ it..went there n gt scared by wn n wl..n our conversation soon drifted to the movie, "Coming Soon"..was thinking whether to watch it anot since it has become the topic of those who watched them onn sat..heard quite a lot abt it being an xtremely scary movie tht's y was tempted to watch it too..however, even wn's fren (who look very daring tht type) also very scared..then i think i better think twice..cos dun wanna affect my mood to nite cycle n run..if i really watch it i wun be able to enjoy my nite cycling n runs alr..haiz..sometimes ignorance is really better..if u dunno the existence of it then u wun feel hurt abt it..or scared abt it..talk cock until abt 1am then we went back to our indv homes..i think wad's mks me felt better was the frenliness of them n tht i can be myself in front of them w/o being scared of them thinking tht i'm irritating..guess i have this shadow of ppl nt liking me..though sometimes is really i imagine too much..guess i nid sometime to build up my confidence again..but not the loud n playful me but the thinking n grow up me..After tht went for a jog ard somewhr w/ my bag but then..felt weird..like nt very used to..n a bit scared to run in the shadows of the trees..nn the whole place very very quiet n there's me alone..so after a while in the end i sat on a lited bench n stone..stone again..looking at the canal n the trees..maybe tht person isn't me? Juz hoping tht the person isn't me..haiz..nvm..no1 will understand anyway..dunnid to too..hope to go back to berkelah soon..juz hoping to return to the place i should be in.. =(

Emo spidy..

| a simple day. 3/18/2009 05:19:00 AM
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

17th Mar..1st of all.."HAPPY BDAE AENG!!!" though i've sent u a msg alr but still wanna wish u happi 21st bdae here =p Haha..sorri for kp changing dates to celebrate with u cos wed obt ppl coming back..fri dunno cann stay out late anot cos sat gt DARE II race..this time sure wun change =p Sun, set! =D

Next up..i'm damn happi..god damn happy..cos results are released..n..i passed all my modules!!! Couldn't slp the previous nite..not becos of the results i'm very sure of tht cos i didn't even rmb tht it's gonna be release on the 17th..i juz couldn't slp..tossed n turned in bed for dunno hw mani hrs..till finally drifted into lalaland at 4 plus am i think..Then was waken up by the msg tone of my hp at 6 plus..stop it sia..i'm still in daze n i juz opened the msg to see who isit..n i immediately gt a shock! Haha..cos the msg directly tells me wad grades i have for each subject which i dun even plan to check cos dun wanna be unhappy longer..wanna stay happy longer..anyway, when i didn't see a single F i was very happy alr!! Yessa!! Tht means i've cleared another stage..haha..like playing mario lidat sia..my GPA dropped again..but looking on the brighter side, it didn't drop as much as it did for last sem n i'm happy tht i scored a B+ for my fav sub - Nutrition Science..nt an A but almost there..kk, will do better for advanced nutrition science nxt sem.. =D Now gt more motivation to pull my GPA up back to the 3 pointer range alr..cos i'm only 0.1 away fr it..FYP..i gotta strive man.. =D Ale kan chiong spidy! U can do it =p

1 more day for the obt ppl to reach singapore..32 hrs n 5 mins to be exact..Yessa! Haha..missed the trainings n dinners tgt..faster come back then we can go dinner again =) The only thing i worry abt nw is my legs still very pain..dunno y this time tk so long to recover..normally the nxt day wun pain alr.. =( Very scared cos DARE II coming n this time i really wanna improve a bit fr the last race..dunnid alot..abit is all i ask for..haiz..bad timing for my legs to go on strike..legs..pls pls get well soon..at least let me finish DARE II then go on strike can? Haiz..

Tired but happi spidy =D

| a simple day. 3/17/2009 11:35:00 AM
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Monday, March 16, 2009

16th Mar, nice quiet day..getting used to staying in the prep rm doing literature research with my new found buddies = Yuxuan, Binglin n Ying Jia =) Am still at the honey moon period of FYP..haven gone into the real pressurizing working period..still preparing my slides for 1st presentation..after seeing the report format then i know my report is gonna be sth like wad wn did for her attachment..omg, dun think i can crap enuff to mk a 30 pg report not to mention a 50 pg 1..-_-" but i dun want to give crap to Ms Gan also cos she's really very very nice to us..nvm..juz needa try my best..no confi though.. =(

