+me

name.James.Ming Fei
gender.GaL
age.21
dob.26 jUl Leo-ian
school.NYP.Food.SciEnce
am.nature-lover
family.jaMes.fAmiLy & gIaM
buddies.many

lurves.
.james.famili
.sky
.clouds
.mountains
.waterfalls
.close.frens
.kbox
.all.sports

what i want.
.simple.life
.confidence
.trust
.dream.job
.nth else

what i don't want.
.false.frens
.ficker.minds
.lies
.tk.things.for.granted.ppl

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Can't believe i'm here to blog b4 i leave for mt k tonite.."torning" over at the airport till 5am then boarding the plane at 7.40am..will be reaching sabah at 9.55am. These few days were spent with obt ppl..looking and buying stuffs at army mkt n velocity..very happy, really really very happy..dunno y also..looking at them i saw myself in the past when i juz entered this adventure world..ppl say wad i juz listen n buy..the diff is i nvr think b4 i buy (n they think a lot)..juz go ahead..i've really missed out a lot of this thinking process which i should have gone thru..have come to realise tht the feeling of considering n thinking about whether to buy an item is actually quite gd..though it's really mind racking at times..but when at the end of a lot of comparison and sourcing btw shops n brands n u finally get wad u need at the best deal..the feeling is beyond description..though a bit heart pain cos shouldn't have bought the tatonka hydration bag back then..too small for all my activities..but i gt a day bag which i can brg for exp and adv races..at quite a gd price though it burnt a big hole in my pocket..these are taught to me by some1 too..

My comp super drench now..even mouse pad also cannt use..die alr..wun see u guys for 5 days + 10days...= 1/2 mth? Very long..very very long u noe..my 1st exp w/o a vegetable..no vitamins n minerals..die alr..wad am i talking..haiz..dunno also..no old man to tell stories also..no coffee addict to share coffee with..die alr..kk, really my last post b4 i leave for mt k..cya guys then..take care..

Missing spidy =(

| a simple day. 2/28/2009 04:38:00 PM
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Yoz, guys, i've reach the no. 105th post of my blog..k lah..tht's not the main point..main point is..this is the last post i'm writing b4 i leave for mt kinabalu..damn excited cos like long time nvr climb alr though the last time was only on 6th oct..somemore 1st time doing white water rafting..cool rite? This time i'm really gonna be a cool spidy u noe? =p K lah..spare u all fr the coldness..haiz..but dunno my i-pod can tahan 5 days anot..though usually i go expeditions though gt brg i-pod but everytime will have left at least 1/2 of the batt in the ipod cos everytime gt ppl tell stories for us to listen 1..juz joking if i say will fall aslp listening to them.. actually.. dunno.. maybe will miss the stories during this trip..haiz..

Until now still haven pack my bag u noe..cos actually dunno wad to pack inside..cos actually until now haven bought everything yet..2mr gg to buy somemore..juz hope tht i dun overspend..actually now i juz a bit scared i dunno hw to apply 1st aid in actual situation..cos i accidentally been made the 1st aid of this expedition..damn funny 2day..i thot i rmb loretta told me to go buy 5 tubes of deep heat n hydration salt..n qy told me to go buy 2 cans of glucose powder..in the end is i heard wrg myself..actually SAO office gt..can go top up there..i think loretta smoking 2day alr..paiseh lah..i treat u milk chocolate nxt time ok? =p kk, this is no laughing matter..nxt time i will ask b4 i buy..i gt a lot of things to say but dunno hw to write it out here alr..haiz..nvm..now i know y this draggy feeling comes with me..stop it sia me..only 5 days also like tht..nvm..guess will be happier up there in the mt.. hope so..hey, gd luck to those gg mt jade also, no matter u r adcians anot..still all the best..=)

Confused spidy =(

| a simple day. 2/28/2009 02:06:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Long long day..though today, for the 1st time in this past yr, i'm once again feeling confident in myself, as in doing exam papers..i've been struggling n struggling for my past few papers..even the last sem 1s..n for once, i completed the structure essays in 1 paper n tht's nutrition science..may not be sth to u guys to be proud (maybe) cos i guess most of you all are able to do tht..but i told myself i cannt fail my nutrition science cos i love it alot..guess i'm really into it..tht's y it isn't really tedious to rmb the facts tht u r interested in..this paper really gave me a lot of confident in doing future papers..it's not tht i cannt memorise is juz tht i dun put my heart into it..i guess..exams gonna be over soon..n Mt K is drawing nearer n nearer..juz look 4ward to going back to the nature..if i ever stay there n dun come back..how gd will it be..nvm..i dreaming again..

Our results for ocbc cycle 40km are out..=) We all came in abt the same time..yan chang n sam gt the same timing (juz missed by 3 milisecs..) 1hr 50mins, i came in at 1hr 55mins n elynn 2hrs.. =D Ms Gan came in at 1hr 26mins! Yessa, no matter wad we still completed the race..tht's sth to be really proud of..=D Till now i'm still reminiscing on tht 2 days of cycling..guess i've really fallen deeply in love with this sport though i still gt a lot to improve on..still want to participate in more of these bike races though i know maybe i wun win but for every race i want to improve a bit..even if it's juz 1 min i will be happy enuff..saw a quote somewhr : "It's not becos it's difficult that we dun dare (to try) but maybe it's becos we dun dare so it seems difficult to us.." It's quite true in many areas..i realise..if only everything we dare to give it a try, fall down juz pick urseelf up again, i guess we may learn things faster..or even happier..dunno..juz think it's quite a logical phrase..

