Sunday, November 30, 2008
A lot a lot of things happened this wk..for me at least..went to a lot of places did a lot of things with a lot of ppl..1st, went jogging with binglin ard sch..old le..only can run 4 rounds then cannt mk it le..muz train up..will catch up with u de ok BL..u wait =p But anyway, quite enjoy the run..juz want to continue running.. After tht we had atc training on wed. Played dog n bone..then gt lectured cos we were late..so suddenly the atmosphere very tense. But after tht ok le..n thanx to Ms Wp for borrowing her volleyball to us.. =) After tht went to play basketball at the sch's basketball court..sth nasty happened. 2 ah bengs n an ah lian came to interrupt our game..they juz came in to shoot their ball into our side's goal post..stop it sia..the basketballers all so tall n strong so u all dun dare to bully them then come n bully our club isit..piang eh..they seriously stop it sia..still say until lyk is our fault lyk tht..u dun respect us y should we respect u lo..we occupy the court 1st in the 1st place lo..nvr ask then intercept..who rude 1st? After tht every1's mood spoilt alr..me n yeye went back clubrm to take the theory test..left a lot of blanks cos haven study finish..haiz..tht's y previously i'm so restless n frustrated...Sorry Jerald..Thanx for replacing me for the old folks' thingy yesterday..really sorry for being impatient with u...juz tht i need to rush off at tht time then somemore lyk a lot of things undone like tht..
The next day, damn lousy..want to find some1 to accompany also cannt..ll went out to lunch with ms wp, dunno where pat n WM went..jerald sick..every1's like disappearing on me..then i juz called jerald to apologize cos i scared he angry with me alr..i'm surprise u r nt..but i juz dun want to talk so i didn't want to kp u on the phone..sorry..nt leaving u out of anything..dun say until lyk tht..nt tht u r nt my close fren..juz tht i dun feel there's a need for any1 to noe anything n in the 1st place there isn't anything to be known lah..so dun think too much..but really sorry..i juz realise tht i've neglected all my frens quite a bit..shuts..i dunno wad i'm doing..they r always there juz tht i fail to notice..guilty..when jerald said," So u will find adc ppl,, then LL, then pat, WM then me isit?" I think u meant it as a joke..but i pondered abt wad u said n i think..i dunno...nvm..will mk it up..try...anyway..then everything screwed up for me..i 4gt to inform every1 tht there tsk tutorial on fri at 12pm.. =( N i think everi1 didn't brg his tutorial sheet to class so wad for have tutorial..shuts..i'm a bad module rep..thot i could do sth for tsk cos last sem he gave me crash course on unit op so lucky i can actually not fail it..but it seems like i only create more trouble for him..stop it sia me...haiz..n i dun seem to be attending a lot of his lect too.i'm like a bit reverting back to my old self..kp falling aslp..if nt will be starring blankly at his slides n mind cannt process anything he've said..i'm juz nt suitable/interested in machines..n i noe tht shouldn't be an excuse..if u guys wanna change module rep..juz go ahead..i think i'm quite a bad 1..4gt it.. =(
Thu went late for Deborah's lesson..dragged myself there..went in an hr late..sat in for 15mins then came out for 10mins break but i nvr go in again till tsk's lesson...Fri was another bad day (in the morning) Came in late for Fd Biotech..have no idea wad Richard Khaw is talking about..i juz saw his mouth move..but didn't understand..some1 was slping beside..i also felt like slping..dunno y..eyes n mind juz cannt open...argh..frustrated...but some1 lighten my mood by writing on my paper, "Smile for the world to see.." I like tht phrase. It's nice =) Warm =) Thanx Fiona =) Then after tht did proj 3 trials..TT cooked like some big chef..Actually i'm starting to think he's quite ok le..maybe sometimes the things he say is super irritating but his skills are there..sometimes we think his taste a bit weird but his dishes can turn out nt bad..like the capsicum sauce we did last sem..i didn't like it..but quite surprised tht other ppl like it a lot..but still..i can't accept the way he teach us..too strict..n scold us too suddenly..dun care abt our feelings.. n sometimes quite unhygiene also.. n i accidentally "Eeee" at him when he shake water off his hands onto our pan which is suppose to be used for frying our carrot cake..then he said, " I testing the heat of the pan lah.." Haha..oops..but nvm..i dun care.. Sometimes i really dunno hw to please some1..when i'm nt active during proj time u nt happy, when i enthu u also nt happy..told others my ideas weird..well..i dun see the point of pleasing u..when i'm trying to be nicer to u (cos some1 advised me to do so..) n nt becos tht i'm trying to gain anything out of it or trying to get into ur gd books (dun see a need to) u r taking everything for granted..n continue showing me attitudes..fine..then i'm nt gg to tolerate anymore..if nt u will say i 2 facer again when i'm nt..at least i dun talk bad about u behind ur back..4gt it..juz 4gt it..