Back to topic..i'm still doing my literature research on retorting n hot-filling..of course not research alll the way fr 9 to 5 if not think i wun be in the rite state of mind to be typing here..haha..crapped with Yx, Bl n YJ in the prep rm..listening to music while we are doing our research..found a music khaki cos me n him seems to have the same taste when comes to music..very hard to find ppl who likes chinese songs alr..cos most of my frens only listen to eng songs or very limited chinese songs..n yx seem to know the songs i played on my comp too..actually playing on whose comp also no diff lah cos the songs we played mostly are comfortable to our ears..also found a mushrm soup fan..YJ!!! Haha..actually nvr try the mushrm soup @ splash n deckers b4 1..but cos 1 morning YJ jio me to go buy soup w/ her so i juz go out walk walk n bought a cup too..it's nt bad lo..actually is reeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaally nice lah..haha..n this morning we added Yx into our mushrm soup "gang" too..nxt 1 will be BL =p Guess drinking mushrm soup will be 1 of our morning routine b4 work =p YJ started on her trials on gummy candies alr..did 3 trials n we ended up being her guinea pig..haha..ok lah..each batch gt improvement..initially the gummy were very very soft (chocolate flavour somemore)..we can't even grasp them..the 2nd batch better..3rd batch we can take them up in our hands alr ^^ Yessa! But a bit too sweet..ale ale..will pray for u tht ur gummy hearts will be a success soon (^^)Y

Actually was quite in a gd mood 1..cos had a nice chat w/ Marlene, YJ n Yx over lunch..talking abt wad we wanna do aft we grad..n abt hw lectures should be conducted in such a way tht we will learn n not feel bored..tried some ice kacang tht Yx bought..nvr ate the ice kacang in sch b4 n it was juz as wad Yx said, "Like the normall ones outside lo.." Haha..wad sia..i thot he was gg to say it taste better than the 1s outside..chey =p But then it reminds me of the times when i was in my pri sch days n 1st 3 mths Jc..cos used to share ice kacang with my frens..n we used to challenge each other to see who 1st find the attap seeds amg the red beans..not tht i really like to eat it but juz like to challenge each other to it cos there's limited no. inside a bowl..haha..but in the end we will still allow each person to have 1 if possible..=p Tht's y i like to share ice kacang.. =) Oh ya..back to the topic..I said "actually" rite? Yup, ACTUALLY was in a gd mood 1 but then..when we return to the prep rm n i was comfortably seated in the chair..RK came in n said,"Y r u in my lab in this kinda attire?" Stop it sia..like i know cannt lidat..tht 1 nt even a cooking lab n we not even doing prac lo..every1 also come in n out lidat..y muz always pin point me only..juz becos i alwaes happen to be the 1 who come in late..alwaes the 1 in sports attire..luckily Yx rmb JY gt his jeans n sneakers in his lockers so i juz pull it over my shorts so as to stay in the prep rm..paiseh JY, if u r reading this, juz borrowed ur jeans for a short while only k =p haiz..now muz put a "for-show" long pants n shoes in my locker alr..sianz..

Time seems to fly past today..soon it's time to go home..n muz really really thanx yuye..to think tht she actually rmb to buy the moisturizer fr her hosp for me n came down to hougang juz to pass me the moisturizer..paiseh..thanx LOTSSSSSS!!!! Ok..ya..taufu asked her to teach me to be more like a gal..guess i will nvr be like 1..mission impossible sia..haha..but my feet really cracking very badly alr..no choice so i think i try wad the potential nurse said..=p Thanx alot alot..nxt time treat u mac ice cream k? =p Yessa! The obt ppl coming back in 2 days time =D Pray they all come back in 1 pc.. (^^)

To end, this is a very very meaningful song tht i've found while browsing through haoting webby..an english song by tata young - For you, I will..If gt time can go listen..quite nice.. =)

When you're feeling lost in the night
When you feel your world just ain't right
Call on me, I will be waiting
Count on me, I will be there
Anytime the times get too tough
Anytime your best ain't enough
I'll be the one to make it better
I'll be there to protect you, see you through
I'll be there, and there is nothing, I won't do

I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero, your strength
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you, for you I will


I will shield your heart from the rain
I won't let no harm come your way
Oh these arms will be your shelter
No these arms won't let you down
If there is a mountain to move
I will move that mountain for you
I'm here for you, I'm here forever
I will be your fortress, tall and strong
I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you, right or wrong