Dunno y..after so many so many happy things n more to come in juz the next few days, i should be happy n contented alr..but sometimes i dun understand myself too..y am i feeling so so so blue..i cannt understand y i feel this way..mt k is nearing..i should be excited..should be..i guess i am..but y is there this heart dragging feeling accompanying it? Y does my days always ended in blue-ness recently, no matter whether the day had been gd or bad? i dun like..but i can't solve it too.. nvm..juz let it be..maybe i will find out someday..

| a simple day. 2/25/2009 12:25:00 AM
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Monday, February 23, 2009

Juz wake up..slept fr 10pm until now..quite tired..ok..very tired..haha..kk, muz start fr this morning..we took cab to f1 pit at 5.40am n reached there at 6.20am..juz as we planned..then met elynn there..then walked to the f1 pit to collect our bikes..there's even neutral service where we can pump our bikes b4 the race..after depositing our bags we went to the start point with our bikes..damn a lot of ppl..we are suppose to start off at 7.30pm but we waited until 8.04pm then can flag off cos they started 1 wave by 1 wave..wah..we didn't know then i alr seated on my bike..seat until butt very pain lo cos we were 1/2 standing also..haha..there's aunties participanting in the event too..40km u know..omg..like chang chang's mummy like tht..finally we got to start off..for the 1st 5km or so still can kp paddling very hard..but after tht..die off alr..cos i juz realise i cannt cycle full speed for long..i only gt stamina no speed..haiz..tht's y i lost chang chang n sam at the beginning alr..nvm..i juz paddle as fast as i can until slopes then rest..it's also quite nice to see different types of participants along the way..gt ppl carry crumplers to cycle somemore..then gt mummies cycling with their babies behind..1st time see other ppl cycle so fast..really fast until i think i can only catch a glimpse of their back view then they disappear alr..the ride was also quite enjoyable cos for 1 thing: some of the views are quite nice..not really those type u see alr will "Wowwww.." but juz very calm when looking at them..esp over the bridge..the funny thing is..we cycled the some of roads the nite b4..haha..then today we cycle again..2nd thing is..it's not very often we can cycle on the roads n highways n tunnels like tht..(if we did i dun think we will be alive by now..) on the way there are funny funny guys also..guys in pink on pink bikes playing doraemon song on their harmonica..n kp saying "ohaiyo" n "ni hao" to us..stop it sia..mk me laugh until dunno like wad..by the end of the race..i seriously thirsty until want to die alr..cos went past 1st 2 water points then still think can tahan..until 3rd water point..only left abt 5km so didn't want to stop but actually really very thirsty alr..when i reach the end 1st thing is grab a 100 plus n gulp the whole bottle..damn shiok sia..though quite bloated alr but still want to drink..muz learn hw to paddle w/o hands like chang chang so can drink water while riding nxt time..after tht went to collect our bags n meet thhe rest..went up to their expo to see see n gt super cute bottle..will brg tht on bike trips nxt time.. =) After tht, we went..ahem..popeye again..ya..we had it last nite n this afternoon cos mr wilfred didn't eat last nite so we went to eat it again..damn fattening can..but also nnvm..cos 4 of us kp throwing chicken skin to sam who seems to love them alot.. =p anyway he too thin lah..need to store some fats to go mt k..if not will be super cold..after tht we cycled back to return our bikes..went back by the changi coastal way..bad suggestion..cos initially i thot the route smoother there..really quite smooth but the route is very long n somemore we cycled until 1/2 way then it started pouring..so we rested at a shelter in the middle of changi coastal way..damn pathetic..it's like 4 ppl stranded in the middle of no where w/o water also..sam still flash our his cards to show us magic..though not very long after tht chang chang fell aslp..along the 3 hrs plus way i kp thinking n thinking abt 2 things..think until i almost crash rite into a lamp post..lol..damn funny..i think sam didn't see tht rite..juz pretend u nvr see tht even if u do k..haha..k lah..i told a stupid lie n am gg to hell for tht i guess..We reached the bike kiosk at exactly 5.04pm..then we walked out to the mrt station..stop it sia..the station is really near lo..to think i everytime waited for 20mis for the bus n took a 10mins ride then walk in for 10mins again..stupid me..after tht we parted there cos we are gg different directions..tired but very happy..we've completed a total distance of 120km!!! =D We are iron gals n men too =D Haha..want to die alr..8 1/2 hrs lata gt fd processing exam still haven touch anything yet..but nvm..even if i fail i wun regret..cos these 2 days is really worth it..really worth it.. =)

kk, back to notes...

Happy spidy =)

| a simple day. 2/23/2009 03:40:00 AM
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Saturday, February 21, 2009

Hey guys, i really had a very very fun day..though we almost clashed into little gals along ecp..but i really really enjoyed myself..i guess i've alr gotten my bdae present this yr..=) Cos I've wished for a ride with my best best best fren as my bdae wish this yr ever since the last time we cycled at the adv race =) We cycled fr pasir ris to tampines to simei park connector then to ecp n fr there we went thru a route tht i've nvr cycled b4..a lot of these routes are the 1s we've walked for 1/2 island hike..like the kallang stadium there..the nicoll highway bridge then to the f1 pit..cannt 4gt to mention the we = me, sam, yanchang and the guide of the day Mr mushroom..=) luckily we didn't lost our way..took a total of 2 hrs 40 plus mins to reach there..went in to deposit our bikes then went to eat out at Popeye's..shared a 8 pcs chicken meal + 1 ice lemon tea + 1 coke + 4 biscuits +2 mashed potatoes + onion rings + fries..omg..there goes the kcal we've burnt..*shake head*..but who cares..happy can alr..can burn on the runs next time..walked past marina barrage there where we didn't manage to catch the sunset..can we catch it the next time? Though i dunno when will be the next time..set? I dun mind treating dinner n this time promise not choco mint..=p Maybe i'm hoping too much..nvm....after tht went home but we will be back there again in 6 hrs time..can't believe it..2mr we're gonna cycle for another 80km..a bit tired..but happy..also sad..cos dunno when will i get to cycle like this again..die alr..i will miss the bike rides we have tgt..=( Muz rmb k..cannt 4gt..will learn hw to cycle around singapore 1 day..safely..i swear i will..the following things are what i promised i will do..can hit my head if i didn't do it.. :

1) Train to run with my little bag
2) Train hard for Mt.K
3) Train to run 5 laps ard somewhere
4) Learn the safety signals
5) Cycle the whole of singapore *someday*

But i dun think u will get the chance also..cos i'm starting once i finish my exams.. =p

Kk, gtg slp if not i dunno 2mr hw to wake up..no..actually is go bathe 1st cos i haven bathe yet..

Nitez..