Though mood spoilt by a lot of events tht happened, a night walk did it's trick to cheer me up =) received Joan's msg tht SPI (Singapore Paranormal Investigators) r brging ppl on a trip to many haunted places..so i signed up for it with QY n LL..Jerald last minute came along..we set off fr pasir ris elias cc to pasir ris park 1st..we went to a tower which they say some1 suicide there b4 n his/her head flew off..so gt ppl say u can see the head flying about at nite..Then there a "jetty"at which they say gt 3 ppl fishing there n suddenly the tide went up n swept them away so there were reported cases of seeing the whole reanactment of the accident..we didn't really see anything..in fact the "jetty" reminds me n qy of our jetty jumps we have during our sea expedition..haha..kk..think i wun be ablee to laugh if i really see the accident myself.. Nxt up, we took a bus to OCH (Old Changi Hospital)..last time went there w/ min, mushrm n their frens we went to the below 5 storeys 1..this time round they took us to the top 2 storeys..6th n 7th...we were not allowed to go in..so only manage to see the outer part of the building..sianz..last time went in but police came..after tht took a bus to simei area there..there's a "Coffee Hill" there..it's actually a cemetery but it used to be a coffee plantation..there's this girl who was believe to be a jinx cos when she was bornt her grandfather died 3 days later..so every1 treated her badly, even her own family..then 1 day she was rape by 5 guys n they hated heer so much so tht they beat her to her last breath..n when she was about to die, she cursed tht hill saying tht whoever mentions the word "coffee" on tht hill will die after 3 days n it came true..n jerald really nt scare to die 1 lo..really say the word "coffee"..The trip up there was quite slippery n becos we were nt told to brg along torch lights so the route was dark..it's like trekking in the dark in stong..but the "trek" was short..when we reach up there, we saw a super big tomb...guarded by 2 "guards"..a pity my hp cam cannt take pics in the dark cos gt no flash.. =( Then after tht we took the bus back where it dropped us off due to time constraint..we caught 88 back to hougang..yes..jerald went to hougang w/ me n LL cos...my fault..i thot 88 will drop by tampines b4 gg onto TPE..when i saw IKEA i ask jerald to press the bell but the bus juz continue moving till Compassvale -_-" haiz...we were alr on TPE juz nw..so in the end LL, Jerald n me stop at hougang then went to eat supper at hougang plaza...
Sat is the happiest day of the wk for me i guess..cos 1stly, taking my 2 star kayaking course n 2ndly, Aeng contacted me!!!! =D !st talk abt the course..i was late for my 1st day..reached there at 10.30am..haiz...then he alr finished briefing..we took our kayaks, (single kayak!! Dancer!!) then headed towards the shore..didn't really do much for the 1st 1/2..oops..4gt wad we learnt during the 1st 1/2..oh..capsize drill..but this time w/ spray covers on..so 1 more step..muz pull the loop to release the spray cover before u exit..after our lunch break, we did a few skills like low brace turns, n leaning to 1 side of the kayak (4gt wad tht move call)..then we recapped our j-draw n classic draw..i damn lousy..the more i draw the more my kayak turn..stop it sia..then afer tht went to meet aeng at centrepoint cos actually she wanted to go expo john little fair but i think i too late..so we went to centrepoint in the end to eat jap dinner there..was so surprise to receive aeng's msg..say i mia..i where gt? haha..but ya..it's like 2 mths since we last saw each other...GMY a lot alot..=p cannt like tht..muz meet every mth, no..every wk..better, if can everyday =D Hehex..when we reach ichiban it was like crowded with a lot a lot of ppl..so we decided to go elsewhere..but it's like everywhere is a lot a lot of ppl lo..so in the end we settled at a thai restaurant which is not very ex lah..cos we spent $12 plus each only n considering it's a restaurant..ya..after tht went to see gloves..aeng gg Korea lo..lucky u..i also want to go..put me in ur luggage cn? =p Then after tht we walked down orchard to see a lot a lot of nice nice lightings there..took some pics in the MIDDLE of the road..yar..no wrg..stopped in the middle of a traffic light to take pic..haha..then actually we gg to coffee bean drink coffee 1, if nt tcc also can..but on our way, we went pass an ice cream parlour..then oops...stopped there for ice cream..can sit there eat long long somemore..aeng had mango passionfruit n me had strawberry cheesecake..too bad they dun have coffee 1..haha..nvm..strawberry cheesecake also nice..then we sit there till 11.20 plus pm then we set off to catch (most probably) the last bus back..dunno when will see u again leh aeng but i'm sure will be soon cos we promise to exchange x'mas present n hopefully spend early x'mas tgt before u go off for ur trip..n rmb to tk pics if u eat ice cream at Korea while it's snowing!!! I want to see!!! =p Kk..tht's all for nw..update soon..=)
Missing the old days...
Sky2blue =)
| a simple day. 11/30/2008 01:32:00 AM
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Monday, November 24, 2008
I went to a place yesterday nite..a very nice place..though i noe my motive to go there is to see stars n it was raining very heavily until 5 plus so there is a high possibility of not seeing any stars..but juz want to go..juz feel like gg..juz want to go far away fr here..so went to my 3rd home..lost my way cos i 4gt the last time i went wif mushrm n wn we stopped at which busstop..but found my way in the end cos i juz walk towards the right..then i cross a long long bridge..is nt the way we went the last time..n i saw a very ironic board..guess some1 did sth to it..