For you I will, lay my life on the line
For you I will fight, mmm, for you I will die
With every breath, with all my soul
I'll give my word, I'll give it all
Put your faith in me
And I'll do anything

2more days =)

| a simple day. 3/16/2009 04:50:00 PM
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Sunday, March 15, 2009

| a simple day. 3/15/2009 11:57:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

11th Mar, today should be my official start of my FYP..proj changed to researching on retorting n wad are their effects on pasta sauce..Ms Gan went away for YEP alr..i had 2 wks to research on retorting..very very happy cos of sth..dun wanna say until i achieve it n confirm it..but i'll be working very hard towards it..cos -... . .-. -.- . .-.. .- .... is my goal..i know i can do it if i want to..was so very sad tht day when i thot it was impossible but...nvm..1st thing i did was to msg my secret pal..cos juz wanna share it with some1..some1 who wun think tht it's impossible for me to achieve things n wun laugh at me even if i fail to do so..but tht some1 is far far away..qy n char also far far away..miss them.. alot alot..3rd day w/o them..

Anyway, thot FYP will be boring cos i'm doing my proj individually..but on a 2nd thot, otot nt bad also..at least i know my pace..n it's not tht bad aft all cos i found a few buddies to work with..nt on the same proj..but work in the same rm..the prep rm..becoming their 2nd home n my 3rd home..spending a lot of time in there..researching n talking rubbish at the same time..have lunch tgt..FYP doesn't seem so bad aft all becos of them.. =) Cheered up becos of them too..have to look on the bright side i guess..dun wanna sad for the rest of the wk..can miss ppl happily too i guess.. *cross fingers*

3rd day w/o -- ..- ... .... .-. --

| a simple day. 3/11/2009 11:25:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

10th Mar, reached sch to find no1 there..was told aft tht tht today was SCL day..all TSO n lecturers had gone out for fun..n me..i juz suddenly had the urge to go cycling again..i didn't care whether it was sunny or rainy tht's y gt sun burnt in the end..i juz want to go cycling again..i juz want to..since no1 will be affected by my decision i dun see y i can't do things i enjoy..at least let me be on my own for 1 day can anot..took the usual route to changi beach n sat there for dunno hw long..time seems to pass so very slow..very very slow..i'm beginning to be a bit scared..hw come my every move is liked being watched..not tht i'm doing sth to be guilty of..but i juz dun like it when ppl knows my every whereabt, every little things i do when i didn't expect them to know or even want them to know..i dun have the most basic privacy when i thot i have..i know i do very silly things sometimes when i know there's no use in doing them..but i thot ppl will understand y i do so esp when they r suppose to be my close frens..i thot i can say everything under the sun to them..but it turns out tht..nvm..maybe mushrm is rite..i dunno nw..have no1 to turn to nw n i turn to the sea..to the wind..to the trees..facing them is so much easier than facing humans..maybe i'm really born in the wrg place as the wrg being..maybe i should have being born in the nature..in the mt...maybe in my nxt life i guess...

2nd day w/o -- ..- ... .... .-. --

| a simple day. 3/10/2009 11:08:00 PM
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Monday, March 9, 2009

9th Mar was a rainy day..internally n externally..went to the airport the nite b4 to "torn" with qy, loretta, james twk, andies, clara, sam etc. cos the next morning we will be sending the obt ppl off on their trip to taiwan, mt jade..played stacko or wadeva u call tht blocks..soon morning came n it's time for the obt ppl to go..i laughed n shouted like i nvr did b4..i dunno wad i talking also..but i really tried very very hard to nt emo..till..also dunno when tears juz started rolling non-stop..i thot i had finished crying the nite b4..i thot..but no..things i thot always are not real..it is then i realise ppl dun cry becos they cannt get wad they want but it may also be becos they will miss the things tht may or will be gone..it's hard to try to act happy when u r nt..it's like u r laughing ur lungs out on the outside yet it's so raining heavily inside..have been holding back the tears since last nite yet couldn't hold them back anymore when they r abt to leave though i didn't wanna let so many ppl see them..it may seem silly to a lot of ppl cos they r only leaving for 10 days..but somehow..maybe i'm too influence by some1..always think the bad side of things..i kp getting the fear tht..i dun wanna say..it's juz nt nice..dunno y..tht feeling juz cannt go away..n..it's juz nt use to nt seeing ppl tht u used to see everyday..not use to not feeling their presence..kp telling myself it's 10days only..i've gone past 5 days so wad is 10days..but then again 10 days = 2 x 5 days..twice of wad had past..how? I will be counting down everyday i guess..so juz tell myself today tht there's only 10 days left..we muz eat popeye tgt again k..muz tk us see sunrise n sunset when u come back...