Happy spidy =)

| a simple day. 2/21/2009 11:54:00 PM
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Very very tired today..tried to crammed everything into my mind juz over nite..but still..i left 2 essay qns blank again..studied RK's tips n all came out though they are mostly multiple choice..haiz..only 1 essay qn..studied a bit on ms wp's tips but cannt rmb all enzymes' names..totally nvr study for Deborah's part..cos it's all machineries n i really cannt undertand hw or what machines does..kk, maybe it's juz tht i didn't try previously..i'm so gonna die for mon's fd processing..calc and machines..more machines..die alr..but then i'm still happy today..cos nobody is sad today alr..maybe..i dun really know..but dun sense it anymore so..haiz..juz stay happy whenever u can since u wun know when u will die rite? Dunno lah..everytime say me happy-go-lucky..only know hw to enjoy..haiz..nvm..

Happy also becos i'm gg cycling 2mr n the day after..long waited for this ride ever since exams started..cos cycling can really take away a lot of burden..a lot of sad feelings n stress..n most imptly i learnt cycling from my best best best fren =p Cycled the whole eastern pcn with them too..so will nvr 4gt..tht's y i like cycling so much..am gg to get a bike someday..blue 1 i hope..i juz found a few more blue things beside me tht i haven notice..i have a blue swimming costume..blue tripod chair, blue pencil case, blue long pants..hmm..blue passport holder..kk, enuff of this blue theory.. gonna study for fd processing nw if not dun think have time 2mr n sun..haiz..every1 dun stress k..be like me..stay cool.. =)

Cool spidy =)

| a simple day. 2/21/2009 12:13:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Today was a bad day..vey bad day..study until fall aslp in the morning..2am..wake up at 5 plus n gt a shock..cos haven finish studying for analytical methods..cannt rmb all the things in the lecture notes..so force myself to read n read n read but i realise i was juz staring at the lecture notes..started to copy the impt pts down but it doesn't help too cos nth can go into my brain..it juz kp wandering off..thinking abt sth else..dunno wad also...there is seriously a prob with me..i can't believe 2 hrs prior to exams i still like tht..n during the exam most of the qn looks like alien words to me..shuts...n i juz kp writing "diealr=(", "FYP6mthshw?","Dowad?=(", "Hwhwhw?"..a lot of rubbish i wrote on the paper cos i really dunno wad else to do..by the end of the 1st hr i'm alr like giving up..yet i juz dun wanna leave..cos if i leave will be like everything is over..but i dun want to look at the exam paper alr..so i juz lay my head on the table..maybe min is rite..slping is a way i use to escape from things sometimes..in the end i still left at 2pm..went to run ard sch n by the 1 and 1/2 round i receive a call fr ms wee ping to tell me tht i have a letter with her..i knew it must not be sth gd..at 1st i thot was some letter telling me i am debar fr exams cos always late..luckily no..but it's also a bad news cos it a fine for breaking a burette in the micro lab =( $39..juz when i gg mt k..but luckily sth gd happened also..cos i didn't hand in 2 e-journal reviews to ms dxxxxx cos i thot late alr then she said she will not mark so i didn't find her to hand in alr cos i think she dun like me also cos i'm always late for her lect..n tht's 20% gone..i thot i die alr cos i didn't think i do well for her paper yesterday as well..but becos of some1 (not gd to say also lata get her/him into trouble) intercede for me then gt to hand in..but like tht i more guilty u know? Cos it's like everytime..everytime only..ppl trying to help me but yet i disappoint them over n over again..last sem also becos this person i didn't get debar due to poor attendance..n i swore to do better this sem..yet.. =( I dun wanna get her/him into trouble cos i am only a student or a fren..i am nt worth her/him getting into trouble for me..really nt worth..but everytime only.. =( I juz realise it's not only abt myself..i thot if i dun care abt gg for IAP anot..if i persuade myself to accept the fact tht i will have to stay back for 6mths doing FYP so be it..if i have to retake then retake..i dun wanna care anymore..but it's nt like tht 1..when every1 is trying to help n i am like tht..when actually they dun have to care abt me..i am nt worth their help..nt worth at all.. =(

Today really is a bad day..though..dun sad..i also dunno wad happened..but juz dun sad..a lot of things are juz temporary dark clouds..will pass 1 though this phrase is very very cliche..n sometimes letting go really isn't tht ez..cos i haven gt over a lot of things until nw also..so it isn't ez..but still have to move on..no matter wad there's always some1 to be there for a person..u believe? I believe so..

Juz a song to cheer any1 up..no matter it's exam stress, family, frens, relationship etc. stress..this song is fr farenheit's new album, Best Listener..nice song:

"最佳听众" by 飞轮海

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/307029ht.htm

我多HIGH你都陪我疯
我耍冷你笑到头痛
我倔强难过不讲但你懂
一句话就帮我想通
一拥抱感动不言中
一想起未知的潜力都汹涌
你欢呼分享我奋力一搏的光荣
你拍手提醒我不停做梦 别怕白日梦

你将心比心是最佳听众
你给的建议总超级有用
在紧要关头 要比恋人还更体谅我
你保持秘密是最佳听众
你讲的实话能逼我振作
很少说谢谢 但我爱你就像你爱我

在半夜找你去打球
大雨里骑车去兜风
我失恋惨的是我的朋友
太臭屁你会打我头
太压抑你载我夜游
才想起你毫不留情等候我
你欢呼分享我奋力一搏的光荣
你拍手提醒我不停做梦 别怕白日梦

你将心比心是最佳听众
你给的建议总超级有用
在紧要关头 要比恋人还更体谅我
你保持秘密是最佳听众
你讲得实话能逼我振作
很少说谢谢 但我爱你就像你爱我

Emo spidy =(

| a simple day. 2/18/2009 09:38:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Yesterday..did gym with the obt ppl..only char, carlos, zhong wen, jerome there..a bit quiet..but learnt to do some machines other than the cycle n treadmill..all train arm strength 1..pull until arms very pain..so after a while every1 started to go any machines do wad they like alr..of course i returned to my fav..the cycling machine..cycled for 30mins again..went out a while then came back to run treadmill for 20mins then hafta go bathe alr cos gt "chase" out.. -_-" Went to s11 to eat then went back..but didn't finish studying for the fd preservation n packaging today..guess i'm really gonna stay back for fyp alr..actually it's not so bad cos after all..attachment really isn't related to wad i want to be in the future n somehw..my dream has been shaken slightly..i think some of my frens know wad isit..but still think i'm not fit to be 1 so wun mention it here till i believe i can achieve it..