After sth like 20mins walk to ecp, i finally found the bicycle shop which we can rent the bike there but return it at changi beach park cos they have a shop there too..cool rite? Actually looking at the time, i'm able to cycle there then sit there stone for 1 hr then cycle back again juz enuff time to catch the last 55 back home..but..well...i took 1hr n 25min to cycle to changi beach park..reach there about 9pm..so thot i would leave at 10pm then reach ecp at 11.30pm then walk to busstop juz nice 12.15pm..about the time the last 55 reach tht busstop..but as i lie on the grass, i saw sth tht caught my eyes n found them dun wanna leave it le..i saw stars...it's a surprise to me cos i was telling myself if i see stars tht nite, tht would be a miracle cos it's raining so the sky should be cloudy n the clouds would have cover the stars..n if miracle happened, then i will do sth (nt sth bad, juz sth tht i didn't dare to do in the past) I was so happy to see stars there..at 1st it's only 1 star, then 2,3 stars appeared..n they stayed there with me throughout the nite..occasionally there will be a few other stars appearing..i counted total of 12 yesterday nite..but clouds will kp covering them..but only tht 3 stars stayed visible to me tht nite..they are simply...magical..they r seriously nt satellites cos they blink..they shine..n as i was watching them, another unexpected thing happened..a shooting star flew past my head, rite in front of my eyes..this is the 1st time i REALLY see a shooting star..i've "seen" it once at Berkelah n the other time i think is STONG..but those were juz experience tht i "feel" sth flew past my head but by the time i lift my head they are gone..this time is REAL..REAL SHOOTING STAR..though it's only 1, i dun mind cos i only have a wish in my heart...
Yup, those were the wonders tht kept me lying on the grass patch for abt 2hrs...in the end i returned the bike at changi beach park n went to see when's the last 89..2348 is the last bus..tht means i still have abt 1/2 hr..went to sit on the swing at the playground..looking at planes..then caught the last 2nd 89 (i guess) back home..
Tht nite was really nice..so peaceful..dun hafta think abt things tht happened the past wk..dun hafta face any ppl..so nice..if only tht moment can last 4eva..maybe some of u will think i crazy or gt-nth-better-to-do..gt homewk dun do go do this-kinda-thing..but if u guys really try putting down all things in ur hectic life n juz run away to some where to think about nth..ur brain may be able to think abt things or see things the different way..maybe a lot of things wun matter so much le...
Take me away,
Sky2blue
| a simple day. 11/24/2008 10:06:00 AM
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Friday, November 21, 2008
Thanx lots lots to all my frens (including mushrm's frens cos i noe u all so u all r MY frens too =p) who have come down to help out at our Campus Road Run 08'!!! esp. fiona, belinda,bernice, lijuan & jerald!!! Cos actually they dun hafta come sch yesterday n it's pouring!!! Yet they didn't put me aeroplane!!! U all r the best man! Great job done!! Must also thank mushrm n gang too cos they missed their lab to help us out..N also x3L n Ms Gan(runner cum helper cum moving tripod)!!! Cos they are nt helpers yet help me to clear our logistics at the end of everything!!! N also muz thanx Bertrand for helping me get TEN runners!!! TEN!! Also muz thank all the volunteers who turn up for the race..though the weather quite bad u all still didn't back out..Nice 1, ppl!!!
Was quite nervous + kan chiong for this event cos this cannt go wrg..cannt..cos this is my very 1st event tht i'm put in charge of a department..(climb run nt counted cos tht 1 gt qy guide) very scared things will go wrg..i a lot of things dunno..luckily gt kama n Mr Wilfred to guide me along n i gt a lot of help fr a lot of ppl..thanx x2..=) At first i was quite steady but when the date is nearing, i need to confirm the volunteers' names..then i realise - i dun have ppl who gt 1st aid skills..i juz happily assume there are 1st aiders in my list of volunteers then when i started to assign ppl their tasks..oh no..luckily char found 4 1st aiders for me but..mushrm n qy choose 3 of them to be their timers -_-" I almost wanted to put Wenshan as 1st aider cos he REALLY look like 1, but they say he totally gt no 1st aid experience... luckily again, kama found another 3 of her frens to be 1st aiders.. =) Then another shock - kama ask me gt photographer? Erm..dun have..=( Oh no...i didn't thot of tht..luckily AGAIN, haha, shoe volunteered n my 6th sense tells me he can be a photographer..he juz look like 1 =D Hehex..so ya..he's my photographer n i think he quite professional..haven see his photos but i see him very serious when working..THANX SHOE!!! N thanx for bringing ur photography club fren along..4gt his name but help me thank him also..Oh..also gt zul help him take photos.. =) Then came the briefing part..omg..tht was totally a disaster...1st i thot Mr Wilfred told me to book the room fr 6-8pm..so i thot the briefing's gonna last 2hrs..then at the end of the briefing, kama told me "THERE IS NO BRIEFING THT WILL LAST FOR 2HRS!!!" OMG..shuts..should be 1/2 hr to set up the things, 1hr to brief (the most), n 1/2 hr to pack up..another thing..i didn't thot of loaning the projector to present my power point..so hafta last min get everything..n my power point slides nt ready yet..so Mr Wilfred hafta entertain the volunteers 1st..sorry 4 tht..but really thanx for helping me store time =p N i didn't noe i gt stage fright till tht day..I thot i'm comfortable talking to any1..but tht only applies to a small bunch of ppl..tht day was, to me, considered a big grp..30 plus..at least this is the biggest grp of ppl i've talken to at 1 time..i seriously freak out..so wad i had in mind all disappeared when i started talking..n the most serious mistake is - i 4gt to introduce the committee 1st..i'm only ok when i'm in my small grp briefing them about the water point n tagging..was super relieve tht the briefing ended at last..