9th Mar is the 1st day of my FYP too..it's juz as dead as can be..reached sch at abt 8.50am..but cos hadn't bk an appointment with Ms Gan so have to wait till aft the lab safety briefing then meet her to know wad will i be doing..lost my wallet the nite i went to airport..so went to amk's posb to cancel my card during the 2hrs break..the rest of the day was ok..can say so..

Day 1 w/o -- ..- ... .... .-. --

| a simple day. 3/09/2009 11:55:00 PM
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Saturday, March 7, 2009

28th Feb, caught the last bus to airport with wn. Reach there abt 12 plus midnite n had popeye for dinner b4 we started taking out everything fr our bag to repack again cos juz realised this time we are allowed to carry our day bag outside n nt juz 1 big bag pack. Packed until 4 plus am then we went over to meet the rest at 5am @ T1. Went on board the plane after some waiting at the airport, shopping n massaging our feet.

1st Mar, touched down ard 10 plus am then took a long bus trip to rose cabin, which is our roof over head tht nite. Along the 4hrs trip, was thinking abt a lot of things while looking at the greenery...it was a long tedious trip..for me at least..nt physically but maybe mentally i guess..dun really wanna say y..but some of my frens noe y..it's not really peppermint tht made me rain..it's juz sth else i guess..we reached rose cabin ard 1 plus n took a walk ard their plantation..it was gd to be back to nature after 5mths of being in town and to smell fresh air again though it was mixed with the smell of fertilizers. Saw veg tht we normally dun see in singapore..after the small walk, we had 4 hrs of free time b4 our dinner. 1st time (tht i join adc exp) we had fd served to us in a restaurant style..after tht we juz washed up n went to bed..1st day was quite slack n relax.

2nd Mar, we had more to do on this day..started our trek up mt k at 10am. It was not a very tedious road as compared to gunung stong as the paths are alternating steps and rocks which are very stable to step on in contrast with the muddy routes at mt stong. However, the steps were very steep, our quarts were alr hurting 1/2 way thru. But still i enjoy the sounds beside me..not sounds made by the people, but the music of the forest..yup, i juz realise i kp talking n talking on the way up waterfalls n mts cos i'm with my closer frens during hiking tht i nvr really put my heart into listening to my surrounding..this time there's no 1 to talk to me n i have to kp walking on myself..it wasn't ez at 1st..but when we are higher up, there were birds chirping, thrustling of the grass n leaves when the wind blow..magnificent scence below when we stop for rest on the steps. Yup, i turned ard n looked, the scences are beautiful below..though it is juz simple pic of trees n clouds..but it juz took my breathe away..we finally reached at 4.30pm..did some unpacking n went down to the base camp "restaurant" to have buffet dinner..went out to the balcony to see the sunset at 6.30pm..the sunset took away the coldness..it's gd to indulge in the orange-turning-purplish blue sky..but it's very very short..in abt 1/2 hrs time it's gone..made our way up back to the cabin for mutual sharing, journal reading and briefing n trial for via ferrata tht we are gonna do the nxt day..had an early nite cos we were gg to the summit at 2am the nxt day..