Today's paper was tiring..tried to crap wadeva i can..but still..i left 2 essay questions blank cos i really can't rmb a single thing about it n it's not sth i can crap abt cos it's a curve tht we have to draw..i juz gave tht up..if u think it's only 20m gone then it's very wrong..cos i did badly for this sub in the 1st half of the sem so even if i manage to scrap through this paper i won't be able to pass this module..but i need to pass as much modules as i can..i really muz do my best..cannt give up juz becos of 1 module..pls..if any1 see me giving up can juz give me 1 tight slap to wake me up..i dun mind..thanx..also to every1..cannt give up juz becos of 1 paper or presentation u think u know u are sure to fail..cannt ok..not allow..this is an order.

Haiz..today..dunno hw to describe..k, 4gt it..then dun describe..LL bluetooth me this Korean song from the Korean tv series "Mo Nu Yu Xi"..at 1st was juz attracted to the tune..dun really know wad it meant cos i dunno Korean lang..but after i found out the meaning from the net..the title of the song is wrong (the 1 LL sent me) cos tht title dun match the meaning of the song..anyway, no matter wad..the song is still nice cos the tune very touching..n the singer's voice is very sweet..can be found @:

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/148598ht.htm

爱向着我来的那天(Part1) by Ashily

蓝色的天空很耀眼 不知道为什么心有些痛
不知不觉我的眼中蕴含着眼泪
渐渐的自己心里一点点这样的改变着
不知不觉中开始有了期待
因为现在还不知道爱情 不知道你
waiting for your love 不知道爱情什么时候来临
你能不能再靠近我一点
baby my sweet heart 我的爱
世界上的很多人知道如何去爱
只有我一直不知道
非常温暖偶尔很甜蜜的爱情
一向对我灿烂的微笑的你
每当看到只要一想起就变得很幸福的你
每天都想数千遍的对你说我爱你
一直等待爱情什么时候来到我身边
早已来到，自从认识你之后
我的心一直为你留着
我是为了你而来到这个世界上的人
你来到我身边幸福开始的一瞬间

Emo spidy =(

| a simple day. 2/17/2009 11:16:00 PM
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Monday, February 16, 2009

Juz came back fr suntec, "shopping" or should say window shopping with qy n kai boon..this "outing" was damn random cos qy called in the middle of the nite to ask me whether want to buy northface shoes anot (cos buy 1 get 1 free)..but Mr Wilfred say the trail shoe can so i dunnid to buy alr..but this afternoon..she suddenly msn me say "MINGFEI! U chum alr.." Tell u..i gt a shock man..dunno wad i did wrong again..Stop it SIA..lucky it was nth..juz ask whether i want to go with them anot..i'm like so rotting at home "studying" (actually starring blankly at the notes n 1/2 looking at facebk..) So decided to go..1st shop we went of course is the northface shop..i tell u..the things there really can see cannt buy 1..the wind breaker itself cost $420 after discount n the wind stopper..ahem..$600 plus..stop it SIA..who will have the money to buy lo..anyway..so we moved on to the shoes..Most trail running shoes were $100 plus (after disc) ..n..i was so tempted to buy cos the running shoes cost only $80 plus..northface..$80 plus..even cheaper than addidas, nike etc..and their water shoe cost only $60 plus..even less than the addidas original price..haiz..but then..the same sentence rang in my head again.."think b4 u buy..", "Don't buy wad u dun need.." Like some chant like tht..i tell u..i seriously can see devil n angel fighting over this matter in my head lo..haha..somemore i saw 1 bag at MYUK saying, "1st, count fr 1 to 10. 2nd, tell urself u definitely not gg to need this thing. 3rd, wait for sales!!!" Ya..this is the sales but anyway no1 buy with me cos kaiboon bought a pair with qy alr..so yup..glad tht the angel won..haha..
After tht, we walked on to Carrefour..on the way passed by Winter Time n qy n me bought "couple" beanies..haha..k lar..nt really couple..but same design n pattern juz tht colour different..cos the blue 1 not nice n i like the orange n milk white 1..qy gt the black n yellow 1..n the most impt thing is it cost no more than $16 =D Yessa! Saved a lot..n it really can keep ur head warm..noe y i noe? Cos i wore straight after i bought it n i nearly died of heat stroke after an hour..haha..went to Carrefour..also dunno wad they say they were looking for initally..all i noe is tht we ended up looking for food..hehex..n it muz be a curse to kaiboon..everything we want to buy offered in 3s..tht means u need to buy 3 to get the offer..haha..so kaiboon have to buy with us..=p N the 1st thing we bought was UNAGI!!! Haha..3 for $15..if not is $7.50 de lo..then after tht we came across heart shaped container strawberries..also muz buy 3 to get the offer..but we decided tht ntuc sell cheaper so we didn't buy..luckily we didn't..if not kb will have 4 boxes of strawberries in his fridge by now..(cos he have 3 boxes at home alr..=p)
After they left i went to look for bedsheet n sanitizers cos i want to revamp my room..gt a blue blue bedsheet set..i like blue..cos it resembles the sky n the ocean..damn nice..like everyday sleep in the ocean like tht..if only can paint my rm blue also..very weird..although i like blue but it seems like the things i get all are other colours..like my bagpack all red n black (cos dun have blue 1..) both my shoebags are red n black also..my hp n the previous lost 1 are red n black..my jacket i put in sch also red n black..even my clothes most of the time will be red n black fbt..n i can't seem to get blue bottles..always get green 1s..green 1L bottle n green 300ml bottle..red 500ml bottle (again)..anyway i also like green n red juz tht i prefer blue.. =p When i was very liittle i like evenlyn tan cos of her song "Cha Gan Lei Di" but i didn't buy her personal album "Mo Qi" for myself when it was out..instead i bought it for my cousin as her bdae pressie..bought yang guang series II though..inside gt tht song..her songs really very nice n meaningful lo..haiz..regretted not buying..now cannt even find it anywhere alr.. =(

Found the store tht sells a lot of special stuff at suntec level 2..nice shop..found special rings there too..n poker cards n a lot of special thingys..found another special thingy on the way home..went to a small shop to buy drink n happened to come by a wind proof lighter tht have disco light when u light it n a small torch light at the back..the best is it's very cheap.. =)

Let's see wad blue things i have..