Then the actual day came..was praying very hard for the rain not to come tht day..but my prayer wasn''t answered..the rain still came..in fact, it was pouring heavily..n it was when we were about to dispatch the volunteers..so we were delayed a bit..when the rain ceased, we dispatch the volunteers, then the rain came again -_-" i think the sky muz be playing prank on us tht day..chilli n garlic doesn't seem to work..so mushrm n a few ppl hafta go ard distributing umbrellas..n our initial plan of putting the cones n "Caution" banners was put off cos didn't have enuff time..the race was delayed a bit..but still able to start off..n i was in Mr Ishak's buggy..i used to think sitting in a buggy is a fun + cool thing to do..but not tht day..cos very scared things go wrg..cos gt other sch coming in also then scared they gt bad impression of our sch n adc..so was concentrating on whether the volunteers are where they r supposed to be, where to put cones, which marshalls to give the yellow coats n light sticks..no mood to enjoy the ride..N cos Ms Gan gt a pizza making competition gg on then she almost couldn't mk it for the race cos when i call char see if still can register for women's then she say close alr..want to come muz come quickly!!! OMG..luckily Ms Gan made it!! N she is the 1st women to complete!!! =) Xiao Jing was also among the top women!!! Mr Tay (S.K) also gt run!! Jing Quan also gt run!!! Fd Science ppl can run too!!! Haha..Bert actually gt run also 1..juz tht he gt trials to do so cannt..a lot of fd science ppl volunteered also..1st time u noe!!! Haha..Fd Science ppl ROX!!!! =D
The run was quite smooth..except due to the bad weather, the floor was a bit slippery..no..is very..esp the zebra crossing at blk q there..luckily fiona & gang gt notice tht n told us so tht we can put cones there to block off tht area..so after 2 incidents of ppl slipping, there are no more after the cones are put there..kudos to fiona n gang =) After all NYP ppl have ran..we have a performance by the percussion grp b4 the POL-ITE ppl started off..THEY ARE SUPER COOL SIA!!! I enjoyed their performance a lot a lot..after everything ended..we have to kp all the logistics back to where they are from..then we have dinner tgt..i guess all of us enjoyed the dinner except for mushrm n the qy..i think cannt say y..but can see they quite stress abt doing the timing..luckily i nt timing 1..i cannt be..cos sure will mess up everything 1 cos i nt a very organised person..
The event can say is a successful 1 cos everything went smooth for us (except for mushrm n qy) In a nutshell, still quite happy tht i didn't screw too much things up..n sorry kama..for mking u angry with some of my stupid actions.. =p Nxt time will be better k? =p Tata..Love u guys (volunteers n committee) once again =)
Happy =D
Sky2blue
| a simple day. 11/21/2008 12:19:00 AM
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Wednesday, November 19, 2008
每次我总一个人走 交叉路口自己生活 这次你却说带我走 某个角落就你和我 像土壤抓紧花的迷惑 像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后 计算的步伐每个背影每个场景 都有 发过的梦 带我走 到遥远的以后 带走我 一个人自转的寂寞 带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫 我不怕 带我走 每次我总独自远走 保持缄默不皱眉头 这次你却说一起走 彼此温柔 从此以后 带我走 就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫 我不怕 带我走
| a simple day. 11/19/2008 06:55:00 AM
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Cannt slp nw..actually slpt fr 11 plus to 3am..then wake up again..very scared..cos 1st time i take charge of things for events n i super kan chiong abt everything..i dunno y..but when the date is nearing i juz gt super hyper..plus nervous plus a lot of mixed feelings inside..i dun seem to do things well n screw up a lot of things..my brain cannt function properly these few days n i dun seem to talk properly or understand wad ppl say..so made some of them quite frustrated with me i guess..crossing my fingers nw tht 2mr..i mean 2day nth goes wrg..