3rd Mar, this day wasn't ez..we wake up at 2am..had our breakfast n started out for the summit..we started out fast but slowed down after a while cos some of us were having difficulty breathing as the air up a bit was thinner and it was difficult for us to take deep breaths thru our nose also as the air was not only thin but cold..but still, looking at the appearing starz kept me gg on..looking back down we could see tiny lights in houses below..it was steps n rocks all the way till a part where i literally had to go down on all fours to climb when nearing the last chkpoint..my hands were cold n pain due to the scraping on the rocks (cos couldn't take out my gloves) n thanks to wilfred (not our SDO) but my guild..he took my hand n pulled me to chiong with him up to places where i can stand on flat grounds..finally we made it up to the summit at 6am.. n caught the sunrise there..it's really different fr juz watching sunrise anywhere..cos we fought our way up juz for this..n being able to see it is our achievement..we shared this moment tgt..it was as if we were standing on clouds looking at orange streaks across the ocean blue sky turning to a lighter skyblue..some of us didn't manage to mk it to the top..but dun be sad n disappointed k..we organise another trip there nxt time we go again..set? We will mk it to the top someday..tgt.. =) Stayed up there for abt 20mins only as we have to make our way back to the last chk point b4 8am to do the via ferrata..wilfred (my guild) helped me down all the way again..rested at the last chk point for quite a while then we proceed to the start point of the via ferrata..i was quite scared initially cos i'm a bit afraid of heights..but it was different up here..the clouds below look welcoming..nt threatening at all..soon we gt started..via ferrata is like the simpler version of abseiling..but also the boring version of abseiling cos we kept repeating the same steps over n over again..luckily there's a reward waiting for us 1/2 way thru..we saw a rainbow rite beneath us.. (^^) Though it's quite dim, i still think it's the nicest rainbow ever..it's the nearest rainbow i've ever seen..After 2 hrs on the cliff, we finally ended the long trail n made our way back to the cabin..rested for an hr plus b4 we made our way down mt k..the way down ain't any easier than the way up..due to the steep stairs, i was literally slamming down my whole foot as i was gg downhill..by the time i'm 2.5km down, my knee caps were hurting like hell alr..but still hafta continue gg..cos dun wanna trek in the dark again..n the trick is, if u go down fast fast, then u wun feel the pain so much though when u stop gg the pain will come all at 1 shot..endurance training..haha..thanx to 2 person, to be exact, 3 (cos the last 1 wasn't there but he has always being my motivation to carry on walking, running everytime) tht i can get down juz b4 the day darkens..1 is my secret pal, the 1 looking after me..cos he motivates me to move down faster..the other is the guild..though this time it's not wilfred..n i dunno his name..but he's very very nice also to wait for me..n everytime we reach a 0.5km panel he will tell me "Look, we only have (how many) more km to go..can reach there b4 the sun goes down.." Tht's y i didn't stop at all the way down..juz stop to drink a mouth of water (like 30 secs) then we went on again..at some point of times we stopped to listen to the aniamls calls..the guild told me tht is the call of the red apes..can be found on high mountains cos they can survive in the cold..we saw squirrels also..like the 1s we saw at gunung stong..finally, we reached the start point at ard 6.30pm..we were so happy..the guild still told me, "We dunnid to use torchlite, we reach alr.." omg, u know hw relieve i felt..though there was a long flight of stairs for us to climb to the station..but there was a beautiful sunset view waiting for me there..i climbed up a white staircase to the "balcony" on top to see the sunset..the trees behind me were dyed red by the sunset..eventually, the sky darkens n the trees returned to the normal dark green..so i went down to the bustop to wait for the bus..soon loretta n qy reached too..n the 3 of us took the bus back to rose cabin which a lot of them alr reached, waiting on the bus for the rest..after every1 assembled, we took a 2 hrs ride to kk town where we had KFC b4 we retired for the nite..

4th Mar, woke up at 6.47am, took away our breakfast at a nearby store as we are running out of time alr..took a 4 hrs bus ride to the train station with 3 of our guides for white water rafting..luckily we slpt on the bus..cos when we saw the train then we see tht it's impossible to slp on it cos there's a danger of falling off..the train is juz like an open lorry..w/o roof 1..so if u fall aslp n lose balance then tht's it..u r off the train..haha..luckily i didn't..the train trudge very slowly..allowing us to admire the sceneries n have a preview of the river we will be rafting in lata on..we were like..oh no..when we saw the river..1stly, the colour wasn't rite..it looks like - ice milo..=p 2ndly, the rapids were like boiling furiously..maybe not big to those who did it b4 but to us beginners..erm...haha..the train ride was quite slow, abt an hour plus..we had our lunch n mutual sharing b4 we embarked on the rafting journey..we had a 2km warm up b4 we started on our 1st rapid..call the head hunter..after which we have the scooby-doo, cobra, washing machine, merry go round, grandma, big sucker etc...n becos our grp have 2 jap ladies accompanying n to mk them feel welcome, we went "ichi, ni, ichi, ni..." to match our rhythm of our strokes..teasing each other see who wants to drink ice-milo..=p It wasn't as scary as we had expected it to be..luckily no1 capsized though it would be more fun if we did..but tht 1 muz wait till nxt time when we are more confident swimmers.. We were lucky to have JJ as our guild for our "boat" cos he can speak english (not to be racist) n introduced us to the various rapids tht we passed by n a story about the stretch of burnt forest..i guess i enjoyed this water rafting part the most out of this trip..though it was quite tiring on the back n the arms..but i still enjoyed it..hope there's more to come in the future..we transferred to a "speedboat", which was quite slow, after 23km of rafting..it took abt another hr plus for us to reach the bus..by the time we reached there we were alr shivering like dunno wad..after changing into our dry clothing (gals in the bus n guys outside) , we proceed to the backpacker's hostel..we were given free time till 12am to roam ard the city though in the end we only had time to eat "seafood" tgt..I "" the seafood cos it's not very like a seafood..there's no bbq stingray (sold out) so we only ordered sotong, kangkong n a bbq fish..after eating, we went back to our bunk to retire for the nite as the nxt day we are gonna wake up early again..