1) blue buff
2) blue campus rd run singlet
3) blue bed sheet
4) blue notebk
5) blue mizuno sling bag
6) blue ink pad
7) blue pen
8) blue mood
9) blue (n black) blog
10) blue black (count anot?)
11) blue file
12) BLUE's best collection album =p

Too little alr..nvm..shall acummulate more in the future..haiz..tired..everywhere i walked is ppl asking me study alr? Gt study anot? Muz study hard ar..kk, i will, i will..u all also k? Hope no1 fai..oops..nope..hope every1 pass with flying colours..

| a simple day. 2/16/2009 01:21:00 AM
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Sunday, February 15, 2009

Dunno, dun wanna noe, dun wanna believe it can? I can't believe some1 who's not really related to me, who is not close to me actually spended 1 hr telling me no such things as true frens..4gt hw the conversation started..but there i spent 1 hr listening to her telling me about office politics..telling me tht ppl might backstab u anytime..telling me tht ppl nowadays are not as simple as u think..a lot of ppl have been telling me nt to trust frens, not to believe in them..etc..the only person u can believe in is urselves..but..if there's no trust in the 1st place then wad's a fren? Is she too stress by her work? Or sth else is bothering her? I dunno..y is every1 ard me acting so strange yet dun want to tell me wad happened? All of them are becoming strangers to me..suddenly find tht i dunno them at all..i dunno a single thing about them..isit really becos i'm really tht stupid? Always oblivious to wad's happening ard me? Or my mind juz dun happen to be at the rite place at the rite time? Am i naive? If i didn't believe in frens then i guess won't be here now cos i've always carried this belief tht they will be there for me when i need them n up till now..they have nvr let me down..though maybe i have let them down sometimes..dunno y i dun wanna listen but i still stood there n wait for her to finish her "lecture"..Y is this topic kp popping up ard me recently? Nt tht i want to talk abt it but every1 is starting to tell me this..y? If only i can know the answer..

IMY, u noe? though u always say DMM but ISMY..haiz..nvm..juz a random thot..i guess..

Kk, gtg..meeting qy n kaiboon to see hiking stuff lata..late then die..bye bye

Spidy in confusion..

| a simple day. 2/15/2009 02:21:00 PM
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Another day had past..celebrated vdae with all the things i love -> bike, sea, sky, clouds, wind, PCN route..didn't go in the nite today..decided to go in the afternoon..no reason..the 1st place i went after i woke up was back to sch to tk fd preservation n packaging notes fr my locker..left it inside n 4gt to tk home n the 1st paper is tht..after tht went to pasir ris to rent bike n also to ask if can borrow helmets for the upcoming ocbc cycle singapore..woah..we are gonna cycle all the way to F1 pit fr pasir ris..dunno can mk it anot cos actually i dunno my way there..=( But the gd thing is there is bike deposit the nite b4 at the F1 pit building so our bikes will be look after = we dun have to camp over nite n can have a gd nite's rest b4 the race =D Still thinking hw am i gg to cycle over..haiz..Took 3 hrs to complete the whole eastern PCN..gt improvement cos last time i rested for very long..today i juz continued cycling..cos the aunty's shop closing at 8pm so dun wanna be late..started at 3.24pm n came back at 6.33pm..had some time so i went 1 round ard pasir ris park..found the place tht mushrm took us there to play the "globe"..tht means the bike can ride over the globe 1..damn fun..went a few rounds over it then went to the playgrd tht we discovered tht nite..the type need to bang the rite pattern on the board..but a lot of ppl playing n no1 play w/ me so might as well dun play..the day juz ended like tht..actually wanted to go bottle neck tree park to see the decor there..muz be very nice..but then..gave up tht idea in the end..maybe nxt yr i will go..dunno..doing stupid quizes n notes on facebk nw..when i should be studying..

1 of fish leong's very nice old song..

没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你

没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜 不管你会怎么讲
你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸
爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳

我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你 听歌想着你
大地和蓝天 出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起我爱你

| a simple day. 2/15/2009 02:05:00 AM
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Saturday, February 14, 2009

Today is a black fri..it's not so bad for me yet it hasn't been any good either..a lot of things are happening ard me n i dunno y..i dunnid to know y but it's juz nt a gd feeling to see ur fren cry n yet couldn't help at all..cross fingers it's not wad i thot it was..now thinking back i used to cry over departures..cry over things tht are so small as compare to others..when i'm much much more fortunate..i dun have the rite to..when will i grow up? It's black fri yet 2mr is valentine..hope the day can cure every1 of any harm tht's done today..

Reading "To forget you" for the 3rd time consequtively.. "For every millilitre of tears u shed, i will shed the same amount of blood for u." It's a promise from Tan Zhi Jie to Fang Ling and yet, ironically it's this sentence tht came true tht separates them in the end..Fang Ling actually saw the motor accident tht Zhi Jie was in yet didn't know it was him..will she ever know tht he died on the way to meet her? Will she ever know wad he wrote in the time capsule? It's a story..a tragic 1..yet it may be happening around us any moment..maybe even to us..we nvr know..Juz a random thot after finishing it for a 3rd time..

Heard a nice song from Joi Chai while browsing thru songs..below are the lyrics..it's really very warm to have such a fren described in it..valentine not only for lovers k..also for frens love =p So singles dunnid to be sad also cos u r not considered single as long as u have at least 1 true fren who will stay by ur side =)

每一天 我睁开眼睛
看着窗外的天气 都会问自己
我最关心的你会在哪里
是不是也睡醒 有没有好心情
每一次 我沮丧不已
心中复杂的情绪 你总能分析
就算我沉默不语也相信 彼此会有默契
告诉我 什么事让你开心
谁让你烦心 让我来抚平
有些话 放在心里心有灵犀
不需要原因 我就能感应
能和知心朋友一起谈心
不在乎主题 感觉永远历久弥新
我明白全世界只有你 最珍惜我的快乐伤心
好想天天这样和你谈心
不在乎主题 感觉永远历久弥新
我明白全世界只有你 最珍惜我的快乐伤心

| a simple day. 2/14/2009 02:01:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Truth and tears clear the way to a deep and lasting friendship.
- Mariede Svign


Promise you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave." ~Winnie the Pooh


When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
~ Annonymous


"How do you know you've found your best friend. When you are ready to talk to them about anything, even though they know everything about you already."