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It's juz tht i dun feel wanted there..so i dread gg there..n i find there's no1 to work hard for there..i do things becos i noe i'm doing it for some1 /something..ya..i noe it's my duty as a student to complete my assignments..so it's wrg to think this way..i will try to change my mindset fr nw on..n to tht few ppl in xxxxxx, i really meant it when i say i try..i dun write wad i dun meant..i'm no 2-facer..if u dun believe or dun like wad i write here then dun read..cos i write wad i really feel..maybe i hide some feelings but wad i pen down is juz wad i truly feel..this is a blog = i have the freedom to express my views..if u interpret wad i write wrg i also have nth to say..all i can say is u dun noe me well cos we r nt close..i'm sorry for 4gtting to hand in the PR form yesterday..it's really my fault..truly sorry for making such a stupid mistake..i noe my sorry doesn't seem sincere cos i'm repeating the mistake again..i tried but nt hard enuff..the lesson have nt been learnt n the sorry doesn't take effect till the day when my mistake is corrected..to fiona's grp, thanx for still grping with me when things have proven tht i'm nt a trustable grp mate in class..ending here 1st..will proceed to do wad i have to do b4 i give any promises..
| a simple day. 11/19/2008 06:10:00 AM
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Monday, November 17, 2008
Friends are like stars - U don't see them often but u noe they are always there. Saw this phrase today at downtown east's ornaments shop "Carols".. Like it a lot..Maybe tht's y i love stars so much..haha..so this is the hidden meaning behind stars.. =) I LOVE U, STARS!!! =D
Saw another phrase tht represents the 3 of us : mushrm, wn n me.. (muz go in sequence 1..) - 1 mk things happen, another watch things happen n the last wonder y things happened..hehex..tht's also very true..I like the short short notes in there..very short n sweet n cute n meaningful n true.. =) Another 1 i personally agree to it is : Do u wanna ask a man in charge or a woman who noes wad's gg on? Haha..this shows that nt everything is only guys noe 1..sometimes gals noe better =p Then there's this 1..quite cute.. - Only my cat noes me =) Oh there's 1 i think quite cool - I'm not deaf, I'm juz ignoring you...cool rite? =p Another 1 is about mums and another 1 is about meetings..couldn't remember wad the exact phrases are..think if i'm gg to go on like tht..this post will not finish...haha..so gt time u guys may wanna take a trip down to have a look ^_^
Saw this tee at a design-ur-own-tee shop...a phrase caught my eye cos i personally like it a lot..added sth to it..but tht's 4 my own eyes..this is the original phrase - I will love u till the day i close my eyes 4eva. I think it's very sweet..n sad at the same time..there's another shirt saying "I love him, that idiot." Haha..this is quite funny though..No special meaning..juz happened to see this phrase..felt like blogging it down cos they are quite nice..
Very happy during this wkends..1 reason being out of sch..another being can go out with my besties.. =) Seem to have 4gt all about wad had happened in sch the past few days.. Sang a lot of songs at Kbox last night with x3L...she found a lot of songs tht really speaks of wad i'm feeling this period of time..n i guess..somehw she rekindled the fire in me to start on my studies again..esp Stephanie Sun's "Tao Wang"..talking about songs..recently heard rainie's new song..it's a theme song fr a Ou Xiang Ju..dunno wad name's tht but the song is call "
带我走". It not only nice..it's also wad i'm hoping for..to leave this place..dun wanna stay in this place anymore..it's a place where i cannt live carefreely..it's torturing to face ppl here..where's the pure friendships u say we should be enjoying nw? I cannt see, cannt feel, cannt find..I noe i'm running away again but sometimes running away isn't such a bad thing..though it doesn't solve probs, at least wun feel so bad..at least will be happier..anyway the world still goes round w/o me i guess..i'm juz me..yes..selfish as i am..only think abt myself...but tht's me..i guess..
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4gtting abt everything else, nxt day went cycling with wn n mushrm..really enjoyed a lot a lot..cos i've being wanting to go cycling since a long long time ago..haven being to my 3rd home a long long time le..yes..ecp's my 3rd home..it's where i will go very often when i want to be juz alone..but dun seem to be able to go since a mth ago cos there will always be activities / work on sats n sun..n i really miss there a lot a lot..though the trees r real intidimating at nite, they still seems lesss threatening than human..though it's quite scary to cycle there at nite with all the trees towering over u, they seem more friendly than the ppl ard me..if it wasn't for wn's suggestion to go ecp i guess i wun get a chance to go there till the nxt yr..it's really different cycling in the day instead of the nite...plus it's a sunday, so there's more ppl ard..n there's no stars, less breeze..the trees a lot of things seem to be clearer to my eyes..things tht i didn't notice in the nite..the trees seem more "look-friendly" than usual..normally i wouldn't dare to look at my sides for fear tht i might see sth tht i dun wanna see.. but tht day i'm able to see..mushrm say they r pine trees..strong wood =) then can see nice green grass also..blue sky..white clouds..sparrows chirping..sounds nice rite..lyk heaven..at nite is a lot of bugs sounds..leaves swaying..dark sky..sometimes a bit red..lights of planes flying over head..no ppl..strong wind blowing against u...stars coming nearer to u as u cycle..2 different experiences..both i love..but still love the nite best..