5th Mar, our last day in kk town..went snorkelling early in the morning..1st time i ever snorkel..wasn't quite use to breathing thru mouth only..but still enjoy looking at the cute creatures under the sea..1st time i'm so so so close to those fishes..i was even able to touch them..they even "bite" some of us..guess we are very very near to their homes..but it's not pain..juz like needles poke u like tht..quite ticklish in fact..saw nemo (=clown fishes), light blue baby swordfishes n sea urchins..they look quite intidimating at 1st cos there's a whole bunch rite underneath our feet..but on a 2nd look they r quite cute..it like black porcupines with orange, blue n silver eyes..as long as u dun step down, kp urself afloat, they can't harm u.. =) Enjoyed the sun, the sea, everything..soon it's time for us to leave the island so tht we can do some last min shopping at kk town.. There's not much to shop for there..cos a lot of things are commercialized..n not very special also..4give me if i didn't get things for u (u know who u all r rite? =p) Mk sth for u all in singapore can? =p Boarded the plane back to singapore at 6.40pm..touched down at 8.40pm..went to eat popeye with Andy leong, clara, qy, weini, elynn n Mr Wilfred..took a bus home with weini..the trip ended..yup..ended juz like tht..

Felt really reluctant to leave..to leave the mt..leave the nature tht i wanted so much to live in..juz ended like tht..dunno y juz felt a sense of loss when coming back..if not for sth..some1..some memories..i guess i wun want to come back..Along this trip there's really a lot of disappointment n discouragement tht made my heart drop to rock bottom, for me, at least..thot a lot..really a lot abt y ppl do things the way they do..y ppl say wad they said..thot abt wad my secret pal told me..thot abt y i do stupid things sometimes..it's not tht i dunno it's stupid n meaningless to do such things but i juz want to kp lying to myself to carry on no matter wad..i dun wanna care or believe wad other ppl say...i juz continue acting blur..acting like i dun care..like i dunno anything..but actually..i'm juz lying to others n myself..i have no confidence in myself..i guess it's becos everytime i do things i'm bound to mk some mistakes n then being laugh at..i dun mind being the pistachio of u guys..being the joke of the day..being blur..u all happy can alr..but i want to be heard when i'm talking abt serious things..i want to be trusted..but it seems tht no1 is ever listening to wad i have to say n i think i'm losing the trust in myself too..it's not until i had tht chat with char's hero, my secret pal tht i think made me felt better abt myself..regained a bit of my courage to do things..also after the talk with qy after via ferrata on our double decker beds tht i know at least some1 will stand by me..it's not tht i cannt tk jokes..i laugh at the stupid ideas i get sometimes too..but there's a limit to everything..sometimes..it's too much..tht i feel tht i'm standing alone..walking alone..n then i repeat to myself again tht i'm nt stupid, juz tht i haven learn. Yup, tht's wad i've said during the sharing session, if u guys didn't catch it. No1 is too stupid to learn. I dunno hw long can i perservere on with this sentence but so far it's been kping me gg on everytime i'm being laughed at..hope it can last 4eva..

A song i heard fr my secret pal's blog..very nice..very meaningful also..sth tht somehow speaks wad i wanna say i guess..to my bestie n the 1s who always stand by me..u all know who u r..

I think of you - Tata Young

When I’m down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I’m sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and ‘round
I can’t seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I’ve believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

Chorus
Is think of you
I think of you and it’s gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I’m strong
And I know I can go on
It’s like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you


Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there’s nothing I can’t bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won’t break
Through it all I’ll make it through
Cause all I have to do

(Chorus)

And when I think I’m all alone
I can’t see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

(Chorus)

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

| a simple day. 3/07/2009 06:08:00 AM
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