We've made memories that we can wrap ourselves in when the world turns cold.
- Annonymous

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked."

- Bernard Meltzer

"Friends never make assumptions about you. They never expect a reason to go out with you. In fact friends only expect you to be you!"
-Chandru Sockalingam

"The best way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost"

"If you are going to jump off a mountain, I won't be beside you. I'll be below going to catch you."

"A friend is someone who listens when you speak, understands when you cry and guides you on your way."

| a simple day. 2/11/2009 11:27:00 PM
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Monday, February 9, 2009

Today started out happy =) but juz felt very tired after tht..even b4 the training starts..dunno y..juz felt very lerthagic..kp putting my head on the table..sat there playing card games with mushrm, fufu, char, elynn, jon etc..then start off for training..every1 has gt their bagpack with them except me..so of course i'm the most "sengnang" (= relax) 1..paiseh lah..cos i didn't know i can join their training in the 1st place (cos this is obt training nt adc) so also didn't bring my bagpack..luckily min say can join also =) anyway, training was fun..played "egg.chick.chicken.eagle.phoenix" game..but cos too little ppl so we kp getting stuck at different stages..n me..i kp staying as the egg =p haiz..my scissors paper stone skills too bad..after tht we went to do sets at the "Great Wall of China" =p ok..it's actually the long long staircase behind blk e..after tht we all gt a shock cos fufu black out..not becos he weak..cos he didn't eat lunch lah..so muz eat light lunch nxt time training..but also cannt eat too heavy cos char kp saying her kway tiao like moving in her stomach..haha..after tht is rest n hydrate time...omg..drink water until dun wanna drink alr..i think i drank the least but i alr feel very full..the rest is like cups after cups..esp Shao Yu..he's the most innocent 1 yet kana the most water..haha..didn't even sweat cos he came after our training..yet drank the most..n mushrm kp eating a lot a lot of the chewy chewy sweets..like free like tht..stop it SIA..=p Mushrm also share with us hw to pack ur bagpack n fufu share with us his wind breaker n waterproof long pants...i'm gonna mk sure i pack my bag well this time for mt k..it's suppose to be a leisure trip for our seniors..dun wanna drag every1 down again..haiz..*Cross fingers*

After tht min took Shao Yu n Carlos for training..n our day ended with playing taboo n eating at macs..really really miss the usual training we've had..like so long nvr have atc like tht..like..lack of sth..n today is like..back to the atc days..haha..juz a bit more fun cos no line drawn across instructor n trainee..actually normally also dun have..dunno hw to say..juz happy..i know some1 sure say i only know hw to have fun, enjoy n play again..but the time tgt so short..if dun enjoy dunno when will be the nxt alr u know..nvm..juz cherish wadeva we have now is wad i wanna do at this moment..juz wanna enjoy the accompanyment i have with my friends esp the best 1..

快乐 是可以分享的
快乐 需要一些过程
快乐 总是能被记得
因为记忆只留下美好的

何必嫌那么难人的剧本
别怪话说了太多了
我只是不要你不快乐

被爱 应该是幸福的
去爱 没有想象的愚蠢
想爱 可以非常的单纯
因为爱全是与生俱来的

你问我怎么那么神
这些智慧该如何来获得
爱你我认识了快乐
他给我上了难得的一课

| a simple day. 2/09/2009 11:50:00 PM
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Sunday, February 8, 2009

PS: Edited this post cos there's sth or a few things haven write in then publish by accident.. =p

Ever since my last expedition to STONG, for some stupid reasons i haven being swimming for a long long time alr..which is like erm...4 good mths...n dunno y..maybe cos i really study until really nth can get into my head alr + I like long time nvr exercise alr since i caught this stupid flu..so when AL and Clara ask me want to go swimming with them I juz dun care alr..juz wanna do sth else other than study..into the pool we went n we stayed in there for like 2 1/2 hrs..1/2 swimming 1/2 teaching clara to swim..i'm nt the teacher though cos dun think i'm fit to teach too cos i also 1/2 bucket water (in chinese = only know a bit) myself..it's fun to see AL teach Clara cos they are really a cute pair of couple n AL dun rush ppl into doing things / learning things..quite impress with the patience he gt..he will think of weird2 funny2 analogy to teach ppl thingy..so easier to understand..like he show me how to tread water in a different way, more stable but more tiring 1..he say ur legs muz be like egg beater like that...then i was like..huh? Wad's egg "beetle"? Haha..cos i've nvr seen 1 b4 hw i know hw it's suppose to move..until he say the 1 u use to beat eggs..then i gt enlightened.. -_-" There's this sentence he've said after our grad camp when we came to wash tents tht time he told me when i say i know i stupid lah..then he say, "U r not stupid, juz tht u haven learn.." Tht's the most encouraging sentence i've ever heard alr n what a teacher/instructor/whoever teaching should tell his/her student to kp him trying..if a person deems himself too stupid to do stuff, he will stop trying n no1 in this world is too stupid to learn..it's juz a matter of time..Also, some1 told me b4, if u dun enjoy ur 1st experience, u'll nvr do it for the 2nd time..tht was during my 1st adv race..n subsequent events n things tht happened tell me tht this phrase is true..haha...yup2, he is always rite..