After cycling to changi beach park, we return our bikes there then went to changi village hawker to have lunch..durian rice roll..nvr heard b4..so wanna try..but quite disappointed..cos it's nt wad was in my mind..1st: It's cold.. 2nd: it's like durian nonya kueh wrap in rice rolls.. Wad i have in mind is hot durian puree wrap in rice roll then will melt in ur mouth 1..soft soft 1..nvm..i will invent my own..but muz wait till i improve my skills of cooking..cos i realise i like to cook but i cannt cook..haha..should have realise it earlier..mk a few ppl suffer fr my cooking..sry..tht's y i stop giving things i do alr..cos i want to practise 1st n try n try till i past x3L's taste buds then can give..fr nw on..if nt nice i wun give..I noe my suggestions sometimes a bit weird..nvm..i will be my own guinea pig 1st b4 i let ppl try k..n i juz realise i should do the same dish over n over again till i perfect it then go on to try the nxt..nt trying new things all the time..cos lyk tht i will nvr bake nice muffins..so i muz do until it's nice..n do them in %..(learn fr TT)
Then we went pasir ris, downtown east there to see see walk walk..saw bikes at the ntuc there..SCHERxx..4gt the exact name le but rmb it cost $139..then ate chocolate fondue fruit sticks..then went to arcade..though i dun really noe hw to play..i only like the basketball machine..very lousy though..wn n mushrm played the gun games..then after tht went to drink coffee below then went home..nice day..but dreading the nxt day cos it's physical test n i noe i wun pass my SBJ..i've nvr pass it since my sec sch...nvm...juz let nature take its course....
| a simple day. 11/17/2008 12:17:00 AM
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Saturday, November 15, 2008
Heard this song fr 4 in love..gt quite a bit of feeling for this song cos...juz think it's meaningful..so decided to pen down my wishes.. :
1. Moved to the wild2. Stay in adc 4eva 3. Scale all the mountians in the world4.Learn how to ride a motorbike 1st5. Get my own mountainbike6. Go night cycling every wkends7. Go morning dips in natural waterfall every morning8. Learn hw to bake / perfect my mushrm muffin9. Learn hw to fry a sunny side up egg10. Learn hw to cook a decent meal11. Learn hw to apply 1st aid12. Participate in every run there is (dragging adc ppl along)13. Go a lot a lot of camps14. See n communicate with all the animals there is out there15. To not be afraid of "prawns"16. To kp in contact wif all my prri n jc frens17. To revive the memories of the past b4 my sec sch18. To be able to trek well19. To be a more mature person20. To gain back my motivation in life21. To believe in friendships again22. To have the courage of losing things i love23. To have the courage to show my feelings24. To see my best friends happy25. To be a nutritionist26. To travel ard the world (no matter hw long it takes..)27. To spend my life with some1 i love.....1001. To find tht some1 Didn't manage to fill in the spaces in between 28-1000..cos actually i'm easily contented..the rest is not impt..
| a simple day. 11/15/2008 02:46:00 AM
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Friday, November 14, 2008
Shouldn't be blogging rite nw..should be in tutorial class now..somemore is the tutor i respect most..haiz..missed wp's lecture in the morning also..haiz..both i lyk 1..the previous 1 is cos i overslp..then needa prepare things..so might as well..the nxt is becos i have a lot of things left undone tht needs to be done n i still nt sure i gg to work on both wkends or nt...so muz do 1st b4 being blamed again..but dunno y..i seem to have lost the motivation to come to sch le..i still love fd science n still want to strive to be a nutritionist..this has always been my dream since sec 1.. n have nvr change b4..but somehw..i'm losing it..as in..i dun feel lyk coming to sch alr..is lyk..my main motivation to come sch is for xxxxxxxxx xxxx...i'm nt gg to say cos i noe some1 will say i doing bo liao things again..n i'm nt gg to allow tht..i dunno..at the start of the sem i'm still fuel with hope tht i will be able to pull myself up again..but nw i find myself hafta drag myself to sch..it's nt becos of any1 i guess..it's myself..i dunno wad's happening to me..but juz..cannt concentrate anymore..cannt..i find no point doing things in xxxxs alr..everyday in sch i will be looking 4ward to go..nt home but elsewhere..out of sch..cos the pressure in sch is too much..atmosphere is too tense..cannt breath..very tiring..dunno..juz hafta carry on.. =(
If there's anything i wanna blame xxxxxxxxx xxxx, i want to blame it for giving me too much happy memories..so much so tht i'm scared to leave it nw..i'm 1 tht cannt lose sth tht i love very much..maybe i can..juz tht i will be very sad..very very sad..heard 1 of rainie's 2nd album song..it says :
因为太怕失去你 所以连快乐里 都装满伤悲...i guess tht's wad i'm feeling rite nw..cos i'm always assuming time wun pass so fast..i wun graduate so fast..i thot so in pri sch..after our psle we still have 1 mth to play n i juz tell myself to dun tink too much juz enjoy..until the last day then i realise..it's the last day alr...heart damn pain..really very pain..in jc also lyk tht..nw though it's only my 2nd yr 2nd sem..but come to think of it..hw long more time do i have in xxxxxxxxx xxxx? 3rd yr will be fyp n attachmt..i dunno hw am i gg to go thru sch life w/o xxxxxxxxx xxxx...heard of this phrase fr a drama : no1 cannt survive w/o another person.. But somehw i juz can't..xxxxxxxxx xxxx has being my mental support for the whole of my 2nd yr..if there's no choice n i were to leave..i dunno...will i ever be happy again?
Skygreygrey
| a simple day. 11/14/2008 12:55:00 PM
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Lost my hp...it gt stolen..very sad though i didn't show it..i really treasure it a lot..though it's already quite worn out cos i've a lot of memories inside this hp..a lot of msgs tht i treasure a lot..a lot of pics tht i've taken..how much can my broken hp be sell for? Tht person must be very stupid to not have see tht my hp is nt worth her stoling it..,isit worth it to be caught for stoling a hp tht isn't even worth $50 in the mkt? But it's priceless in my heart..can't she at least have left my memory card for me? If u tell me i dun mind giving u my hp..the songs, the msgs, the pics...i guess will nvr come back to me..i guess it's juz fated.. =(
Some 1 asked me y am i kp talking about things relating to frens lately..well..actually..i dunno..it juz came to my mind n out of my mouth subconciously..i guess i've being really naive for the past 20 yrs to have believe in pure friendships..true pure friendships..recently cos some1 i dunno commented on my post of my friendster blog (which i haven being touching it for like a yr or 2 alr...) n i received an email about it..so i opened my blog in friendster to read what i've written in the past..i realise tht i've been talking about leaving home n living with my friends throughout my posts..i'm being reminded of the things tht i've said out of pique to my mum..the most hurting 1 i think was. "I dun need u. I only need my friends. I only want my friends.." i realise tht i've being relying mentally on my friends all these yrs..i trusted all my friends so much so tht sometimes i gt betrayed n yet i still dunno till we were out working tgt.. still i believe there is true friendship till 2day..cos i've always believed tht if we put a barrier between ourselves n the other person from the start of a friendship then this friendship will nvr work out cos u dun dare to trust tht person..u nvr give tht person a chance to show tht she will treasure ur friendship..so i nvr put this barrier across me n any1..till i enter nyp..enter my course..then i realise nt all ppl are wad they show on their face..they may appear to be nice to u on the surface but backstab u in the back..u nvr noe..maybe nt backstab..but juz..nvm..but i'm nt hurt at all..cos if tht person doesn't mean much to u, u will be devoid of feelings even when tht person scolds u or tells u off..but if tht person means a lot to u, even a sentence tht shows tht he/she is nt happy will upset u throughtout the day...there's a difference between close frens n hi-bye frens n only the few in my life can really upset me if they scold me cos i noe when they scold me, it's really time for me to reflect n dun really mean to hurt me..the scoldings actually brings us nearer n nt pull us apart cos we noe tht we dun mean to hurt each other.
I know I'm always handing in my reports late (for some1's dateline but nt the tutor's dateline) n i nvr say tht i'm rite b4..but i've alr tried to rush out everytime..i know i have poor time management..ya..tht's my bad point..i'm nt like u who can everyday once finish prac then can go home straight to do reports on the same day..i have my life too..stop blaming my club...stop saying tht wad we do is bo liao cos we do wad we believe in..we brg life to the sch..yes..u excel in ur studies...but is tht all? Do u mk a difference in the sch? U r juz working for ur individual achievements... Giving ppl ard u pressure.. At least i'm trying to balance wad i have nw..i'm nt skipping lec, i'm nt slping in class n i'm handing in my reports..maybe nt on ur time but on the tutor's time..i'm also trying my best to do my part in class as much as i'm trying to play my part as a junior in adc..i'm as proud of food science as much as i am of adc...So stop saying our club is doing things tht are redundant..try living in a sch tht doesn't have activities..a sch tht has no life..i protect n stand by things tht i treasure n love...maybe i have nth gd abt my personality but i'm loyal to the things tht i believe in..I dun get angry easily..or rather I dun get angry for nth..juz dun mess with my club's reputation..it's only me who didn't hand in report on time to u only..our club place academic at its priority..n we dun say hurting things to ppl lyk u do..i'm strong...i'm nt a weakling..i'm nt hurt...at all...
I told some1 tht adc is very impt to me..veri.. think no1 noes..but tht is becos it gives me the warmth tht i needed but could nt find anywhere in my darkest period of life..so no matter what i will stand by them..tht's my ans tht i didn't finished tht day..guess i'm getting a bit too emotional lately..but ya..tht's wad i truly feel..so no point hiding anymore..