After swimming, went back to clubrm to study until 8.07pm..omg, i actually rmb the exact timing..cos cannt concentrate so i juz "jumped" out to join the obt ppl (actually only 3 of them left + min n mushrm) play poker..bastard thati..(PS: MIN!!! I really didn't meant to mk u lose.. =p ) haha..gt a gd laugh fr tht game calling each other "King", "Queen", "Prince", "Beggar", "Gigglo" (actually is "Prostitute" juz tht the 1 always kana is a guy (mostly..ahem..also thanx to me lah..Min =p) cos i'm the only gal n dunnid to say i always kana "Bastard" =p ) n "Bastard" ..laugh all the way until near 10pm then we stopped..walked to amk central to have dinner then went home.. Had a super fun day..juz hope tht this stupid cough will go away n my nose will stop doing the running for me n let me run instead.. =p oh...n..i found my identity in the club alr =p cos Shao Yu ask me then wad post u holding? I was stucked on tht n didn't really know wad to reply..but after tht i declared myself to be "the loyal supporter of ADC" =p Haha..yeah..tht's wad i assigned myself as..dun care..tht's my post ok..TMMF =) N i'm really really lucky to be in this super club..haha..super lucky..dunno y juz feel super duper lucky =D

Kk, tht's for now..gtg back to studies..can't afford to fail this semm if nt gotta be kept in sch to do 6 mths FYP (which i dun really mind cos the attachment seems quite irrelevant to wad i am studying or wanna be but still wanna go becos gt pay n it's an experience tht almost all poly students should be gg thru'..dun wanna miss out on tht.. =p)

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Happy spidy =)

| a simple day. 2/08/2009 09:40:00 AM
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Friday, February 6, 2009

Yoz, back to blog again..like long time nvr touch..for 2 reasons : 1- have been sleeping once reach home cos this flu is giving me sleeping spells n when i'm already a sleepy spidy myself..ahem..hahaz..exempted myself from coffee for the 4th day n flooding my body with fruit juice and milk..still dosn't work..having choc mint now though shouldn't be eating tht too..cannt resist temptations alr..2nd reason: I'm still rushing reports..left 2 for Ms wp..then i can concentrate on my nutrition science revision!!!! Yessa! But tht 2 i really dun understand no matter hw i read the webbies on them..stop it sia..all so chimalogy..luckily i entered food science cos molecular biotech was my second choice (3rd to be exact cos 2nd is fd science in tp)..if nt i die..haha..

These few days cannt run..sad =( See ppl run only..sat inside club rm study study + study..but actually most of the time my head is down..cant concentrate..dunno y..nth is entering my brain..yesterday i finally gave up n we went to see Mr Wilfred teach us how to do 1/2 of the Eskimo Row in our kayak at the baby pool..Cool sia..I want to try also but didn't brg extra clothes so..but it's still fun watching them do the "stunt" tht we have been taught during star 2..Jon was the best..nvr learn star 2 but can flip himself over like quite ez lyk tht..after the "lesson" they bathe n we went back ard 8 plus..N i finally gt a ride on Jon's scooter!!!! Cool sia..really super shuang..1st time i sat on a motor was the nite b4 climb run, 25th July..i take it as my bdae pressie =p But actually is becos we haven buy door stoppers n we need ard 10 so took Fufu's bike out to amk central to buy..will nvr 4gt my 1st ride though it was short..i say i want to learn hw to ride a motorbike but ppl ard me kp telling me don't learn cos dangerous..but i still gt the urge to learn..kk, see 1st..if the accident rates of motorbike decrease by 3% nxt yr then i will consider learning =p..N also if i'm a bit more road smart..if nt i will be spending x'mas everyday, wasting a lot of petrol..understand my language? Only a few understand..hehex (^^)Y

Yesterday i juz found out the joke tht some1 wants to tell me but i juz ran away..all i can say is,"U also will mk mistakes de lo.." =p N i also found out why kama call ask khadazans..cos we r trekking up mt kinabalu n the tribal there call themselves khadazans =D Yessa =)

After this wk will be study wk..n i will be free from reports and chasing of reports..YESSA! Kk, gtg for nw..update soon.. =) Ovoir..

| a simple day. 2/06/2009 08:17:00 AM
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Monday, February 2, 2009

Juz yesterday, i argued with some1 about my personality n i was so determine nt to change cos of the things he said..yet today..history repeats itself..n..I guess only this 1 person in this world can really made me feel tht i really want to change becos of the things he've said..but i always cannt mk it..i guess he's rite..i really will take 10 yrs down the road or even 4eva to change cos i'm nt smart enough to do tht..sorry..i know i always disappoint u n i know "sorry" is nt a word u wanna hear but still.. i guess this will really be the last time u're gonna lecture me..will nvr nvr talk to u abt things like tht anymore cos everytime u will end up being the 1 angry..n me..keeping quiet cos all u've said are quite true..don't dare to reply u cos i guilty alr..nt dun want to answer u..n yup..LL said b4 also cannt always do the things u like only..cannt always have things the way u want it to be..but i revert back to the same old me again...not long after.."Change" is a word we kp talking abt n i guess it's getting quite frustrating for u to repeat over n over again..nw i know y for so long u have nt reprimanded me..cos of the quote u wrote, "You can send a message around the world in one-fifth of a second, yet it may take years for it to get from the outside of a man's head to the inside." - Charles Franklin Kettering. Dunno if u will ever see this, but u do or u dun i will not cause / let u go beyond ur limit of tolerance..nvr..nt try but serious, i swear, chop plus guarantee..N actually the purpose of telling u these is nt to let u know hw sad or hw left out i am nt to be in (cos tht's wad i reap for wad i sow..) but tht i no longer feel this way cos i don't think i should even feel this way too in the 1st place n to let myself being shaken so easily i guess u all will be quite disappointed in me..no activities we can also organise ourselves..activities also nt = play all the time...doesn't mean exams we have to drift apart..kk, gonna go back to projects and reports..2 down, 3 to go...nitez..

| a simple day. 2/02/2009 11:09:00 PM
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Changed the backgroung music again..cos the previous 1 juz don't suit this blog..don't match..this piece of music is quite nice..heard it while preparing for commissioning n really really like it though it's quite sad..it's quite touching..the background music of "Summer Love", a Korean movie, played by Yiruma, a talented Korean pianist..his other songs quite nice also.."1st Love", 'Love Hurts" and "River flows by"..can go listen..