Sky2blue
| a simple day. 11/11/2008 04:21:00 AM
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Friday, November 7, 2008
Juz suddenly have the feeling to blog..so here goes...was damn tired after combined pt yesterday but still didn't manage to slp..cos gt 5 things i have to complete by yesterday nite including reports, maps n lists etc...i can't believe i've accomplished my task though i took a bit long..looked at the clock after i've finished...5.33am..shuts..tht leaves me with less than 1 hr to slp cos hafta go sch early to print things..coffee did it's job keeping me awake during the 1st hr of lecture..however, for the subsequent hrS...my eyes juz dun listen to me n kp shutting down..the rest of the day was totally a nightmare..nt really physically..maybe 30% physically but 70% torturing in the mind..nvm..no1 will understand so no point elaborating..almost fell aslp during helmi's debrief..shuts..i saw Zul starring at me again..sorry..nt tht i'm back to my old self..juz tht i barely slept for the last 2 nites so it's now nt the mindset but really the eyes tht cannt be controlled...
Have finally realise sth...after some1 said sth to me..i've always being looking for frens n more frens..but none of them are frens tht will last..Few of them is whom i can turn to when i'm in trouble...so y bother to bother whether ppl treat u as their fren or nt? Y can't i live alone? Y bother about other ppl's view abt u? Juz be urself..If they are ur real frens they wun abandon u becos of the little mistakes u've made..they will acccept/4give u as who u r...I'm tired of always thinking whether wad i did was rite or wrg..very tired..always thinking whether this person is angry with me or nt or tht person hate me or nt.. I think it's the confidence tht I'm lacking of..tht's y i kp relying on ppl to give me assurance that i'm ok as a fren..but come to think of it..i'm quite irritated by myself n my thinking alr..so i can imagine the frustration of those ppl who kp on reassuring me. I dunno y i become lyk tht..I used to be optimistic 1..maytbe i'm juz trying to seek acceptance? I dunno..so now i'm trying to find myself back.. Friends dunnid money to be bought, dunnid always to be tgt...it's juz a matter of heart..if the heart is there, no matter hw long, hw many misunderstandings u have will also be cleared..i believe so..though i think i still "fang bu xia", i'm still scared of rejections..but i tink this feeling is reducing..actually it has being gg away ever since i've joined adc..cos the ppl in adc give me the feeling tht hey, even though u have no frens in xxxxxx, u still have us..fr then i kp telling myself ya, i still have them everytime i'm feeling lonely/down..though they always play pranks on u/mk fun of u..u will still find them cute in a lot of ways..haha..dunno y..but juz love them the way they r..at 1st i scared my class ppl will find me irritating tht i kp talking abt adc thingy to them..but nw..no more..cos most of my time spent r wif them..so the memories r very strong..so everytime i see sth or hear sth..they will somehw be related to adc n reminds me of them..then i will subconciously speak of the things tht go thru my mind..i should feel proud of these memories n the club..frens..u all understand rite? Nvm, i shall continue bugging u all until u all r convinced tht the things we do r NORMAL...till u all love adc as much as me..haha..if u all find me irritating then juz try to tahan a while..will get use to it 1..=p
Juz finished reading a whole series of Low Kay Hwa's novels..gt quite a lot of feelings after reading them..juz feel tht the stories he wrote somehw relate to me..not all but most...some things the characters said in the novels really touch me n gt me thinking..maybe his novel is speaking of wad's in every1's heart..lyk "A Photogenic Life". I believe the character represents most of us..maybe nt the events tht she had gone thru..but the thinking tht she have in mind..always have to be a perfect person in front of people..Perfect..she always ask herself,"Define perfect"...to her, perfect is to be stainless in life, to be superior than every1 else..to have every1 to look up to her..maybe all of us are not tht extreme..but to a certain extent, we are all perfectionists..some is academically while others r in terms of getting authority..but we nvr really ask ourselves wad we really want..when we gt it, r we really happy? Is tht wad's life's abt? Sometimes wanting to be perfect makes a person imperfect...i think..i may nt be rite..but tht's juz my believe..i used to be a perfectionist, academically, in sec n i failed to do so..fell down hard...n now i juz want to be simple..juz simply simple..
His another novel tht touched me is "I believe u". I will not say much abt y it touched me, but it juz does..go read it..i believe u all will be touched too.."Journey" is another bk tht is worth a read..after reading, i realise tht ya, we should do sth for tht some1(s) in our life b4 it's too late..there's a few phrases inside tht i found it quite meaningful n true.."It's nt about how much she had done for u but about hw much u can do for her." I've come to realise tht I'm 1 who cares more about ppl who dun really care for me yet i took those who really care for me for granted n dun really give them the amount of attention n care they deserve. Maybe it's not on purpose..maybe is juz tht i fail to notice tht these ppl r ard me cos they r ALWAYS ard me tht i gt too used to it. Felt quite guilty but there's really a limit to what i can do..I've always thot we can learn to care more ppl..but tht's not true..if u have to LEARN/TRY to care..tht means the care doesn't really come fr ur heart..so i really felt quite guilty @ times..but somehw..this phrase knocked some senses into me..i suppose it means to tell us to not measure/compare how much a person have done for us n nt to regret nt doing any for them but start to do as much as u can to mk it up..I think tht's more practical than pondering n broading over things tht u've failed to do ba..
I'm 1/2 way thru the bk "You are here"..will update more abt tht story after i've finished reading...
Inspired,
Sky2blue
| a simple day. 11/07/2008 01:38:00 AM
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