Had a 3hr "debate" with a fren online..(nt mushrm, nt everytime i say some1 refers to him ok..)and in the end, i still think it's really the different way we think about things..and i still feel tht if u really treat tht person as ur fren u will not mind those small small actions which are juz habits tht r hard to change tht he/she does..and i cannt change to suit every1..changing for a person is hard enough..and now u expect me to change myself becos this person can't stand me this, tht person can't stand me tht..i will tk 4eva..seriously and in the end it still won't work out cos no1 can please every1..i've come to learn tht..juz be myself and do what i deem is right..i still have my sense of judgement though u all treat me like a kid..though it's ot very accurate sometimes..u don't have too "stand" a person if u sincerely treat him/her as ur fren..i dunnid u to stand me either cos this kinda frenship is very tiring..i think i sound a bit angry here..cos no emoticons n the words i use..but nope, i'm nt angry..juz feel indignant about the things u've said.."bu fu qi" in chinese..n our thinking seriously very different..u think u r an adult alr, but i think the other way..so ya..tht's y i've not really want to talk to ever since u have changed to another person..told u many times hw come u change until lyk tht, nt only towards me but towards every1..but i think u still dun get it..kp explaining tht u are fierce to me becos i'm childish or wad eva..but wad abt others? Haiz..nvm..3hrs debate is enough..don't stand me if u can't..u don't know me well enough to do so..tht's all i can say..yup, no offence also..

| a simple day. 2/02/2009 02:37:00 AM
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Sunday, February 1, 2009

Went back to visit a teacher of a fren's blog..cos rmb she wrote a post on a bk call "212° The Extra Degree"..was searching for tht bk cos it's quite meaningful..though she interpret it another way round..couldn't find the book..but i manage to find a short video on it..and it's may be inspiring to ppl..dunno..it's the way hw u look at things i guess.."to know is nt enough, muz apply.." So yup, juz sharing some of the quotes in the video..

212° attitude - The only thing that stands between a person and what he wants in life is the will to try and the faith to believe it's possible.
212° kindness - We can never help another without helping ourselves.
212° belief - Belief fuels enthusiasm and enthusiasm explodes into passion. It fires our soul and lifts up our spirits.
212° focus - Having a simple and clearly defined goal can capture the imagination and inspire
passion. It cuts through the fog like a beacon in the night.
212° perseverance - Perseverance is not a long race. It is many short races, 1 after another.

PS: There r a lot of crap videos making fun of this bk..though it really does sounds like a saint bk..but really sometimes juz by reading these quotes kp u motivated.. i'm nt a saint either so also dunno can believe and do the things it says anot.. nt preaching but juz sharing (^^)Y N really sorry if i have thot of things this way..the wrg way or said anything tht have offend u..juz 4gt wad i've said/written k..cos was seriously stupidly sad..i dunno y i everytime so things alr then come n regret..try nt to do so nxt time..i say try..no promise i can mk it..yup..

| a simple day. 2/01/2009 06:53:00 PM
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Hey, cleared my thots after 10 hrs of cycling n 3 hrs in between to do my reflections..yup, went nite cycling again..but this time the other way round..started fr pasir ris to changi village, thru changi beach park, to the airport way..to ecp..n i stopped there to do my reflections..it's a gd place to reflect cos yesterday was quite quiet though it's a sat..spent a lot of time thinking thru wad have past for the past wk..didn't quite worked it out cos the feeling of being left out was so strong though a lot them told me it's nt like tht..juz when i was about to cycle back pasir ris, i decided to challenge myself to cycle back to pasir ris by the bedok town park way..a way i've only cycled once with mushrm, min n their classmates who are now my frens..i nvr had the courage to go thru it once more for fear tht w/o mushrm's guide i will get lost..but i juz wanna try..n i found my way back in the end though along the way i lost the PCN track..but who says we must follow the PCN track? Gt tricked by a few routes..also went past routes tht are extremely dark n have trees towering over u..i was scared n almost turned back..luckily i didn't cos after the dark dark paths there's alwaes a light road..the 1st was at the long 8km coastal way..though i'm used to it alr still can't help feeling scared..2nd was the bedok reservoir...it was about 4km around the circumference n it was really very dark at some areas there..when i 1st enter the reservoir i was like asking myself hw come so many ppl 1 cos i want to be alone..then a funny question came into my mind..would u rather have ppl to be ard or sth else..omg..tht question sent shivers down my spine..anyway i don't think it's a gd idea to sit alone in the dark, in the middle of the nite n in the middle of somewhere i'm nt familiar with..so i cycled 1 round n begin to juz appreciate the quiet reservoir..so all these stupid thots went away..then i came out to the bright again..cycled the tampines park connector n came to the place where i used to lived until i was pri 4..so familiar yet strange cos a lot of things have changed there..the 3rd dark road was near the end of the tampines park connector heading towards the highway..a lot of trees towering over me..so close to me tht if there will be sth suddenly pop out i will nt have enough time to cycle away..stupid thots again..i juz cycled thru thinking of other things n i really enjoyed cos at the end of the dark dark trees was a high high slope..i rmb last time we cycled there i was alr dawn n the sky was super blue but i wasn't able too stop to tk photo so i shouted all the way down the slope, "I haven take picTUUUUURRRREEEEEEEEEEE!!!!" Haha..some1 still scold me crazi gal =p The last dark path was the path entering pasir ris..was very scared there cos went there with Singapore Paranormal Association ppl n they told us stories about tht place..but i manage to tahan until i reach the place some1 said b4 can watch the most beautiful sunrise there..yessa! I reached..sat there n continue to reflect in my journal..i came to realise..there's so many dark paths i've past but in the end it turned out to be worth it..though i gt lost along the way i still found my way back..i guess my feelings are juz passing clouds..ya..it's my feelings..i am nt a passing cloud..ppl do lose heart along the way..but they always regain their confidence after tht..sounds cliche but everytime hear alr cannt do..i guess i'm gonna do it this time..cannt everytime like tht..ppl see alr also sian 1/2.. Will nvr let this kinda negative thot cross my mind again..(*cross fingers*) =)

Misunderstandings of my words i dunno hw to explain..but really nt pin pointing any1..it's in general..i am nt a saint..i have feelings too..everybody is getting a bit moody recently..maybe it's a sense of lost? Tht our seniors gonna leave us? Maybe it's stress cos of exams, projs n activities gg on at the same time? Wadeva it is..juz dun take words too hard n dun be too sensitive like me cos u will suffer..i dunno hw to give advice..also nt fit to..but ya..juz expressing wad i feel..yup..

| a simple day. 2/01/2009 11:11:00 AM
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